I know our relationship isn't working anymore. I know we've both lost the sparks and you're afraid to let go. I'm tired and I lost my trust in you, too. I'm tired of all this paulit-ulit na nangyayari, like we're just in this loop hole na mauulit at mauulit lang din. I'm tired of always having to carry a big baby who refuse to grow. I'm tired na ang laman lang ng relationship natin are sex, drama, and anxieties. I know it's not working anymore, but I will keep this up with hopes of something change. I'm still hurt because of how you made me feel like a dog who with tight leash na bawat galaw ko nakabantay sarado ka sa kakausapin ko, sa pupuntahan ko, na sobrang restricted ako sa lahat. I thought I will atleast experience freedom from this relationship, but no, I had to cut ties with friends I wanted to have para lang isave ka from your anxieties. I endured the pain of the rejections and backstabs from people close to you. Pero ako I never did any of those, so I compromised even tho it hurts. You wanted to have all the attention, I wanted to have the freedom. I know sooner and later we will decide to let go, ang gusto ko lang is maging ready tayo kasi kahit ako pagod na pagod na nasasaktan and nabibigatan. I can't reciprocate the love you give because magkaiba tayo ng perspective about relationships, palagi tayong hindi nagtutugma. We're really opposite of each other. You want to settle down agad with love, ako hindi pa ready kasi I want to spend my life more. It's easy for you to wish to settle down and stay in one place, stay in your comfort corners, ako hindi kasi I want to grow and bloom more. You wanted us to stay in one place because you have everything, you have the life and freedom. I'm not like you I want to go out because I have nothing and I want to experience things I don't have yet, the freedom, the life I am missing from staying in one corner of life. And everytime I get glimps of freedom you will always pull the leash from my neck because you want me there, kaya nagccompromise ako to my end just to meet yours. You hold on to love and emotions, I hold on to freedom of life. Maybe always isn't always in all ways. When this ends, I promise not to get into another relationship.
