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Goddess of the New World

Written By: solarlunarxiii

Audio: Here

Goddess of the New World

Written by: solarlunarxiii

Cast: Misa, Light, Ryuk, Rem

Setting: Misa & Light role reversal AU

(sound of notebook scratching, TV muffle, and a very persistent annoying doorbell)

MISA: (mocking) I’m busy.

(doorbell)

MISA: (mocking) Go away.

(doorbell)

MISA: Are you serious right now? It’s like 10 o’clock what do you even want?

(doorbell)

MISA: UGH!! I don’t have time for this. Rem, will you just go get the door?

REM: And make the door open on its own?

MISA: (slams hand on the table) Fine, this better be good. (stomps down the stairs)(muttering under breath) Stupid doorbell, stupid dumb people, this better not be another fan or I’ll write their name in my notebook so fast… (opens the door) …Who are you?

LIGHT: (pause) H-Hi…Misa Amane?

MISA: Yeah, what? Why are you here so late—wait, don’t even tell me, are you…?

LIGHT: (excited) Yes! Here, let me show you my notebook so you can see my Shinigami—

MISA: Would you keep it down!? Yeah, announce I’m Kira to the entire neighborhood, please. Just come inside.

LIGHT: Y-Yes, ma’am.

MISA: Don’t call me ma’am. And remember to take off your shoes. (door closes)

LIGHT: Let me introduce you to Ryuk. Touch this (that notebook-touching-sound-thing)

MISA: Oh. Impressive. Another Shinigami.  

RYUK: Hey.

MISA: You seem a lot different than Rem. You’re probably friendlier to talk to, at least. This one is a real stick in the mud.

RYUK: You and me both.

MISA: Alright come on up. Watch your step please, my cat likes to hug legs.

(door opens, door closes)

MISA: So. You’re the second Kira. How exactly did you find me? Wait, don’t bother, you have the eyes, don’t you?

LIGHT: Y-Yeah… You aren’t mad, are you?

MISA: (angrily) How can I not be mad? You impersonated me and gave away the existence of the eyes. What were you thinking?

LIGHT: I just wanted to meet you. Kira helped me through a really stressful time in my life, and… I wanted to return the favor.

MISA: Return the favor? You made everything worse! I had a plan and now L is watching me closer than ever. I don’t think you even know how much of a risk it is for you to be here.

LIGHT: You and L have made contact? Wow, that’s amazing.

MISA: Yeah yeah, whatever. (frustrated) You know all this stress is really weighing in on my beauty sleep…oh god I’ve probably aged three years because of you. Rem, do I look old and wrinkly?

LIGHT: I-If it makes you feel any better, you can have my notebook. Please, just take it.

MISA: I think I will.

LIGHT: Ow!

MISA: (mocking baby tone) Oh sorry, did I swipe the notebook away too hard? Do you need a band-aid?

LIGHT: (sad) No, I’m fine…

MISA: Good. You can go now. Oh, and since I own your notebook now, you might as well relinquish ownership and forget about it. I don’t need you anymore. Toodles.

LIGHT: (beat) That’s it?

MISA: Yup, that’s it.

LIGHT: (beat) But I have the eyes! I can kill L for you!

MISA: And risk you coming in contact with L? You must be joking. You’ve done enough damage, kid. You want to help Kira? Go join all those other idiots online and send me criminal names, god knows I don’t get enough of those kids’ annoying emails.

LIGHT: No, I’m not leaving! I came here to help Kira, and I’m going to do it. From this point forward, I will be your faithful servant. Please, tell me what to do. Let me help you. That’s all I want.

MISA: Why are you so obsessed over me? Look, I get liking Kira and all, millions of people do, but why go through all this? You know your lifespan has been halved now, you can’t take that back.

LIGHT: Yeah, but I don’t care. I did it for you.

MISA: Ok this is getting creepy.

