The last couple years, my shifting journey has sort of been on a pause. Not in the way of “Ugh, it’s never going to happen,” but more in the “I’m tired,” way. I’d been trying consistently for so long with minimal success, and had begun doubting myself.
I’ve been letting my doubts engulf me. It’s felt like I’m slowly sinking through a never ending darkness. Unfortunately, I have found comfort in there, in that void, and I make no effort to try to swim back up. Even with small moments of hope — minishifting, channeling, etc — it’s never enough to kick some action into me.
Recently, however, I rediscovered meditation. I was extremely good with it back in 2021-ish, but as I began working I lost that skill. Any time I had tried to meditate back then, I would just fall asleep; I was so mentally and physically exhausted. I truly think that that moment was the start of my shifting pause.
With my rediscovery, came the light in the darkness. I feel like I might be coming back… slowly. I will swim back up and keep fighting for my desires. Shifting is effortless, and I will shift soon.














