#discourse stuff

[i-know-the-enddc]

Your nihilistic post about people being disappointed and pissed at Lestat mocking Armand’s CSA is fucked. And yes these are bad people but the rag doll for sale is foul and your desensitised reaction to it is high key blowing my mind. Is Lestat callous? Yes. Does he not also show a level of care for Armand about his past? Also yes. Lestat in TVL: “When a being reveals his pain in such a torrent, you are bound to respect the whole of the tragedy. You have to try to comprehend.”

It was ugly and it being a gothic show with monsters doesn’t remove it from the world we (the viewers) inhabit. And telling people to stop watching is condescending but considering your response to people’s reasonable and sane opinions about mocking someone’s CSA makes sense. I could keep going but I don’t think it’s worth it.

if it’s triggering to people that’s one thing and no one should feel shamed or wrong for what triggers them. sometimes I have to literally lie on the floor when I watch iwtv because the blood triggers my vasovagal, but I don’t come on tumblr talking about how the blood is vile and unnecessary and whatever.

I find the tendency to conflate “this triggers/upsets me/makes me feel bad” with legitimate literary criticism so irritating. I have absolutely no issue with people saying “that rag doll line was vile and upsetting” because yeah sure it was. but what bothers me is jumping to “these writers are horrible people who are destroying the characters with their vile mean lines about trauma”. that is ridiculous to me. “this was vile and upsetting” says literally nothing about the actual quality of the writing. vile and upsetting is what makes this show (and these books) great.

and I’m sorry that you’re shocked and appalled by my callousness but it’s cause I have the type of autism that makes me unable to feel emotions for things that aren’t real. I love Armand literally more then anything but at the end of the day he is an object. he is not a real person who is entitled to respect, he is my thing that I get enjoyment from playing with and it does nothing but delight me when fucked up things happen to him. I have empathy for you as a real person if you are upset by it in a visceral way, but I think my advice to just not watch the show isn’t unnecessarily cruel or condescending. Maybe my tone was (it probably was) but the sentiment isn’t wrong. if a piece of fiction is impacting you in a very real and negative way then taking a step back is the best thing you can do.

and on the topic of “lestat shows armand a level of care about his past in the books so this is out of character for him”—all of these characters are self contradictory and hypocritical literally at all times. that is how people are in real life. it is not out of character for lestat to feel empathy and compassion for armand and what he’s suffered in one moment, and then use that exact same suffering to mock him when he is angry at him the next. that is life. that is storytelling.

For the record: just block me if my insensitivity bothers u that much. My brain is wired differently than yours and I don’t feel nor see the emotional gut punches that you do, so I am not gonna change and I’m probably going to continue to upset you

[bobvelsebobsession]

If I have to say one negative thing about the spooky month fandom is it’s apparent favoritism with artists.

I’ve posted quite a bit of art to the blog, granted a lot of it is ship art but I’ve done some solo works. I don’t get a lot of reblogs or likes. Which tbh is bound to happen with certain art pieces. But I hate that my most liked and reblogged post is not art related.

It’s literally my take on the new years photos we got from SR Pelo. I just don’t get why that was my hit post and not an art piece I did. It’s not even just on tumble, the same happens in discord and other media sites.

It’s incredibly disheartening. I don’t know if others feel the same or have experienced this but the favoritism is super obvious at this point.

I’ll keep doing what I want for myself here. At this point it’s mostly for me anyways. Maybe I’ll get lucky and something I make is appealing to more than my mutuals. Who knows, I’m just having a hell of a night and a lot of self doubt. Figured venting to the void of Tumblr would help.

If anyone else feels this way, you’re not alone.

[ineffablefool]

Hey guys.

I know that there’s all kinds of fun events coming up, screenings and signings and conventions and whatnot.  They will involve large numbers of people in the same space.  I accept this.  It is happening.

Please wear a properly-fitted N95-or-better mask if you’re going.

