Hi! I'm the one with the huge bunny dream. First of all I'm so sorry if I did something out of the rules, if I missed something. It wasn't intentional, I'm so sorry to inconvenience you. You answered it even if you didn't have to. I'm so thankful for the time and energy you spent on me. Thank you.
And yes. I do have a lot of insecurities and I have a tendency to relate my self worth to how people perceive me. They're linked in my head with an unbreakable cord. I am trying to learn to let that go and be kinder to myself. Thinking about my younger selves and how strong they were in their own circumstances and how they survived. I'm in a much better place now but still I look for people's approvals and try to make even strangers on the street like me and appreciate me which is an insane thing to do. I also have issues with my body and how other people see it. I sometimes wish I was just invisible.
So you were right in your interpretation. Like you see what is going on in my head just from bunnies. You are very good at reading these things. I do have some issues I need to solve and I should be doing them by being kinder to myself.
Thank you. Honestly thank you a million times for this. I hope the bunnies bring me luck. I hope they bring you luck too.
Thank you again. Please rest more and have a good weekend.
Hey
What I wrote/added later wasn't about your ask: in fact, I didn't say anything to you. :)
It's just that some people, sometimes, send in a dream without paying too much attention to how I do that kind of interpretation... Maybe because one of my replies pops up on their dash, they act on an impulse and send something as they like/get from it (I totally understand the urgency behind this ofc). At times it works just fine, but others I have to ask them to send in the dream again, which honestly to me it's like having to make the interpretation twice and I really don't feel like these days cause it's very tiring. So, I simply wanted to avoid all that "trouble" on both sides. It wasn't about you, but just about me. To help myself. ^^
This said, I also get why you thought it was about you even without solid proof. That's just how it works when you fear being judged by others so much, and being too much or a burden, or not enough even. When you need others' approval and constant positive feedback to feel worthy. I'm glad you already know this type of behaviour is not right and it's just hurting you, so I really hope you will find a way to get out of that rabbit hole (!) for real, even if slowly.
I think part of this is also caused by how we experience social medias nowadays and what we see through them, how they/society made us believe we need to be in order to be seen and appreciated, accepted, not abandoned. But that's just plain bs.
If you cannot make it alone, I really hope you decide to ask for help. Not just to your younger self, but also to people you trust or feel like talking with or maybe to a professional figure: getting guidance and support, free from judgement, may be really helping for you. Take it slow, slow change, slow exposition to something different, but do it. As often as you can. It's like learning a new language imo: to retain new things/words/way of thinking better, you need to practice a little daily, even if it's just one sentence -about you, in your case (a more balanced sentence, to start; instead of letting your harsh inner critic tell you about all the bad in you, remind them that that's just not all you are and doesn't and cannot define you entirely: you're also kind, sweet, smart and you probably have great eyes and smile, for example. But you're so much more, fr. Universe made you, it cannot just be bad.. ;)).
On my other blog I occasionally post stuff I read, learn or download. Not sure if you can find something that may help you, but if you wanna take a look it's @loveyourlovelysoul. A bunch of my most recent posts (like this) may suggest you a new perspective, I hope.
All in all, please keep taking care and indeed try to be compassionate, before being kind, with yourself: forgive yourself, you're really just trying your best to save yourself and now also to help yourself, so big congrats to you and don't give up! Take breaks, rest, stay present in the moment, but never give up.