#ds!crusch

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So quick question what of all of subarus deaths which one hit them the hardest?

It really differs from person to person, but here’s a couple:

Rachins: The one where he stabbed Subaru to death. It was largely an accident, and there are other, worse deaths that come after that, but he just can’t get the image of his own self murdering someone in cold blood out of his head.

Eridna and Beatrice: The first Arc 2 loop. Beatrice wasn’t his contracted partner yet, but she is now, and — she apparently once abandoned him to die, despite the fact that it would have taken her five seconds to just remove that fucking curse. Beatrice is devastated, Eridna is furious.

Rem and Ram: I don’t think there’s any possible answer that isn’t the loop where Rem tortured him for hours before Ram killed him in order to keep him quiet.

Wilhelm: The second Petelgeuse death. Not because of the grotesqueness of the Archbishop’s actions — he’s seen worse, probably — but because of the very painful and haunting realization of the similarities between his own righteous anger and the anguish-inducing display of rage that Subaru presented in response to Rem’s death.

Mimi, Crusch, Felt, and Reinhard: The third Petelgeuse death. Nobody was there. Mimi, Crusch, and Reinhard are all anguished about their failures to be there for him when he was outright begging for help, but Felt is just completely pissed with the lot of them (sans Reinhard, who was legit just not there due to a spell of bad luck).

Ferris: Both of Subaru’s suicides offend him on a very personal level, but the one he does in an attempt to save Rem (and by extension, Crusch and the rest of that lot) from Gluttony has so many other complicated feelings tied up in it that he just — it’s a lot.

Julius: If you think Julius is getting a little too overprotective now, imagine how that man is going to react to watching Subaru attempt to PET THE GREAT RABBIT.

Anastasia and Emilia: The Kiss of Death served as the final nail in the coffin for Anastasia’s opinion of the Emilia Camp as a fucking clown show — especially after she learned what Emilia thought kisses did. Emilia knew the context from the start and now she’s traumatized by her understanding of what she tried to do.

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So partly for the dog show fic and partly just a general question, How does the actions of a character in a failed loop compared to the final loop, compare to the actions of an If Subaru and Envy Subaru.

For example, what are the differences in the responsibilities between final loop Rem (the one with memories still) and the Rem torturing Subaru in the Arc 2 loop, and the Pride If Subaru and Envy Subaru. Both Envy Subaru and the main line Rem would be disgusted by the others actions and are not aware they are even a possibility. Does the fact a person remembers one but not the other make a difference, from my understanding of the If stories there isn't much of a push to make them happen so what differences are there in the two scenarios.

I ask this as I think Subaru grasping onto a similar idea (although I acknowledge it would have to be different) in a desperate attempt to keep his viewpoint intact could be very interesting. I could also see the argument being so poorly worded that it loops back around to insulting everyone and further isolating him from his friends.

Whether or not you do decide to do anything with this I can't wait to read whatever you make next.

All I’m gonna say is that this conversation is gonna get really long and really complicated, because it’s gonna end up being a massive theme of the fic. And I’m not entirely sure how all the characters are gonna respond, because I often don’t really know until I start writing them out.

But I will say — Crusch is on one side of that spectrum (you must take full responsibility even if you don’t remember it) and Rom is probably on the other (it’s ridiculous to force someone to take responsibility for something that they never even did). And everyone else is somewhere on the spectrum between those two reactions.