LIGHT: Sorry, that’s not what I meant. I had a feeling you didn’t have the eyes so I decided to help you out and try to help you out any way I could.

MISA: But the tapes? Seriously? That was really necessary?

LIGHT: How else was I going to meet you?

MISA: Sheesh, I don’t know, walk outside? You have the Shinigami Eyes and I’m on the cover of magazines.

LIGHT: I…I don’t really pay attention to that, stuff…I guess…

MISA: (loudly) YOU WHAT?! (takes a few deep breaths)(calmly, to herself) Calm yourself, Misa—wrinkles, remember the wrinkles…

REM: I truly don’t understand humans’ obsession with vanity.

LIGHT: I didn’t want to make this harder on you. That’s the last thing I want. Look, I’m at the top of my class and I have a bright future ahead of me at university and who knows what else. Nobody will suspect me of being the second Kira, I’m just too—

MISA: Ok I’m going to stop you right there. Your ignorance? That’s exactly what’s going to get you caught. See, when you’re famous, you don’t have time to feel like you’ll never get caught, so I had to do everything I could so I wouldn’t get caught. I had to work for everything I have and what did you do? You’re just some privileged boy who thinks you have everything all set up and I got news for you: You. Are. BLIND. Why do you think I became Kira in the first place?

LIGHT: But I feel exactly the same way!

MISA: Oh, please.

LIGHT: It’s true! A couple months ago…I didn’t know what I was going to do. I felt lost. I hated this stupid world. It was rotten, it was boring, I didn’t feel like anything I would accomplish would mean anything. But then Kira came along—and it was like a second chance. I could see you were building a world where evil people would suffer, and I was going to do whatever I could to help you along the way, even if I didn’t know your name.

MISA: Well, that’s very admirable of you. But the fact is I just don’t need you. Sorry. I’m already very well off as it is.

LIGHT: Please, anything! Let me help you, Misa. I’ll do anything. Anything!!

MISA: (scoff) Fine! (page rip) I don’t need you right now, but who knows what things will be like in a few months or so. Maybe a time will come when I do need someone else to do the job. So why don’t you just write your name and number down here and I’ll let you know when I need you. Okay?

LIGHT: (enthusiastic) Yes, yes, that’s absolutely fine! (pen scribbling) Thank you, I promise I won’t let you down.

MISA: Can I see that? Ahh, great. So just make sure your phone is turned on!

LIGHT: Thank you Misa. Words really can’t describe how happy I am that I can be of some service to you.

MISA: (dismissive) Uh-huh.

LIGHT: Seriously, it’s such an honor to even be able to meet you.

MISA: No problem.

LIGHT: I’m so excited to be working with you. I know that together you and I will build a better world, where good people and family can b—what th—ugh...ack! (coughs, chokes, dies).

RYUK: Holy—I—what the—?!

MISA: God I thought he’d never shut up. I can’t believe he fell for that. Though I probably shouldn’t have had him kill himself in the middle of my bedroom. Hmm…Rem?

REM: Yes?

MISA: Take care of him, will you? Go dump him in the ocean or something.

REM: You realize it will look like a corpse is flying through the sky.

MISA: Ugh, are you stupid? Just be discrete, Rem. Do I have to do everything?

REM: Very well. But you know this is going to come back to you at some point. (wings take off)

MISA: Yeah, yeah, I get it. I’ll deal with it. Now, Ryuk, I hope you’re not mad at me, are you?

RYUK: Uh…I guess not.

MISA: Then can I keep your Death Note?

RYUK: Well, thing is it’s not really mine, I—

MISA: Great! Ok, you can go now.

RYUK: Whatever you say. (under breath) This girl is nuts…

MISA: What was that?

RYUK: Nothing! I’m leaving. (wings take off)

MISA: (satisfied exhale) Looks like Misa wins again. Funny, I wonder what would’ve happened if an idiot like that guy was Kira. I doubt he’d do as good of a job as I could.

