Summer Break Pt.5- This Night Has Opened My Eyes
Warnings: Profanity, smoking, drug usage, death
Y/n’s outfit (Except for the shoes sorry lads😓 & imagine it with some black stockings if u want)
I didn’t spell check sorry guys!!😭
“Hey is it cool if i go to a concert tonight?” Y/n asked Duff, turning to look at him as they sat and watched TV.
“Who’s playing?” He asked looking at his little sister.
“I’m not sure… Fru just invited me” She said furrowing her eyebrows, realize she doesn’t even know who she’s gonna be watching.
“Huh” Duff said “Your going with that Fru kid?”
“Who else? He’s the only person i know here who’s not associated with you” she laughed and nudged him.
Duff rolled his eyes “I don’t know Y/n…”
“Comon please! I’ll tell you if any shit happens” She begged him, she really wanted to go with John, plus she had already agreed!
“I just- Fuck” Duff sighed, remembering what Izzy had told him. “Okay, fine you could go”
“Yes! Thank you thank you thank you!” The girl said, smiling brightly at her brother.
“Im trusting you Y/n” Duff said, narrowing his eyes at Y/n.
“And thank you for doing that, it means a lot” She smiled at him.
Duff felt proud of himself at that moment, returning a smile at the girl looking up at him. But he couldn’t shake the concern of letting Y/n out on the streets of LA. At night to add.
“i’m gonna get ready. Mandy you wanna help me choose something out?” Y/n turned over to look at the blonde girl, who almost jumped out of her seat at that question.
“Oh my god yes yes yes Y/n! Let’s go!” She said getting up, grabbing Y/n’s hand.
Duff laughed at the two girls, surprised that Y/n asked Mandy to help her out, but happy that the two women he loved were spending time together.
“Okay, what are you thinking?” Mandy said, sitting on Slash’s bed.
“I’m not sure, something cute but not too much you know?”
Mandy crossed her legs, “I see, what are you options?”
Y/n looked around her bag, pulling out two options, first a pair of black, more fitted jeans than she usually wears, paired with a off the shoulder- cropped long sleeve. Then a cropped Misfits baby-tee, paired with a black mini skirt.
“I was thinking either of these” she said laying them out on her bed.
Mandy stood up to look at her options, furrowing her eyebrows.
“Okay I love that skirt, but what if you switch this shirt- with this shirt” Mandy said switching the misfits shirt with the black long sleeve.
“God you’re smart, should i try it on?” Y/n said, looking up at her brothers girlfriend.
“Yes! Give me a little fashion show” Mandy laughed as she clapped her hands together, “I could step out while you change” She said, standing straight and looking at Y/n.
“No it’s fine, I’ll just turn around.” Y/n smiled.
Mandy went to go sit back on Slash’s bed while Y/n faced the other way and started to change.
Turning back around, she revealed the outfit to Mandy.
“How does it look?” She asked, smiling.
“You look SOOO GOOD!” Mandy said, huge smile on her face.
“Do i?” Y/n asked, smoothing her hands over her skirt.
“Yes Y/n! But i feel like if you added some stockings it would look even fucken better” Mandy said, looking at Y/n’s bare legs, “Plus it might be a bit windy tonight, so they’ll help you not be so cold” She said, smiling at the girl infront of her.
“I don’t have any stockings”
“It’s okay! I have a million of pairs, you don’t mind if they’re black right?” Mandy said, getting up
“Black is fine” Y/n smiled, it felt good to have a woman in her life that makes her feel good about herself, and not judge her for everything she did.
“Okay i’ll be back!” Mandy said, running out the door.
Y/n laughed to herself, she really started to warm up to Mandy.
“Okay okay i’m back!” Mandy said, out of break and a new pair of stocking in her hands.
“Wow that was fast” Y/n laughed
“I know right, i’m impressed with myself” Mandy laughed along with her, handing her the stockings.
Y/n put them on, turning to look at the dirty mirror that was on the wall, smiling to herself.
“Do you like how it looks?” Mandy smiled at the girl, looking at her through the mirror.
“Fuck yea, thanks for helping me Mandy” Y/n said, turning back to face her.
“Of course! Us girls gotta help each other out!” Mandy said.
“Yea, we do huh” Y/n smiled at her, heart warm & excited for what’s to come later in the night.
“Do you wanna stay in here while I do my hair and makeup?” Y/n asked Mandy
“Hell yes!” Mandy said in a happy tone.
Y/n grabbed her small makeup bag & sat on the floor, in front of the mirror.
