Okay, so i probably should not even say this but it's been in my brain all day, so...
...it really messed with my head to watch a YT video by one of the people I constantly see reblogged on here giving "scientific facts" about how weight doesn't affect health, how that's a lie sold to you by the diet industry, how the only way to heal is to eat intuitively by which they mean not restrict by which they mean never pay attention to calorie amounts or you'll end up with an ED, and how the only way to stop binging is to give in to the urge to binge until you learn how to eat more in general...
...is not fat (or at least appeared "straight sized" to me on watching.) (I still dislike that term.)
It makes sense now that I THINK about it. If they're anorexic (which I think they are?) then "binge" very likely means something different to them than to someone with bulimia or binge eating disorder and they're trying to rid themself of toxic shame about the possibility of "eating too much" so said shame doesn't kill them. So binge is not a bad word. Or something.
But absent that context, they absolutely sounded to me like someone with binge eating disorder who had decided "the science says some people are naturally fat," and thus to eat thousands of calories of junk at a sitting as a middle finger to "an industry" that "unfairly labels the tastiest foods the bad ones."
I feel relieved to know this but strangely intensely enraged at the same time. Part of the reason I gained weight was that I feared that trying to stop habits I knew were bad and getting worse was "fatphobic," and that I'd only get to try to change my body once I was sure I had no "fatphobia" inside my head. (Did it anyway, personally happier, don't THINK I hate anyone.)
...If anyone tells you to binge, tell them to shut up, or at least to be specific.
