Johanna's pov as she watches katniss walk down the isle to her during thier wedding.
Johanna Mason never thought she would get married. Even back then, during her childhood, she didn't see any point on committing your whole life to only one person forever. It sounded creepy to her young years even when she became an adolescent, and then it could be only added the fact that she was convinced it was also impossible you'd only want to have sex with your husband. As she grew mature, she was thought it was also impossible she didn't think she'd ever love someone that much.
And some time after that, she realized that she wouldn't really consider a husband an option. Probably a wife.
Still, even then, she didn't think this day would actually come. But it did. And she was so nervous. She shouldn't be, she had talked about it with Katniss the day before. They promised each other they would not be nervous. But as they cuddled one last time as fiancées, she felt Katniss heartbeat faster than usual through the whole night and she knew that neither of them fell asleep that night.
Plus, she knew what Katniss was wearing, how her mom would do her hair and what song would play in the background. No surprises. They were both wearing some of Cinna's designs he left behind and none of their dresses were white. It was an unconventional wedding with unconventional brides, so why should they? They certainly weren't virgins anymore. So Johanna remembered every step they would follow and everything they had planned, hoping she wouldn't make a fool out of herself when Katniss showed up.
It didn't work. As Katniss appeared in front of her, her arms locked with her mother's, her skin glowing and her smile shinning towards her, Johanna's knees seemed to fail her. Her hands became sweaty so quickly she didn't even had the time to process it. Her breath caught in her throat and she had to swallow hard to regain the control of her body. Katniss wasn't just beautiful, she wasn't just radiant once again, she was perfect. Because Johanna understood that she didn't think this moment would come because she never believed she would find a soulmate. And right now there wasn't any other word to describe her soon to be wife.
Katniss smiled at her and she smiled back. She mouthed a how do I look and all Johanna could do was shake her head, because she didn't think she could describe it. She felt a harm in her chest that she only felt one time before: the time Katniss gave her pine needles in 13. It was their wedding decoration now and they would soon follow their districts traditions. Afterwards, they would spend their first night as wives.
And not only Johanna saw what was the point on committing your whole life to only one person forever. She was convinced it was possible to want one person for the rest of her life. And she could love someone that much. She could love Katniss that much. Not only all that was possible, but she looked forward to it.