“So this Fru kid, do you have a crush on him?” Mandy asked as she watched Y/n put her makeup on.
“Honestly Mandy, i don’t know” Y/n sighed, now really thinking about her feelings towards John.
“Well how do you feel when you’re around him?” She said, small smile on her face.
“Happy, and I don’t know, I get nervous if he looks at me for too long”
Mandy smiled “I think you do have a crush on him”
“Fuck. I think I do too” Y/n said, disappointment in her voice.
“Why so down honey?” Mandy said, sympathetic look on her face.
“I don’t wanna have a crush on Fru” Y/n said, looking down at the mascara in her hands.
“Is it cause you’re gonna leave?”
“Yea, plus I know he really likes me too, and if something happens between us it’s gonna make everything complicated, it’s gonna make it too hard to leave. And i don’t want that to hurt him” Y/n said, voiced lace with anxiety.
“I had a boyfriend back home before I came to California” Mandy said.
“Really? did he come with you?” Y/n asked her, looking at her through the mirror.
Mandy sighed, “No, he didn’t, he couldn’t”
“Cause he was supporting his family, financially, he was the man of the house, he couldn’t leave them behind.”
“What happened when you left?” Y/n curiously said.
“It hurt me, and him, but I just had to think about all the fun me and him had, everything he taught me.” , “Maybe John was put into you’re life to help you grow as a person.” Mandy said, smiling as she saw Y/n looking at her.
“Finish your makeup Y/n” Mandy laughed
“Okay okay sorry” Y/n said, putting on mascara.
“And the thing is Y/n- don’t worry about what’s gonna happen when you leave, enjoy right now, that’s why we’re living”
“Yea, i guess i’m thinking about it too hard” Y/n sighed as she put her mascara back in her bag.
Adding finial touched to her makeup, she looked over to Mandy, “How do i look?”
“Like a model” Mandy smiled
“Oh you’re boosting my ego Mandy” Y/n shyly said.
“Good! You should act like your the prettiest girl in the room. Always.”
Y/n smiled at Mandy, “Thank you Mandy, you’re the best” she said getting up and hugging her.
“Of course Y/n, I know you’re probably not comfortable talking about this with your brother” Mandy said, hugging Y/n back.
“And don’t worry, this stays between us” Mandy smiled as Y/n let go.
“Don’t worry about it, but speaking of your brother, I should go make sure he’s alive” Mandy winked at her.
Mandy left and closed the door as Y/n went back into her duffle back and pulled out another white pair of long socks, putting them over her stockings, she scrunched them up and put on her trusty black & white adidas (superstars).
Looking at the broken clock, she thought she should probably leave now. Grabbing the same one shoulder bag as yesterday, she put in her cigarettes & lighter.
Y/n walked out the room to find everyone there, and an unfamiliar face.
“I’m leaving now Duff” Y/n said quietly, moving over next to her brother.
“Y/n! Where are you going?” Steven said whistling at her.
Y/n rolled her eyes “None of your business Stevie”
“Don’t you think you’re gonna be cold?” Duff asked Y/n.
“Hopefully not” Y/n smiled at her brother.
“Who’s your friend” Y/n said nodding her head over the boy who looked like he did not belong there.
“Marc” They boy, Marc said.
“I’m Y/n” Y/n smiled, “Okay we’ll im gonna go, i’ll see you later alright?” Y/n side hugged Duff, we’ll just his head since he was sitting down.
“Alight, be careful, love you” Duff said, feeling weird saying that to Y/n
Y/n smiled, “Love you too Duff”
“Bye guys!” Y/n said, strutting towards the door, hearing everyone but Slash say bye.
Y/n sighed as she walked towards Johns, things with Slash had been weird after what happened, he even left after apologizing to her, not seeing him till now, and he couldn’t even look at her.
She felt like he was making this too much of a big deal, so what if it happened? She’s getting over it and he should too. She thought as she reached Johns steps, seeing him sitting there.
John looked up at her, eyes widening when he saw her. “Hi” He managed to stutter out.
“Is my outfit too much?” Y/n asked nervously, which was weird, since she was always a confident person back in Seattle.
“No! No, you look pretty” he smiled at her, now getting up.
“Thanks” Y/n blushed, “Let’s go?”
John guided Y/n to the bus stop, but obviously they had to smoke some weed in the meanwhile.
“So what bad are we gonna go see?” Y/n asked John
“The Red Hot Chili Peppers” John said “They’re really good, you’ll like them”
“Yea? what are they like?”
