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Anyone else get this sense of bubbling and clawing frustration that you can't have a gender harder?

I'm androgyne already. I can't be more androgyne. But sometimes I feel this need to be androgyne actively in some way, to express it as an action or practice instead of experiencing it passively, but then it's like. And do that how exactly? Gender isn't really something you do outside of things like performance and pronouns, and I don't want to use pronouns that I don't want to use and change the way I dress and behave just to fit the abstract idea of my gender more.

The whole point of it is that it's mine anyway. This is just who I am, it's not a performance.

But still I get this nagging feeling now and again of "I want to have my gender gender extra hard today" motherfucker what does that MEAN. How can I double down on being my own gender when it's literally just me being alive and myself?? And I'm already doing that????? I can't gender harder than I already am, what the fuck do you want from me!!

#is this a kind of dysphoria or something? i like my body and gender expression the way they are i just feel like I'm not gendering #hard enough. like not in a way where I'm doing anything wrong #just like. I don't know maybe just the idea that people consider me a man anyway? and i want to undo that and be “more my gender”#like people see me as JUST a man and nothing else. they see me as man gender and not manwomanperson gender #but.... I can't DO that #so what the fuck??? huh??? what the fuck???#original posts #gender #nonbinary #androgyne #trans #vent #dysphoria?

I want to dress like the slutty victorian vampire I am but I also want to dress like a grungey teen boy but I also want to dress up in frilly decora-esque dresses *takes breathe* but I also want to dress like a metalhead with messy eyeliner but I also want to be the buffest man alive while simultaneously being a twink and also I'm a cat. Is that relatable *passes out*

#vampirekin #ugh #dysphoria?#maybe #is this anything

I wasn't feeling too great about my body last night. These are the result of me drawing how I felt

#dysphoria?#idk #vent art #Ecko draws #I am fairly proud of these though #I don't usually draw bodies like this in fear my mom will find the drawings but imma just gonna use an excuse once she finds these #“anotomy study” I hope she'll believe that.#artistic nudity #technically it is an anotomy study a little bit

Am I the only one uncomfortable with how my vagina is at the front? I'd be more comfortable if it was at tjr back...idk it feels too in the front

#female body #female health #female anatomy #feminine hygiene #dysphoria?#not in a trans way #afab problems

I genuinely cannot tell

If it's just normal "ew I don't like wearing certain clothes"

Or if I have fucking dysphoria.

I was never a girly girl but I've always used to like wearing dresses just cuz I hated wearing leg prisons.

But like around puberty that changed not like I never hated my body, but I specifically hated wearing dresses I didn't mind having long hair I liked learning makeup even if I wasn't a huge fan of makeup until I was almost 18.

But I'm 26 now and I genuinely hate how I look if my hair reaches my shoulders. I bought myself the perfect sundress and I just

Cannot stand wearing it. I've taken pictures and sent it to my friends being like picking out all these flaws about how a dress makes me look and they're just like no you look fine in this dress It fits you really well and I'm just like but my arms and then it makes me like I have a figure and blah blah blah.

And uh. Idk what to do about that. I know I don't want to be a man.

And this quite literally could just be because of the fact that I have put on quite a bit of weight from what I used to look like?

To the point where last year I ended up having a breast reduction because I was a double HH cup.

I begged the doctor to make me as tiny as he could but because I was working within restrictions of being a work-related surgery that he could only knock me down to a d cup. And I don't *hate* it

But I feel like I would have been so much happier at a B

I don't like the shit's confusing I don't know and it's long I can do anything about it right now because of where I live

#personal #dysphoria?

being a trans man is so surreal

because yeah, it’s liberating and spiritual and beautiful

and then there’s the part of it that gnaws at your bones and hisses and screams at you for not being the woman you were supposed to be

because you could’ve been so pretty, and instead you were yourself, and that’s probably hard to reconcile if you let yourself think on it too much

#not quite poetry #not exactly NOT poetry #just thinking #transgender #trans man #queer #dysphoria?

i can’t fucking take being perceived. my body is useless flesh that i just want to crawl out of and exist as a beam of light. i really relate to whatever the fuck voidpunk is. when i first saw that meme of the silhouette of a person in bright blinding white sitting at the booth in a restauraunt i was like lol that’s funny but also i can’t express to you how much that’s me

#voidpunk #(?) i guess #dysphoria?