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This blog used to be a journal in the process of self realization of it's creator but has yet turned out to be a collection of sources and information guiding you too on your way back to your true Being. It all started with the question: “Who are you really?” and the realization that reality is not what it seems. I'm at a point now where I do not follow any teachings or concepts anymore nor did I consent in strictly deviding law of assumption from non dualism in the past. Nowadays, I see myself as an advocate for Self-realization. That being said, I really want to distance myself from any "new age manifestation/law of assumption" (do this to get xyz) teachings practised on youtube or tiktok.

I did create my own content in the past but stopped because there is nothing new to say and my understanding has deepened. Posts and annotations written by me are easily recognisable by my typical colour code, which is obviously displayed here. I only answer questions for understanding or clarification, guidelines here.

HOW TO START

Advaita Vendata (Non Dualism): an Introduction

Core of non dual understanding

The misconception of something "not working" is because you think there is "an ego" here to obtain something.. there isn't. The ego doesn't

"There's a general misconception that in order to experience "something else" you have to "use" an "ego" to "imagine". As "THAT" you 'unders

"IT" is the very foundation of "Everything".

Hi Ko! I've been reading your posts and I really like the examples and analogies you make! I have a question about the tea analogy. I under

Why do we experience things through senses? Is it because we are aware of that? we don't experience anything through our senses, you just

Can You Separate "Experience" from "Awareness"? — 👁️

Try it. 👀 Because you cannot separate what "you" are experiencing from "Awareness", it HAS to be "Awareness" ITself that is experiencing

imaging = observing = being aware of = experiencing "No difference between being aware of desiring it, imaginining it, having it: all illus

If everything is consciousness, I am everything and everything is me? I still feel like "me", I don't feel like god of my reality How to become aware(ness) How to control the thoughts How to be free from emotions and thoughts Stop concerning yourself with the wants and needs of Ego How to loose attachment to Ego What you really are How to be Consciousness/ Awareness

In the end, the only question remaining should be who you are without all the labels attached to "I am". You will come to discover you do not want freedom from this shape alone, but from all shapes. Be aware of your past being over. "External world shows otherwise? Just be like "for how long do you think it can keep this up when you have nothing to do with it?" @Ada

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You can experience pain in your life but you don’t have to ‘suffer’ the pain.”  - Anon I mus

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Advise/FAQs: Koda, Nova, iam-you, Cassie, Bry, Jag, Vesora, Lain, more What is Ego? How it feels to be Self / Awareness All on Self Realization and Detachment All on LOA trough a non dualistic view Books

If you still want to focus on "getting your desires" after been through all the info, search Neville Goddard (all his books and lectures). If you have a hard time understanding Neville, I advise some people who break down his teachings in a short and modern way of speaking: Edward Art (Reddit(Series), Audio), embodythestate, niclasupgradetolife, Josiah Brandt on YouTube

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I'm curious, would listening to subliminals/affirmations reinforce the illusion of the ego? I'm a bit conflicted, because on one hand, subliminals are loa based, but on the other hand, the ego isn't me, so why would anything the ego does affect me? The reason for this question is that I've been thinking of listening to subliminals to "calm" the ego and it's desires, but I just want to be sure. Have a nice day.

It might help to be very careful with how you're speaking here — because it sounds like you're treating “the ego” as a real, separate entity that does things, decides, and controls. But if ego is doing all that, then who exactly are you in that picture? And who is trying to calm it? If “you” are listening to subliminals to fix or soothe “the ego,” then the whole framing already assumes separation and reinforces the illusion you're asking about.

You might say, “Oh, I’m Awareness,” but then why are you talking about ego as if it’s something outside of you with its own will? That’s a contradiction that reveals the confusion itself.

The idea of an “ego” is just that — an idea. A label slapped onto a collection of thoughts. But go deeper: what are thoughts even made of? Can you touch them, hold them, find where they begin or end? And when you're not thinking, where is this so-called ego?

If something only exists when thought about — is that not the clearest sign it’s not Actuality? It’s not some solid entity that needs managing. So if you treat it like a real problem, you’ll keep reinforcing what isn’t even there to begin with.

