Grunge Days pt.21- Oh, Me
Rock in Rio, even after Y/n got off stage she couldn’t believe that she had just performed at one of the most iconic rock events.
Alice had released their album a week ago, and the amount of love the album received was amazing.
The album itself, is not meant to be celebrated, everyone knew that. Y/n and Layne especially knew that. But you can’t deny the fact it’s a killer album.
Back to Rock in Rio, Alice, Soundgarden and Nirvana all made their way back to the hotel they were staying at after their performance. None of them really wanted to stay to watch the headliners.
The headliners in question being Guns.
Y/n had been avoiding Slash the whole time they arrived. She had been avoiding him since the last time they saw each other. He made his moves, calling her, randomly showing up to a show, and even showing up to her house.
But Y/n didn’t want to see him. Of course she didn’t, she really, really wanted to stop loving him. She always hoped that one day she would wake up and feel nothing towards him. Or nothing in general, she still woke up and carried a heavy heart. Waking up hoping that it would be the last time she woke up.
And obviously, she had been avoiding Duff. She couldn’t even think about him without getting a glance of how emotionless he looked when he almost killed her. She knew one day she would have to speak to him, but for now, she just wasn’t ready to.
Her and Chris went up to Kurts room (with his invitation of course), and all were talking about whatever was going on in their life. But obviously, they were only there to get high with each other.
She wanted to tell them about how her life had really been, Chris being the only one who knew partially about what had been happening in her life.
But she couldn’t, this wasn’t like back in Seattle where everyone loved and supported each other, especially Kurt. Of course she still loved him, but he had been the one to change the most out of all of them. Sure he was fine with the fact Duff was Y/ns brother. But what the hell would he think if he knew Y/n had been in a whole relationship with Slash.
“Haven’t seen you around much Y/n” Kurt said, pulling a cigarette out.
Y/n shrugged as she dug through her pocket “Haven’t been around, you know how it is”
“Yea” Kurt laughed “I do” He said, shaking his head, “But who’s the guy who fucked you up?”
“What?” Y/n said, her eyebrows furrowing
“I know you Y/n” Kurt said “And i know this isn’t you”
“So you assume it’s a guy?” Y/n asked
“I’ve seen you at your lowest” Kurt said “And this” He circled his finger at her “This is because of a guy”
Y/n cleared her throat, staying silent as she decided to then shoot herself up. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath in, then spoke “Wasn’t that serious with him”
“It’s never serious with you isnt it” He said
Y/n shook her head and looked down, then raised her head up and looked at him.
“Cause when you mess around with a sell out” Kurt said, rolling his cigarette between his fingers “They sell you out”
“What are you talking about” Y/n scoffed at him
“I’m talking about Slash” Kurt said “I thought you had higher morals”
“You don’t know what the fuck you’re talking about Kurt” Y/n said, running her fingers through her hair.
“Okay let’s just calm down” Chris said “We’re not here to judge each other alright? So who cares about who’s messed with who”
“Yea” Y/n said, looking at Kurt “Right”
An awkward silence filled the room, and Y/n couldn’t stand it “I’m gonna go now” She said, getting up.
“Going to bed?” Chris asked her, looking up to her.
“Yea- gotta be up early tomorrow” She sighed “I’ll see you guys another time” She waved, closing the door as she stood in the hallway.
She decided to go to Laynes room, she walked to his room, which was around the corner from Kurt’s.
(Gonna try to explain this the best i could, Laynes room is right when you turn the corner, Y/n hears the noises coming from the other side of the hallway from Laynes room, I HOPE YK WHAT I MEAN OKAY)
But right when she knocked, she heard a bunch of giggling coming from the other end of the hallway, turning her head to see Slash with a woman wrapped around his arm, Duff with a woman wrapped around his arm, and that new drummer guy with a woman wrapped around his arm. They were all walking towards a room (Two room down from Laynes to be exact).
She quickly knocked again, looking over to see both Slash and Duff looking at her. Thankfully Layne finally answered the door, Y/n pushed passed him, slamming his door shut.
“Are you alright?” Layne asked
“When am i alright” Y/n said, going over to sit on his couch “Wanna get high?” She asked
“When don’t i wanna get high” Layne said, walking over and sitting with her.
“You need help” Y/n chuckled
“You first” He smiled “Thought you were with Kurt and Chris?” He asked her
“Kurt knows about Slash” Y/n mumbled as she watched Layne shoot himself up
Laynes eyebrows raised, quickly glancing at her before looking back down at what he was doing “Shit” he said “What’d he say?”
“He said he thought i had higher morals” Y/n said “And he started preaching about sell outs” She laughed.
“Fucken Kurt and sell outs” Layne laughed as he helped Y/n tie her arm, “Don’t listen to him alright? He’s the one with Courtney”
“Layne!” Y/n gasped, a smile on her face “That’s- that’s mean” She laughed, looking down at her arm as she shot up.