Please mask up if you’re going, because covid is still out there, and I cannot risk bringing it into my house.

Please mask up if you’re going, because I can’t go.  I have to very, very sharply limit my time in public, because every time I go out I am risking covid, and I cannot bring covid into my 100% high-risk household.  That means I have to ask myself what I’m willing to potentially hospitalize my companion of 20 years for, or what I’m willing to potentially hospitalize myself for.  And as long as covid is circulating freely, I can never stop asking that question.

I can’t join my fellow fans at the Good Omens early screening, or at SDCC, or anywhere, because almost nobody is masking.  Almost nobody is being covid-conscious.  Could you, just for these few events?  Please?  The more individual humans that do it, the more other people will see them doing it and perhaps follow suit.  The more that people in general are willing to wear masks, the less likely I am to catch covid with every trip outside.  I might be able to go to a con again, some day.  I might be able to go watch that total solar eclipse coming up next year, the one we were already making plans for back in 2017 (I’m guessing we’ll just have to wait for the next one that swings by anywhere near to us, which will be in... let me check Wikipedia... 2044).  I might be able to just... go out in public without it being a huge stressor or requiring tons of preparation, swing by a coffee shop just because I feel like it, maybe even have offline friends again.  Have a professional cut my hair in a way that gives me good gender feels again.  (Do you know, I’ve been ready to talk to my doctor about testosterone for almost two years now?  But gender dysphoria won’t put me or my housemate in the emergency room.  Vastly increasing the frequency of my visits literally to a place where sick people congregate might.)

I understand that the pandemic has been declared to be over, and that long covid is obviously only something that happens to someone else, and it’s okay, as long as you’re young and/or basically healthy it’s fine!! :) :) :) :)

I’m one of the weirdo sickies.  As long as you’re having your fun togetherness times unmasked, I get no fun togetherness times at all.

If you’ve ever gotten even a tiny bit of joy from a story I’ve written, could you please just wear a properly-fitted N95-or-better mask when at one of these public events?  As a personal favor to me?  Because, yes, I know a handful of people wearing masks a thousand miles away doesn’t make an objectively measurable difference to me.  Except it would make such an incredibly huge difference.  To me.  If for just one single day this summer, someone would put up with some inconvenience, just to show the world that they do still care about people like me.

(This post is me, as one person of a particular fan community, reaching out in an attempt to reach others in that community who are aware of my specific existence as a human being, and who could potentially want to do me a favor.  If this breaks containment then no, random person who doesn’t know who I am and doesn’t care, I am not asking a single thing of you, other than that you accept that perhaps this interwebs posting is not for you.  Because it’s not.)

[cotaco-witch-blog]

love how she reframed my courtesy as 'begging.' Took her two weeks to confirm she saw the message, and it feels good to follow-through and block her like I said I would. 💚👍🥰💅

Aside from that, 🪷🪷🪷sending lots of love💐

I hate to say it, but that profile is mental illness on display. I hated to tag you in it (and I know she has neither read the books, nor did she read what I cribbed "The Twelve Year Reich", which is a very informative book), but I was getting tired of the constant lying. It makes you wonder if a lot of the accounts harassing her back in the day were sock puppets.

I also loved her "forgiving" me for hating Nazis! That was the cherry on top.

[stevnel]

OMG I CAN’T BELIEVE SPINEVEN IS REAL!!! TAKE THAT STUPID ANTIS

This is about as good as it can get for us folks!

[guccimedusa]

That 50shadesofkomaeda clown still honking huh

[floofyplier]

I’m just gonna...leave the JSE communty for a bit...

[azurowle]

“I don’t hate the transgenderededs, I just think biology - ”

Let me guess, some of your best friends are trans women named Alberta Einstein, and they all stand up and clap when you bravely try to posit that trans people are either rapists or delusional gay men/lesbians who something something patriarchy something something Blanchard’s typology something something why won’t the delusional “butch lesbians” date us.

Right?