looking within: the root substance of all manifestation.
โง.* I know we don't wanna hear this, but sometimes you really have to evaluate your underlying negative assumptions and look within in order to feel worthy of your desires.
I'll use myself an an example. I want more followers on social media, specifically Twitter. Throughout my time on the internet I never had a lot of followers, but with my knowledge with the law I decided that I have thousands of them.
But in the process of deciding I have more followers, I realized that it's not necessarily the number that I seek. It is the desire to be seen.
I wanted to feel validated. I craved connection. I wanted to be noticed and acknowledged.
Growing up, I had a deep-rooted belief that I am "slept on," as in unworthy, invisible. Very little friends in real life and on the internet. I used to go on social media and complain how I was lonelier on there than I was in my everyday life. And unfortunately, because that is what I believed to be true, it became my experience on social media.
I would have accounts that amassed no more than 100 followers, majority of which were inactive, and it made me insecure and messed with my self worth. It sounds pathetic because it was. I would even delete accounts because I was miserable. It was a blow to my self-esteem.
It made me think: if I woke up tomorrow to having over 1k followers on social media, how would I feel? With the awareness of being unworthy, I would likely feel a momentary excitement, but it would not last because of the beliefs I still held. I wouldn't know what to do with myself after that. I wouldn't feel fulfilled. It's like feeling lonely while being surrounded by others.
But because I looked within and found the true root of my desire, I began to affirm that I am valued, I am enough, I am worthy with or without the followers. I sought validation within. Not only did it change my awareness, it also changed the way I manifest, because I'm not holding myself back and I am giving myself permission to have what I want simply because I know I am worthy of it.
This can apply to all aspects of your desires. It is often our own ego and deeply rooted feelings of insecurity holding us back from truly living in the end. This is not a limiting belief โ it is a silent and pervasive unconscious state that needs to be addressed so you can call upon your desires effortlessly.
Because sometimes we desire things but don't understand why it will truly fulfill us, or we desire out of a place of insecurity. We want the material fruits of our labor, but a rotten seed grows rotten fruit.
When you affirm worthiness, of being enough no matter what, you are planting seeds that grow into fruitful trees. Its branches are the extensions of your feeling of being worthy, and you may find that manifesting SP, money, followers on social media and all of your desires are seamless because your root substance is able to sustain it well. Within, so without. Right?
While this isn't necessarily groundbreaking and can be lumped in with self-concept, I truly believe this will help those of us who might have manifested something that didn't last, or they're not seeing their outer world change even after affirming for it. While yes, you can manifest in any state, in order to truly become that which you decide to be, you must free yourself of any inner feelings of doubt and unworthiness. It takes a certain amount of self-examination to detect these beliefs and renounce them to make room for what you desire.
Sometimes what we truly need โthat is, evaluating and altering how you really feel towards yourselfโ is in the way of what we want. And addressing the first makes receiving the second a million times easier.