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To those in the Death Note fandom

I’m not sure how many of you guys are aware of the deathnotevoices blog running here on tumblr so I thought I’d make a little post. The blog exists to bring new life to the characters through audio posts- so far many great scripts/audios both canon and au orientated have been posted already. (You can even submit your own scripts or prompts to us!)

There are still a few remaining roles that need filled (such as the entirety of the task force who are my faves and could potentially have so many scripts but have no one to voice them), it’s sad seeing these characters uncast. So if you think you could give one of these characters a shot don’t hesitate to send in an audition. It’d be really fun if we could expand the cast so we can make more cool stuff as well as showcasing everyone’s talent.

You can find the complete list of roles (both cast and uncast) on our blog here. You can even audition for an unlisted character if you really wanted to. 

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The Incredibly Important Infiltration Mission

Written by: solarlunarxiii

Audio: Here

The Incredibly Important Infiltration Mission

Written by: solarlunarxiii

Cast: Matt, Light, Mikami, Mello

Setting: Somewhere, in a very expensive restaurant…

Writer’s Note: This script is absolute crack and should not be taken with any grains of salt whatsoever. In my defense, it was requested.

MIKAMI: God, come in. God, are you there? Over.

LIGHT: Please stop calling me that.

MIKAMI: Very well, God—I’m sorry, Mr. Yagami—Yagami-san—

LIGHT: I’m going to stop you right there and put you on mute, ok? Ok.

MIKAMI: Wait! Are you at the restaurant?

LIGHT: Yes, I’m at the most expensive restaurant in Aoyama. So I swear, if you’re standing close by and I

see somebody collapse of a heart attack…

MIKAMI: No God, I wouldn’t dream of defying your orders!

LIGHT: (sigh) Please, just…stick to the audio feed. I don’t even know why you insisted on doing this, he’s

never going to let out his real name.

MIKAMI: But in case he does…

LIGHT: Yeah, you’ll be there to write down his name. Big deal. Why couldn’t I just tell you his name after

the fact? Better yet, why couldn’t I just do it?

MIKAMI: G-God? Are you there? There seems to be some disturbance in the audio signal…

LIGHT: (sigh) Whatever, just stay quiet please.

MIKAMI: Of course, God.

LIGHT: Stop calling me God!!

MIKAMI: Of course, God.

LIGHT: UGH!

(beat)

MELLO: You ready for this, Matt?

MATT: Yup.

MELLO: You sure? You don’t want to run through it one more time?

MATT: Nope.

MELLO: I don’t believe you. Tell me exactly what you’re going to say to him, step by step—

MATT: Yup.

MELLO: What?

MATT: Yup. Nope. Yup.

MELLO: Matt are you even there?

MATT: Huh? Oh hey Mello, sorry I’m playing Brain Age. It’s really boring.

MELLO: Seriously, Matt? You’re playing your DS in the middle of a restaurant?

MATT: Well what else do you expect me to do while I wait for my hot date?

MELLO: HE’S NOT YOUR HOT DATE, HE’S…(sigh), Matt…do you even know what you’re here for?

MATT: Mels, Mels, relax. I’m a natural charmer. I’ll have the Yagami boy swooning over me before the

entrée arrives.

MELLO: Yagami boy? He’s four years older than you!

MATT: Sure, but Matt here is still the maann…

MELLO: Oh, god… Ok fine, but don’t flirt with him too much. You’re here to get information. Don’t

forget it.

MATT: Yeah, yeah… Ok, I see him approaching the table now. I’m waving at him, He’s waving back and

looks kind of confused…

MELLO: Probably because you’re talking out loud?!

MATT: Oh, yeah. Ok, talk to you later Mels—(sharply)—Heyyyy I was beginning to wonder where you

were.

LIGHT: Yeah, sorry I guess I am a little late. Traffic, you know how it is.

