#doubles vent

[selfship-confession-void]

Sometimes I feel like I'm not close enough to my f/o I see doubles making cute fanart of them together and their profiles are so cute and romantic and they look so good together and I feel so jealous. I hate that other people can bring their selfships to life, especially when it's with *my* f/o. Meanwhile I'm stuck on my imagination and picrews and stuff.

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[m1dnightm0torist]

(TW mental illness, implied SI)

Just a reminder, if you selfship with William Afton from Five Nights At Freddy's (any version except for Vincent from the Rebornica AU; I don't consider him to be the same character as William), please DNI or block me.

**This goes "double" for nonsharing William selfshippers or people who say shit like "I am William's canon love interest and everyone else sucks!!!!"**

I have nothing against you personally, but you all deserve William more than I do, and it makes me incredibly sad and distraught.

I have been seeing a lot of doubles lately, and it's been taking a toll on my already poor mental health.

Please, for mental health reasons, if you selfship with this character and publicly post about it on your blog, do not interact with me and block me. You all can enjoy yourselves, but seeing you is just very triggering for me. And it even causes me to split on William.

I am truly sorry that I am crazy like this, but I don't want to lose my only coping mechanism (and often the only reason I continue living) because of strangers on the internet.

Thank you for understanding.

(William would pick you all over me, I know it.)

[a-puppies-vents]

STOP TRYNA FUCKING THREATEN OUR EXISTENCE BY CLAIMING YOU ARE US. PLEASE I BEG OF YOU.

[selfship-confession-void]

tfw there's a double who posts everywhere in the fandom and interacts with like everyone, so even despite having them blocked you see their username everywhere and seeing their username makes you nauseous

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[selfship-confession-void]

when you have that one double who posts EVERYWHERE and is IMPOSSIBLE to avoid🥀🥀🥀

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[selfship-confession-void]

I hate how people in my f/o's fandom keep mentioning my "more popular" double. Stop talking about them to me, stop showing me their art and yumeship, I just want to live in peace please

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[selfship-confession-void]

That feeling when there are literally only two selfshippers in the whole fandom who ship themselves with your f/o (you and your non-sharing double) and your double, who's way more popular, slowly starts setting everyone against you just because you're their double

👍

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[selfship-confession-void]

where do I even begin?

This will be long so... You might wanna drop the #long tag on this post.

My F/O and also the series they are from is semi-popular. But, seeing any selfshippers of anyone from this series is rare. Like EXTREMELY rare.

It's like, yeah, people heard about them but they don't know much I'm details.

In 2025, I was in the selfship community on Twitter and I came across this selfship drawing. Keep in mind that, at the time, I dropped that F/O because of the canon x Canon stuff and they were extremely associated with it to the point it made me a bit depressed. I haven't touched that series for a while and I was focusing on a whole different F/O So, seeing it doesn't bother me, in fact that I was extremely excited to see someone selfshipping with my favorite character and I immediately followed them. (My GOSH, I wish I didn't.) Then i started to get a lot of people who like the series to follow me and stuff.

There was a different character I liked from the series but, I slowly started to realize that the F/O I dropped, I started to like again. But, we followed each other at the time and I was scared of hurting their feelings (look, I'm people pleaser but I'm trying to stick up for myself.)

And I was talking to this other person who was self-shipping with the main character from that series, she was telling me that they wouldn't be mad or care.

I blocked that double and started to post my own drawings of the F/O I dropped.

Then this is where it all went downhill.

Kid you not, EVERYTIME I post anything related to F/O, they keep meaning the double. It doesn't even have to be a selfship art, it could be a regular fanart of the character and they would still be mentioning that double.

I'm a non-sharing yume, I will just block a double and move on. I didn't even care about that double but, if you keep mentioning it over and over again, it would get on my nerves (keep this in mind. Also, keep in mind that the type of people who keep talking about them are fans of the series as well.)

So, I let people know that I'm a NON-SHARING YUME and anyone who keeps talking about them on my account will be blocked.

I was so tired that I started to just private my account...

Then one day, I remember this in DETAIL.

Everyone was making cute fan-made rings and stuff and... A person who was following me (I wasn't)... Mention them.

When I tell you, I ALMOST lost it. I was so mad, to the point I almost cried. Not even they were a double but THEY KEPT MENTIONING THEM OVER AND OVER AGAIN.

I realized that it was time for me to pack the bags and leave. I couldn't do it anymore. I deleted my Twitter account and everything, but it was worth it.

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I believe on the same day but around midnight or it was the next morning, I have my wonderful friend who I love dearly cheers me up about the situation, I'm so extremely grateful for her. I really am but there is more that she did that I'm even more grateful for.

I explained the situation and she said that she thinks I was targeted by that double. How?

Because:

1. I said earlier, the ones who keep talking about that double Were fans of the series.

2. The way that double speaks about the F/O was concerning to her. Like possessive or something like that.

And once I put the pieces together, I realized that THE WHOLE FANDOM TARGETED ME or they were up to something.

It's crazy because I didn't see a single sharing status on their Strawpage.

And I have more reasons to believe her because she went through a lot like this and she knows from personal experiences.

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It was painful to know and it still makes me mad. But, leaving Twitter was the best decision ever.

And I don't regret it. I can now talk about my F/O that I drop back again and feel extremely comfortable.

as happy as I am. I'm still a bit skeptical about who I talk to in the fandom or whoever might be a fan of it.

I guess 'scared' is the way to put it. Everytime, I try to look at anything related to my F/O.

Guess who pops up? Yep, that same double and I immediately panic.

But, when I see a different double, I kinda just don't care.

WHICH IS CRAZY.

I know that there are going to be toxic doubles and stuff. Also, because it's Twitter.

But, knowing that they are probably talking crap about me or making fun of me still stings.

And that person who was self-shipping with the main character of the series is probably fake. I don't want to believe it but, I wouldn't be surprised.

But now, I'm good. I have a dear friend who likes the series and is supportive of my ship.

But, I still wonder if they will come back to mess with me.

As uncomfortable as it was to talk about, I think it was best to get this off my chest.

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