“They’re like, Funky but rock” John said, trying to explain to Y/n, “But trust me you’ll like them”
By this time, the bus had arrived.
“Okay, i’m trusting you” Y/n laughed, getting on the bus.
“Oh yea! Also I know their guitarist, he’s pretty cool” John said, sitting next to Y/n, “He invited me to hang after the show, is that cool with you?”
“Yea that sounds cool, they’re not gonna be… weird right?” Y/n said
“What do you mean weird?” John said furrowing his eyebrows
Y/n looked at John, “Like try to make a move on me weird”
“Oh! No, don’t worry about that” John smiled at her.
“Okay, cool” The girl let out a breath.
Y/n and John quickly arrived to where RHCP were performing, which was a pretty small venue that smelled like piss and beer.
The band hit the stage and at first, Y/n didn’t quite know how to feel about them, she stared at the four men on stage with furrowed eyebrows, that was until they played their second song, which Y/n liked.
The rest of their set went really good, Y/n and John got ahold of some beer, and they bobbed their heads along to the music, Johns arm slung around Y/n’s shoulder.
“Thanks to everyone for coming out tonight, i’m Anthony, this is Flea-” Anthony pointed to a smiling boy with a tooth gap, “Our guitarist sir Hillel, and Jack the drummer boy!”
Y/n and John were already tipsy at this point, they cheered along with everyone else, clapping their hands together.
“Did you like them?” John said, mouth by her ear.
Y/n looked up to John and smiled “Yea, they had me on lock by their third song”
Both of their heads turned when they heard a voice call out for John.
“John!” They man, and as Y/n squinted her eyes and looked closer, she saw it was Hillel.
“Hey Hillel! You guys killed it” John smiled slyly
“Thanks dude!” Hillel said, out of breath, he looked at Y/n then looked back at John, smiling “Who’s you’re friend John?”
“Im Y/n” The girl smiled at Hillel
“Nice name, are you two-” he said, signaling between the pair, “A thing?”
“Oh!” The both of them said at the same time, quickly looking at each other.
“no we’re just friends” John said, flustered
Y/n spoke, also flustered “Yea, we just met”
Hillel looked at the two, smiling because he could just feel the tension between them, and even if it was dark, he knew the both of them, well mostly John, since he knew him better, were blushing.
Plus, John wasn’t the kind of person to just hang out with people his age, and in the short time period that Hillel has known John, he can’t remember even one time that John has bought someone along with him, Hillel even wondered if John was a virgin with how lonely the boy was!
“Yea, I get it, you guys wanna go backstage?” He said
“That’s cool” Y/n said, still under Johns arm
The three walked backstage, and Hillel didn’t even stop to introduce them to the other members.
“What was that?” John said furrowing his eyebrows as they walked into a small dressing room, Hillels girlfriend (is what Y/n assumed) already in there.
Hillel sighed, “We got into it again”
“Is it okay if I ask why?” Y/n tilted her head
“Anthony, he’s just- fucken controlling” Hillel rolled his eyes.
“Oh” Y/n said, not really knowing how to respond.
“Anyways, sit down!” He said, pointing to the couch
Y/n and John went over to sit, two chairs in front of them, which was where Hillel and his girlfriend were sitting.
“This is my girlfriend, Janette” He said
“Hi, I’m Y/n” Y/n smiled at the tired looking girl.
“Hello, had anyone told you how pretty you are?” Janette drunkly, or highly said, Y/n was tryna tell the difference.
“So!” Hillel said, grabbing some shit out of his pocket, “Where’d the two of you meet?” He said, putting some substance, which Y/n confirmed was heroin, onto a spoon.
Y/n felt John stiff up, looking at her.
“We bumped into each other, literally” Y/n said, looking at him light up the spoon “Then we just hung out after”
“That’s nice, a cute start to a cute love story” Hillel teased the two, “babe, can you wrap my arm?” he said looking over to his girlfriend.
Y/n laughed, now lighting a cigarette and giving one to John.
“Not quite Hillel” John said “Y/n leaving in a few weeks”
Hillel sucked in a breath as he shot himself up, “Leaving? where you going little lady?”
“Seattle, I live there” Y/n said, chilling going through her body as she watched.
“Seattle? where’s that” Hillel said, eyes closing
“Washington, DC” Y/n said, closely watching him, a bad feeling in her stomach.
“Well why can’t you stay here?”
Y/n just laughed, “That’s impossible”
“Hold on I needa-” Hillel said, standing up
“woah you good?” John said, also standing up
And with a breath, Hillels eyes rolled back and his body slammed on the floor.
