#ds!beatrice

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So quick question what of all of subarus deaths which one hit them the hardest?

It really differs from person to person, but here’s a couple:

Rachins: The one where he stabbed Subaru to death. It was largely an accident, and there are other, worse deaths that come after that, but he just can’t get the image of his own self murdering someone in cold blood out of his head.

Eridna and Beatrice: The first Arc 2 loop. Beatrice wasn’t his contracted partner yet, but she is now, and — she apparently once abandoned him to die, despite the fact that it would have taken her five seconds to just remove that fucking curse. Beatrice is devastated, Eridna is furious.

Rem and Ram: I don’t think there’s any possible answer that isn’t the loop where Rem tortured him for hours before Ram killed him in order to keep him quiet.

Wilhelm: The second Petelgeuse death. Not because of the grotesqueness of the Archbishop’s actions — he’s seen worse, probably — but because of the very painful and haunting realization of the similarities between his own righteous anger and the anguish-inducing display of rage that Subaru presented in response to Rem’s death.

Mimi, Crusch, Felt, and Reinhard: The third Petelgeuse death. Nobody was there. Mimi, Crusch, and Reinhard are all anguished about their failures to be there for him when he was outright begging for help, but Felt is just completely pissed with the lot of them (sans Reinhard, who was legit just not there due to a spell of bad luck).

Ferris: Both of Subaru’s suicides offend him on a very personal level, but the one he does in an attempt to save Rem (and by extension, Crusch and the rest of that lot) from Gluttony has so many other complicated feelings tied up in it that he just — it’s a lot.

Julius: If you think Julius is getting a little too overprotective now, imagine how that man is going to react to watching Subaru attempt to PET THE GREAT RABBIT.

Anastasia and Emilia: The Kiss of Death served as the final nail in the coffin for Anastasia’s opinion of the Emilia Camp as a fucking clown show — especially after she learned what Emilia thought kisses did. Emilia knew the context from the start and now she’s traumatized by her understanding of what she tried to do.

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Why do you think Beatrice didn’t help Subaru in the first loop but did several times later on? I’ve read the light novel fully and I still don’t get this part more than anything

I think a line Subaru has in the final loop kind of spells it out. Basically, when talking to Beatrice about the fact that he’s still cursed, he has a thought like, “She’s not going to say something like ‘I didn’t cure you yet because you didn’t ask me for help’ right?”

I think that’s a reference to why she didn’t help him in the first loop. Beatrice will help him if he asks for it, but if nobody asks her outright then she won’t interfere.

[sufferu]

Letsss gooo!!! I love the most recent chapter, it's just so good on the funny contrasting the dark bits, plus we're gonna see his real fucked up loops soon teehee. But! But! I am curious if you're gonna discuss Subaru's self harm tendencies since Beatrice reacted to the feather pen comment? Like, I can't imagine the others wouldn't suspect it considering all THAT but it's truly something that doesn't get mentioned until much further along, right? (Sorry anime only that was told about it before hand, I'm planning on reading the WN tho)

I’ll tell you this much:

Subaru’s self-harm tendencies get brought up very explicitly in the LN.

In this volume, even.

:)

[sufferu]

Hi! I was rereading No Refunds and you wrote that there was "a hint of something" in that scene where Anastasia was berating Beatrice for her role in Subaru's deaths, can you tell me what that "something" was and what are Anastasia's feelings about Beatrice?

Thanks in advance!

That was my way of indicating that, at that moment, it was actually ERIDNA who was getting that angry at Beatrice, one contracted spirit to another. Because, as a contracted spirit, Beatrice knowingly abandoning Subaru to die was a very, very personal insult.

Anastasia herself doesn’t really have all that strong an opinion on Beatrice, but Eridna really isn’t pleased with her for that one.

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Hello really loving reading your writing and i have a few questions.

Aside from your three main fics will u ever start writing any of your if fics, because personally I really want to see a fully developed runaway if because seeing people try chase down a time looper is hilarious.

In your no refunds fic to just be sure will it start at the start of arc 5 and culminate into your omelas fic as a result of Subaru placing pressure on himself as everyone knows about rbd so he would feel like he would be blamed for any casualties.

If your no refund fic if it does go the way I think it does what will be people’s reaction when they realise he rbd’s. Can they tell from the slight zoning out, or will it be Beatrice telling everyone about miasma increase. If Subaru asked Beatrice not to tell, do you feel like she would listen or would she prioritise getting Subaru protection by telling people he’s rbd’d.

Ik I asked a lot of questions but with your more practical and realistic way of writing I think all these would be very interesting plot threads

W yap ?

Thank you! I hope you continue to enjoy! :D

1) Considering it, but I think I’m about at capacity for the moment lol. Runaway IF is definitely under consideration, but — god, I don’t know how I’d even get STARTED with writing something like that lmao. I will say — aside from my Re:Forgotten spin-off, which I’ve already written a bit for — Runaway IF and Crusch IF would probably be the ones most likely to get actual fics, if only because they’re the ones with actual plots that I can imagine myself writing in some form or another.

(Though to be clear…if anyone wants to write something based on any of my IFs, I would genuinely be fine with that. Ecstatic, even. My only two requests would be that 1) you credit me for the idea (this is one of the only times when I would consider posting a link to my Tumblr to an alternate, public site not just acceptable, but outright appreciated) and 2) you send me the link, because god knows I’d want to read it.)

2) It does indeed start at the beginning of Arc 5, but that ficlet isn’t the climax of the story, lol — I never would have posted it if it was. It’s more like…the halfway mark? Or a bit before that, even. It’s definitely A climax, but it’s not the big finale.

3) The reactions wouldn’t be…great. It’s kind of a devastating thing to realize. But y’know, if they’re only realizing it in the middle of a fight, then they don’t even really have the time to digest what they just figured out, so… And as for how they’d figure it out, it’s very context-dependent, but also Subaru really isn’t subtle about that sort of thing lmao. And Beatrice — that would depend a lot on what’s going on, where they are, who’s around, and what answer she believes would be in Subaru’s best interests there in the moment. What would help him most in one scenario might not help at all in another, so it’s really not something she can apply a hard and fast rule to, and she’d know it.