MATT: Eyyy, no big deal. Stupid waiter hasn’t even brought me any water yet, cheapskates.

LIGHT: Y-Yeah…

MATT: Well don’t just stand there, take a seat, relax, enjoy the evening. By the way, I love your hair like

that. Very dark and handsome…

LIGHT: Excuse me?

MATT: Sorry, too forward? Guess I’m not surprised now why all the girls and boys are so obsessed with

you.

LIGHT: Oookay, we’re changing the subject now.

MATT: Alright, fine fine fine. So, tell me about yourself. I bet it’s a stressful life being top graduate at

Toho. I bet you probably get a little…tense?

MELLO: Matt, oh my god, what are you doing?

LIGHT: Look, um…I don’t want to be rude, but do you think we’re on a date? I asked you here because I

heard you had some information about the case? You know, the Kira case?

MATT: Yeah, I know…But you’re just so drop dead beautiful, Yagami, can you really blame me? (lighter

clicks)

LIGHT: Are you lighting a cigarette?

MIKAMI: God, come in, God, do you have his name yet?

LIGHT: (quietly) Shut up!

MATT: Whooaaa, calm down there, babycakes. It’s just a little cig, I’ll put it out.

LIGHT: No, sorry, you don’t have to do that.

MELLO: Matt, hello? What the hell are you doing in there? This isn’t a date!

MATT: (quietly) Would you chill out?

LIGHT: I said I’m sorry, I don’t care if you smoke in here.

MATT: No not you, I was just having flashbacks of my very annoying cockblocking friend who’s going on

mute now.

MELLO: What?! Matt, don’t you dare mut—(click)

MATT: Ah, that’s better. Now, where were we?

LIGHT: Well, I really would like to ask you some questions about this case. Is it true you have

connections to a place called Whammy’s House?

MATT: Whammy’s what? Yeah I don’t really know anything about that, but I do know a little but

about…music.

LIGHT: I’m sorry, what?

MATT: Hit it, piano man!

(very soft, loving, romantic piano music begins to play)

LIGHT: Oh my god…

MATT: You know Yagami, I don’t know if I’ve ever met a guy as handsome and charming as you before.

LIGHT: You’re serious right now.

MATT: When I look at you and you look at me, well, I don’t know about you, but I just feel a spark

between us. So much so that it almost feels like I’m getting… a heart attack.

LIGHT: This is not happening right now.

MATT: I really think we have something, you know? I just get this vibe.

MIKAMI: God? What is he talking about? Is he flirting with you?!

LIGHT: (under breath) Just shut up, Mikami.

MIKAMI: No, he can’t…you’re mine! He’ll never commit to you as much as I have!

LIGHT: Please do not tell me you’re getting jealous right now.  

MATT: Light, baby, my eyes are up here. Or were you wanting to jump straight to the main course…?

LIGHT: W-What? I wasn’t staring at your—

MATT: Hey, it’s no problem with me. I wasn’t that hungry anyway. Not for food that is…

LIGHT: Alright, that’s it, I’m leaving. This is going nowhere.

MATT: Aww, why it gotta be like that?

LIGHT: This was obviously a big mistake. If you want to actually talk about the case, call me.

MATT: Oh I will, but why wait when we can just—who the hell?

MIKAMI: (running towards the table, yelling) GOD! GOD!!!!!

LIGHT: Oh. My. God.

MIKAMI: STOP!! YOU’RE MAKING A HUGE MISTAKE!

LIGHT: Why the hell are you—um, I mean, who are you? Why are you calling me god, I don’t know you.

MIKAMI: God I’ve come to save you! Don’t listen to this man, he’s trying to seduce you!

MATT: Hey hey baby, there’s always room for one more.

LIGHT: No, I don’t even know him. Doesn’t this place have security?

MELLO: (also running towards the table, yelling) (angrily) MATT!

MATT: Oh look, now we’ve gone to four. What’s up, bro?