“Shit Hillel man” John rushed over to him
“Fuck” Y/n whispered to herself, also rushing over to them.
“Hillel man wake up” John said, tapping his face.
Y/n grabbed a water bottle that was near her (god knows who’s it was.) and poured some on his face, “Hillel” she said slapping him.
“Hillel!” John said, shaking him.
“Jesus is he even fucken breathing?” Y/n said, putting her ear to his nose.
As John kept shaking him, Y/ns heart dropped at the fact that she couldn’t hear him breathing.
“Fuck John he’s not breathing” Y/n said, fear in her voice.
“No no no” John said, putting his fingers on Hillels neck.
“Hillel comon wake up” Y/n said, lightly slapping his face.
“Did you feel anything?” Y/n asked John, looking up at him.
“No” he sighed, looking at Hillel.
“Fuck” Y/n said, pouring more water on him.
Looking up at Hillels girlfriend, who just sat there and looked at him, Y/n spoke
“Janette call the police”
“What? The police? No no not the police” She said with wide eyes, tears forming.
“Call the fucken police Janette!” Y/n said, now yelling.
Janette stood up and ran out the room, confirming that she called an ambulance because soon enough, the rest of the Red Hot Chili Peppers rushed in.
“What the fuck?” The long haired man said as he saw his guitarist on the floor with blue lips and two teens looming over him.
“Get the fuck away from him” The same man said as he pulled Y/n from her shoulders.
“What happened?” The man with the gapped teeth spoke
“Flea man- he- he fucken shot up and just went down” John said, face wet from his tears.
“Fuck” Jack said, running his hands through his hair.
“We tried to bring him back- I-” Y/n attempted to say, this was absolutely the scariest moment in the poor girls life, she actually just witnessed someone die.
“Just get the fuck out of here” Anthony said “Go!” He yelled at the pair.
So that’s what the two did, but they waited outside till the ambulance came, confirming their fear, Hillel was dead.
As they watched the paramedics roll Hillel away in a body bag, John cried.
“Fru” Y/n said, tears running down her face “I’m so sorry”
“He’s dead Y/n” He said, hugging her, crying in her shoulder.
“I know” she said, running her hands through his neck “I’m so sorry” she repeated.
“We saw him fucken die Y/n” He said, now looking at the mess of a girl in front of him.
Even more tears fell down Y/ns face, “This is so fucked”
“But we tried John” Y/n said, Johns eyes quickly looking at her after hearing him call him by his actual name.
“I know I just” He said, closing his eyes.
“Let’s just- Let’s just go home now okay?” Y/n said in a softer voice.
So they did, walking hand in hand and in complete silence, they walked to the bus stop and waited. And with wide eyes, they probably looked like maniacs. Holding hands, blood shot red eyes, tears on their faces as they sat on the bus. Even the bus driver was giving them weird looks, but Y/n and John did even process it, they couldn’t. Throughout the whole walk the realization of what had happened had been sinking more and more into their skin, into their brain until all they could think about was Hillels blue lips, eyes wide open, but with no life in them.
“Can I-” Y/n cleared her throat, standing outside of Johns apartment “Can i spend the night?”
“Please do” John said, looking at her.
They walked into his place, b-lining it to his room.
They were silent as the both stood there, until John spoke,
“Do you wanna change?” He said, quietly
“Yea” Y/n said as John grabbed her one of his shirts and a pair of his boxers.
“You don’t mind putting these on right? They’re clean” He said as he showed her his boxers.
This made Y/n laugh a bit “Thanks for clearing that up, and no i don’t mind”
John let out a breathy laugh, “I’ll step ou-”
“No! no please” Y/n said, grabbing his arm “Don’t leave” She said as tears started to form in her eyes.
“Okay, I won’t- I’ll just turn around” He said, holding her hand for a quick second then letting go, turning around while Y/n changed.
“Where the fuck is she?” Duff said as he paced around his home.
“Well certainly not here” Steven said, trying to lift the mood.
“This isn’t fucken funny Steven. It’s about to be one am and she’s still not here”
“Okay sorry” The boy shrugged.
“Try to calm down sweetie, maybe she just lost track of time” Mandy said, trying to defend Y/n.
“No! No she’s probably out doing some shit she knows she’s not supposed to” Duff said running his fingers through his hair.
“Okay first who cares about that? Let’s just hope she’s okay” Axl said, furrowing his eyebrows.