“Whatever” Layne laughed “You were thinking it”
Y/n smiled as she undid the cloth on her arm, looking at Layne, a smile still on her face “I fucken love you Layne” She said, wrapping her arm around him.
Layne laughed as he hugged her “I love you too” He said, his eyes narrowing as he heard her sniffling “Are you crying?” He asked, trying to look at her face.
Y/n pulled him back to her, her head on his shoulder as she sniffled “Yea” She chuckled “I just love you so much, you’re my best friend”
Layne smiled, moving her hair out of his face “You’re too sweet” He said “Y’know sometimes i think you and I should just get married” He joked,
“Y/n?” Layne said letting go of her, she fell back, but Layne caught her “Y/n” Layne repeated, shaking her.
Her eyes were closed, her head hanging back, she was unconscious.
“Y/n wake up” Layne said, tapping her face “Shit” He panicked “Comon Y/n” He said to himself, picking her up and placing her in the bathtub, Turning the cold water on, he splashed her face.
“Sorry i’m sorry” Layne spoke to her, thinking he could hear her, he slapped her, and nothing.
“Okay okay fuck!” Layne said, letting go of the shower head as he tried to feel a pulse. “Fuck”.
No pulse, he freaked out, hitting her a few more times and yet nothing. She was fucken dead.
“Okay- Just- just wait- just don’t die more than you already fucken are!” Layne yelled, running to the phone in his room, putting in their managers number.
“Hello?” A tired Susan spoke
“Susan! Susan call a fucken ambulance” Layne said, hyperventilating.
“What?” Susan asked “Layne what’s going on?”
“Call a fucken ambulance Susan!” Layne yelled through the phone “Y/n-” Layne said, taking in a deep breath before sobbing, “Y/ns fucken dying”
“What? Okay just- just wait okay i’ll call them” Susan said “Unlock your door” She hung up.
Layne quickly walked to his door, unlocking it and then going back to Y/n.
He took her out the bathtub, laying her on the floor “Okay fuck” He whispered, trying to remember how to give CPR.
His health teacher would be so disappointed in him right now.
“Stayin alive, Stayin alive” He sang to himself as he gave Y/n compressions, then mouth to mouth.
“Okay- I called them” Susan said, barging into his room, “Layne?” She called out
“Bathroom” He yelled, looking up at Susan as she walked into the room.
“Oh my god” She whispered to herself, seeing a pale, almost blue lipped Y/n on the floor.
“Okay move” She told Layne, taking over on giving Y/n CPR.
Layne watched Y/n, crying to himself as he prayed that she would come back.
Duff, Slash and Matt were definitely having a party in their room, completely oblivious to what was going on two rooms down.
That was until they heard a bunch of commotion outside. At first they could ignore it, probably thinking that someone had gotten into a fight.
But then they heard a bunch of what happened, and crying. Then they decided to go check out what was happening themselves.
Duff peaked his head out the door, seeing Y/n being bought out of a room in a stretcher.
“Fuck is happening?” Slash asked as he stood behind him.
“Y/n” Duff said, the color in his face draining as he sped out of his room, walking over to see some paramedic talking to Susan and Layne.
“What’s going on” Duff said, panic in his voice.
They ignored him, continuing to speak with the paramedic “Look just let one of us go with you guys” Susan said
“I’m sorry, family only” The man said.
“I’m- Im her brother” Duff said, that’s when Susan and Layne turned back to look at him.
Duff looked at him “What?”
“You don’t get to fucken see her” Layne said, tears running down his face
“That’s my sister” Duff said, his eyes narrowing
“Look- i’m leaving now” The paramedic said, “We’re taking her to central hospital if you guys wanna see her” And with that, he turned around and left.
“Tell me what happened!” Duff yelled at Layne, Slash standing besides him.
“Layne, what happened?” Slash asked, his voice much calmer than Duff, but on the inside he was shitting himself.
“I’m not fucken telling you” Layne said “And neither of you are gonna go see her” He sucked in a breath “If she’s even fucken alive” he said, going back into his room and slamming the door shut.
“What?” Slash said, looking at Susan “What does he mean by that?”
“We shouldn’t worry un-” Susan shakily said.
“No!” Duff yelled “No! What the fuck does he mean by that!” He said, tears filling his eyes.
“Y/n- she” Susan said, wiping a tear from her eye “She died”
Duff felt like all the air from his lungs had been taken, “She what?”
“But- but they’re doing everything they can to bring her back” She said “I- I have to go” She said, going into Laynes room and bringing him out, both of them leaving the building. Leaving Duff and Slash standing there.
Dead, Slash thought, dead, It was all that kept ringing in his head.
“She- she can’t be dead Slash” Duff said, looking at him. “Slash” Duff repeated.
Slash turned his body to the side as he threw up. Wiping his mouth as he looked at Duff “We don’t know if she’s dead” He said, trying to comfort him.
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