MELLO: Why did you put me on mute?

MATT: You were throwing off my game, man!

LIGHT: Hold on, aren’t you Mello? You’re the whole reason I set this stupid dinner up!

MELLO: Yeah and we were supposed to do this professionally but Matt here had to go and blow the

whole operation!

MATT: ….hehe, blow.

MELLO: I swear to GOD, MATT…

MIKAMI: GOD?! DID SOMEBODY SAY GOD?!

MELLO: Who is he?

LIGHT: Just ignore him, I apparently I have a lot of fans today.

MATT: (seductively) You sure do…

MELLO: Yup, that’s it, we’re leaving now.

MATT: Aww but I didn’t even get a goodnight kiss!

MELLO: The only thing kiss you’re getting is a kick in the ass, now let’s GO!

MATT: This will only take a second…

MELLO: MATT!

(Light gasps, Matt steals a kiss)

MATT: There, all better. Goodnight Light, I’m sure I’ll see you real soon.

MELLO: Get over here!

MATT: Ow, don’t yank the collar…

(dialogue fades with Mello and Matt bantering back and forth)

MIKAMI: God? Are you alright?

LIGHT: (blushed) Yeah, I’m alright. Wow…you know, I don’t know why, but…I suddenly have a very

strong urge to buy a pack of cigarettes.

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The Incredibly Important Infiltration Mission

(Crack) In order to gain information from the enemy, a top secret mission of love goes in act.

Cast:

Mikami: jeevashole

Light: yagami-raito-kun

Mello: haleybopcomet

Matt: lightnudes

Pairing: MattxLight

Written By: solarlunarxiii

Script: Here

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Were you the one doing Beyond Birthday's voice acting on dnvoices? If so, I just wanted to say that I'm totally in love with your voice and that you truly amazed me. I'm a fan of Beyond Birthday myself and I've been dying to find any live version with picture and sound of him anywhere, and fan art just wasn't enough. Then I found you and you played his voice perfectly. I felt like it was him talking and it could only be you. Congratulations on your talent and please do more! You're a perfect B!

Omgosh I— 0////////////0 You are far too kind!!! I’m Sorry I took so long to respond to this I’m just flabbergasted someone took the time to say such kind words to me, some guy with a weird voice playing a weird and undeniably attractive character, I’m nothing special!! Thank you so much for these compliments!!!! Beyond is my favourite character, and there isn’t enough about him going around the world! Again thank you so much for your words, you are so nice!!! I hope you have a great day! >////////<

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Nice work from lux-mea-lex in this particular post about Light’s reiteration of Light saying he didn’t lie to those he loved besides just to mock L. The words not said between each in those few lines and moments, so I felt the need to voice this! I hope you all enjoy and have a great morning/night.

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LIGHT : “I don’t lie to those I love.”

“Of course I’m lying to you L…. You’re too smart not to see it. But I don’t love you, so it’s only natural”.

L : “I knew you would say that.” “Because you said the same thing to me once. That’s why I know. The rule of precedent, you might say… But you meant it at the time. And now, hearing you mocking your own words is unbearable. Once, you looked at me in the eyes and promised you wouldn’t lie to people you love. I didn’t want to believe you because……..”

LIGHT : “What did you expect ?”

“Because you wanted me to be Kira. You even said so when I was only willing to help. You let Kira come back because you wanted your hard proof that I was this person who seemed monstrous to me back then. You sacrificed Light for you and only for you and now you want to “atone for your sins”, L ? But it’s too late. You could have saved me, but my past self knew too well that you are…too childish and too proud to do so. And I was right. I win. Light loses.” L : “It’s the least I can do to atone to my sins.”

“I could have saved you. I chose not to. Maybe touching you one last time will remind this part of you that enjoyed my presence, that enjoyed working with me. This part of you who promised not to leave me alone ?To die with me ? But truth is, I let this part of you down.”