“I do! I fucken care, obviously i care if she’s okay but fuck! I don’t wanna send Y/n back to Seattle a fucken addict!” Duff said in a harsh tone, which made Slash shift uncomfortably in his seat.
“Look she’s probably dancing around with that kid, just trust her Duff” Izzy said in a monotone voice.
“Trust! Trust! Trust is what got me here in the first fucken place, I put some trust in her, send her out, and now it’s one am and she’s not fucken home!”
Mandy sighed, where the fuck was Y/n?
Y/n and John layed in his bed, Y/n’s hand running through his hair as he held her.
“Thanks for staying” John spoke, tiredly
“Thanks for letting me stay” Y/n said
“I don’t know what I would’ve done if you weren’t here” John said, voice shaking.
“Me either” The girl said, using her other hand that wasn’t in Johns hair to wipe his tears.
“Do you think your brothers gonna be mad?” John asked her, sniffling.
“Fucken pissed, but i don’t care” Y/n said, “I would rather be here with you”
As John drifted off to sleep, Y/n stayed up, letting tears fall down her face. Her mind was an absolute wreck, why the fuck did this had to happen? Why the fuck did Hillel had to die right in front of her and John?
She looked down at the boy sleeping, eyes rimmed with red and lips puffy from crying. Poor John, she thought as she cried harder, he just saw his friend fucken die, what the fuck is he gonna do now? What’s gonna happen when she leaves?
The last thing Y/n remembers thinking about before she drifted off to sleep was, what the fuck was she gonna tell Duff?
“I really don’t want you to go” John said as he hugged her
“I know, i don’t wanna leave either” Y/n spoke, her clothes in one hand, “But i have to, I’ll try to come back later okay?” She said, wiping tears from Johns face.
“Okay” he said silently “Bye Y/n”
“Bye Fru” Y/n said as she kissed his cheek.
Walking up the stairs to Duffs place, Y/n had to stop and cry, wiping her eyes, she walked into his apartment.
Watching all eyes fall on her, Y/n wanted to burst into tears, but she couldn’t.
“What the fuck Y/n?” Duff said, standing up “Where the fuck were you? What the fuck happened?”
“Look” Y/n said, sighing “I just- I can’t right now” She said, voice cracking.
“You can’t? what the fuck does that mean? Who’s fucken clothes are these?” He said, getting angrier and not being able to really see how much of a mess Y/n looked.
“What’s wrong with you? are you strung out?” Duff said, grabbing Y/n by the arm.
“Duff calm down-” Mandy said worry look on her face.
“No don’t tell me to calm down Mandy- I thought you were fucken dead Y/n!” Duff said, angry look on his face.
The rest of the boys decided to stay quiet, even if they really wanted to know what happened, cause that would explain why Y/n looked like such a fucken mess.
“Duff not right now” Y/n said, feeling a lump in her throat.
“No no! You’re gonna tell me what the fuck happened or i’m never gonna let you see that Fru boy again.”
“Duff please” Y/n said, trying to get out of her brothers grip, “Let go of me Duff” Y/n said, now getting angry and yanking herself out of Duffs grip.
“Don’t catch a fucken attitude with me Y/n” Duff said
“Or what?” The girl said, now getting riled up.
“Y/n I swear to go you better-”
“I don’t wanna fucken tell you! I don’t wanna tell you what happened okay? So just fucken drop it and leave me the fuck alone” Y/n said, voice raised.
“No i’m not gonna drop it!” Duff yelled
“Fine! You wanna know what happened? He died Duff! He fucken died right in front of my fucken face!” Y/n said, now yelling.
Everyone’s heart dropped, thinking about how they just saw a music magazine announce the death of the guitarist from the red hot chili peppers.
“Who died Y/n?” Duff asked, voice now quiet, afraid to set off Y/n.
“Hillel! Hillel died! he’s fucken dead!” Y/n continued to yell, yesterdays memories starting to flood her head.
“Calm down Y/n” Duff said, trying to calm the girl in front of her.
“No! Fuck you Duff!” Y/n said “I told you to fucken drop it! And you didn’t!”
“Okay okay i’m sorry Y/n” he said
Y/n’s mood had a sudden drop, the girl rolled her eyes at Duff, walking away and mumbled “Whatever, i need a fucken shower”
Chapter 5!!! Kinda lagged to put this one out im sorry!!! Schools just been a complete bitch this week.
But hope you guys enjoyed!! Do you guys think her and Duffs argument was cringe?😭. Should a do a small chapter with what was going through the other guys head while Duff & Y/n argued? let me know!! Till next time xxx sorry for the trauma.
