Actually I'm here from the very start of loa from subliminal to affirmations from 3d to amino apps shiftok I have seen everything ! I have always been successful in manifesting it's like from the start I have thought of me as a creator but now !! For some times I keep getting distracted or misunderstood or idk the thing is the self yes I know self is real duh duh duh but what about Venessa what about Laura these are my creation so how I just leave them like nothing? Ik we all need the inner peace the self knowledge the knowledge of we are everything but characters the ego how can we leave them to be it the connection the family we are the one who created now she is in the problem how are we going to leave her
Is there a thing where I can just silent all these questions and you know I think I'm attached to heal my inner child not the self but the child who have been neglected by my own self nothing is impossible I as a master manifester know it !! But Love why I can't just let it happen why can't I just imagine and think it's over why I keep going back to the old picture why? ( English is not my first Lang and while writing this I think I have adhd too ) I just can't focus
I'm not really sure if I understood your question, it is obvious that you (Ego) are confused right now. I think that you got entangled in all those "teachings" or concepts so let me shed a light on it :)
First of all, there is a massiv difference between what you learned in LOA and what I am teaching here (self realization). What I'm trying to get across to you is that you are no longer stuck in a loop of trying to fulfill an Ego, even if LOA calls that Ego "Self, God or Creator" - they don't know what they are talking about, honestly.
To know your real being you have to first abandon what you thought yourself to be. – Ada (4dbarbie)
You (Ego) wanting to manifest something stems from a THOUGHT of not having it, so you (Ego) want it. You having something, also a thought. Your mind, body, EGO, this world, people are just THOUGHTS of Self / thoughts in Awareness.
Everything already exists in you (Self). You are awareness taking the shape of this body, dreaming of this reality literally. There's nothing to manifest. There's nothing real here. You (Self) imaging lack and desire through an Ego, for real.
You literally got teached to add more imaginary labels to yourself than getting rid of labels altogther aka waking up from the dream. You have to come to the point where you understand that both Egos, Vanessa and Laura, are equally not real. You are making each of them "real" by thinking "this is me" and adding the Ego to your "I am". Let alone that you are asking this questions shows me that you are still very attached to her or both of them. Detach and disbelieve. They are not real or all you are, do you care what happens to a dream when you wake up?
You can do a lot of parctises actually: sit in silence, self inquiry or just understanding who you are are… the second part of your question is kind of already answered in what I already wrote above. Detach, this is Ego talking (also Ego labeling itself "Master-Manifestor" and being afraid of letting go.)
Stop worrying, you are already Self. You only have to let go of the thought that you are this Ego, that's all. Let the thought pass!