LIGHT : [dries L’s hair]

“It’s only fair. There is still a part of me that remembers how much you meant, how much you mean. But you weren’t selfless enough to sacrifice your pride for me. Why should I do sacrifice mine for you ? You know I won’t. The least I can do is this, drying your hair, touching you one last time. You’re all wet and too human and deep down, it breaks me to see what I did to you. But you brought this upon yourself. I cannot accept to live in world in which I am seen as a failure. I will change it. It’s my rules. You had your chance and you missed it. Forever.” L : “I’m sad. We’ll part soon.”

“I know you are going to kill me. I am not this blind. Maybe it’s only fair. I killed a part of you, too, when I chose Kira over you. We’re equal, in life and death. And it makes me sad to part with you, me, who never speaks to people on a sentimental level. I regret so much, so, so much. Goodbye Light.”

LIGHT : [blanked eyed as he deletes L’s data]

“As long as we’re chained together we die together” that part of me who told you that isn’t the one who asked for the chains to be removed. So…”

G O O D B Y E

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This is an excerpt from mellodear’s Life and Times in a letter L had written, if I am not mistaken. Either it’s too late or mellodear did an amazing job of explaining L’s feelings at this point where he seemed far too tired to fight a trivial battle. He acknowledges that Light is not his enemy, that this isn’t about Kira and L and anymore, but along the lines of Light Yagami’s attempt to redeem himself and L’s as well (because he is no angel) and that together with their strengths that can cover each of their weaknesses move beyond their pride and ego of accomplishing what they both want (which is a better world), but together.

What one could not accomplish alone, they can together. Similar in the premise L gave to Near and Mello (which ended up coming true in the end due to Mello’s efforts) that they could surpass L together, rather than apart.

And now it seems, L is taking his own advice for his relationship with Light and find redemption.

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From mellodear’s The Life and Time fan-fiction, chapter three. I decided to take a swing at Light’s voice. Sorry if it isn’t per my usual work considering this is the my third time voicing him and officially my second of his voice being out here in the general public to be found.

Anyway, here is the excerpt:

"You’re hiding something from me", L said. Light blinked. A strange feeling of guilt stirred in the pit of his stomach.

"You made progress in many regards, Light, but you are still a dishonest man."

“You call me dishonest…” Light said pensively, as if he didn’t know how to react and needed time to determine the appropriate answer. Dishonest. He couldn’t deny that.

L tilted his head to catch Light’s averted eyes in vain. He let out a sigh.

“Stop behaving like a spoiled brat, Light. Tell me what’s wrong. Do you want me to get the words out of you?”

Light fixed his gaze on L at that. “You call me dishonest and it may be true. Then again, I don’t have any honest man to look up to anymore, L.”

He folded his arms. “…Or should I call you Lawrence, or Louis…what are they calling you these days?”

L crossed the space between them, throwing away the violin on the couch beside him.

“This is not being dishonest. This is me, being careful and paranoid as I have always been.”

Light holds L’s gaze unflinchingly, refusing to lose.

“And THEY aren’t calling me”, L continued, “You are the only one I tolerate.”

“Oh, you’re only tolerating me now?” Light said, his lips involuntarily curling up into a bitter, resentful smile, “I should have seen this coming. You finally realized you sabotaged your own existence, didn’t you? You got up and it hit you, the realization that you were sleeping with a criminal?”

L opened his mouth, closed it again. He shook his head. “You’re not making any sense and you know why?”

“I wouldn’t claim to know what’s happening in my head.”

Compassion crossed L’s face, soothing the anger on his features. “You feel guilty. It’s normal.”

“I am guilty, L.”

L placed a hand on Light’s shoulder, “I wasn’t talking about Kira.”

Light felt L’s grip tightening. “I know you’ve slept with someone else”, he said, his voice lower. An expression of utter sadness passed across L’s features. It’s short-lived.

“I didn’t--” Light tries, but he can’t bring himself to sound convincing.

“I’m not mad at you. We never said we were a couple. Not really.”

L’s hand went from Light’s shoulder to his neck. His touch was so soft, so wistful, Light could barely breathe.

"Don’t take it personally. It doesn't mean anything. I can’t explain why I did it. Especially since I was thinking of you…" His voice trailed off and he stopped talking.

L gave Light a faint smile, his fingers still dancing across the soft skin of his neck. “Oh, I know it wasn’t personal. It’s worse than that, actually.”

“Worse…?”

“You’re afraid of anything remotely sincere, Light. For some reason yet unknown to me, reality terrifies you, even when it takes the form of someone you have affection for. You like me, you fascinate me. We’re made for each other – and I don’t say that lightly. I mean it. We’re halves of a whole, and you say that to me sometimes, you know. Perhaps you don’t realise it.”

Light felt the heat climbing up to his face. “Get to the point!”

“What we have is so intense and it feels so great, it scares you.”

Light gave a demure smile. “I will never be scared of you.”

L mirrored his smile.

Silence took over, and L removed his hand from Light’s neck.

“Do you forgive me?” Light heard himself say. He sounded too young and way too weak.

L never answered that.

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I found this part interesting. Not only to voice, but in terms of their relationship. It is obvious here that L is hurt, but instead of lashing out at Light, he’s soft and gentle. The opposite of what Light was expecting when he is found out of “cheating” on L. He imagined anger, fists, harsh words that would wear away at that armor he’s always wearing, but instead he’s greeted with understanding. And perhaps that hurts the most. 

This is probably going to get lengthy so I’ll put the rest under here.

He is already trying to repent and then he commits another crime on a personally level between himself and L. It’s one thing to repent for his crimes as Kira, it’s another to repent for his crimes as Light Yagami. Especially for something that is so intimate between the both of them.

But L is kind, not forgiving, but kind and gives Light all the excuses he could ever ask for or come up with in a situation like this and that is the fact that they aren’t official. That L has never officially claimed Light nor Light ever claiming him, yet in some way it as expected or perhaps unspoken that they belong to each other.

L isn’t only understanding, he breaks it down further in the depth of Light’s being. Light is afraid of sincerity (which possibly explains why he jumps from girlfriend to girlfriend in canon. Once this girl shows that she sincerely cares, he would probably move onto the next). And why is he so scared?

Because of how genuine it feels and is, he is afraid of it being ripped away from him. Robbed, stolen and of the ache that comes afterwards called loss. Perhaps he has been with L so long, he wanted something new. Something to compare it to.

And he did not want to tell L because quite frankly, that was another disappointment to add up on the chalkboard of his crimes and sins against a man that cares for him so deeply even if it doesn’t show on the surface 99% of the time. Light knows he cares, but is too scared to commit and L is scared as well (I would assume so considering he hadn’t asked they become official), but not for the same reason. More so because he knows Light is a liar in a way that he is, yet is not. Or perhaps L doesn’t want to force Light into something he himself doesn’t want to commit himself to and so he waits.

This is also why Light sounds the way he does. He feels like a child that’s been caught (far too easily) and realizes that even though L is willing to let him repent for being Kira that this is on a whole other level and that forgiveness might take even longer to attain or as L leaves him to believe with his silence that it might never come. That this is a scar that is fresh and will be remembered. That Light will not be given the relief of those three words: “I forgive you.” being repeated back to him this time because as Light stated, he has no man to look up to for honesty, so perhaps L felt he would be honest and not give Light the lie of forgiveness.

He knows he’s a handful and understands, but somewhere in the back of L’s mind, they are together and this hurts. Not just because Light cheated on him, but because he lied and kept it from him when he had been aware of it and that considering all they had been through together that Light had the decency not only not to do that, but if he was, not to lie about it. 

It’s hard to hide a lie from a liar, after all.