It’s like the ocean thinking it has to fix one of its waves. There’s no “you” vs “ego” battle happening. There’s just the illusion of separation, created by taking thought too seriously.

Before trying to calm the ego, ask yourself honestly: what is it really? And who is it that wants to calm it?

That’s the habit I see often — especially from those coming from LOA spaces — treating the ego like some odd roommate rather than questioning what it actually is. Before worrying about calming it, maybe ask first: what do I even mean when I say ego? And who is saying that?

[divatakesontruth]

This is a very damaging idea to have, you are effectively using non duality to create duality that is ; the ego and You

The ego isn’t real, it is an appearance just like everything else , you need not do anything about it, in fact ‘doing’ is another appearance

You can’t ever do anything, you are that which is effortlessly aware unto which the ‘world’ is born

Ko answered this so well I couldn’t resist adding my opinion

[ko-existing]

hi! so i feel so grateful to get here, i wasn't seeking for my true nature at first but well now i understand but like intellectually? like i haven't had that direct experience many nd pages talk abt but before that... do you still "identify" as that SEEMINGLY person even though you already had that direct experience, like after that are we still going to be in this illusion?? it's prolly a stupid question cause if you weren't you wouldn't even make a post in here but... like can things seemingly change after that experience? (and im saying seemingly because I don't want you to see me as someone that sees things "real" just to clarify) like let me put it on an example, this person is like a videogame and the one playing it is the awareness, right? so this seeming person wants to change the game (the illusion) like the whole game design even the character design, is it "possible"??? because "changing" or even reaching for things in the human way, takes too long but isn't supposed to be instantly? idk if you understand me, anyways ty!

I can't tell you the amount of contradiction your text has, Anon.

I'm aware you used the word "seeming" to not sound like you're taking X as real but that's exactly what you're doing from start to end in how you’re phrasing things that are worth looking at — not to be critical, but to clarify for yourself.

You ask, "Do you still identify as the seemingly person after that direct experience?" — but this assumes a person could continue to be real after seeing clearly that there is no separate self. If it was truly seen, the idea of identification itself is seen as part of the illusion. So asking if identification “continues” doesn’t quite land — it’s like asking if the mirage continues to be water after realizing it never was.

Same with "Are we still going to be in the illusion?" — who’s the we? That question puts a subtle split back into place, like there’s an observer and an illusion, but the illusion and the “you” that wants out of it are made of the same substance. No one wakes up from the dream — the dream is seen through, and that’s it.

You also say something like: “Well, obviously you’re still in the illusion, otherwise you wouldn’t post here.” But the appearance doesn't vanish — it already isn't here to begin with. If you look at the ocean and a wave and see both is water, the wave is no longer taken as its false label of a wave but seen directly as water.

The video game metaphor — it's common, but a bit misleading. It implies "Awareness" is something separate from the game, playing it like a player holding a controller. But "Awareness" isn't playing the game — it is the game, the player, the thoughts, the controller, the screen — all of it. There’s no split.

Then you say “this seeming person wants to change the illusion” — but if it’s truly seeming, if it’s just a mirage, who’s going to change what? You can’t upgrade or improve something that was never real to begin with because there is no "you" and there is no "something"

And asking “why does it take so long” or “shouldn’t it be instant?” still operates from the same confusion: someone in time waiting for something outside of it. But if you stop assuming there’s a someone on a timeline, that question dissolves too.

[divatakesontruth]

This whole ask is from the subtle standpoint of desire

[divatakesontruth]

https://www.tumblr.com/divatakesontruth/778038944049872896/how-can-you-say-what-game-expecting-something-to

No I’m not the same anon, you said expecting something to happen is taking the mind seriously but have you read the conversation in the pic or the second one where she said if you don’t go within you’re not gonna be free or decide any experience ? That’s not what you’re talking about ?

That anon was talking about a “game” that is to occur after ‘realization’, that in itself is a narrative of the mind

You cannot say when I stop taking the mind seriously this will happen, it is contradictory because that idea is a false narrative OF the mind.

Then I said expectation of something to happen is taking the mind to be true— but it is also as well reinforcing the false reality of time which we have discussed countless times as false. No past no future only now.

Everything happens now, everything is instant

However we use certain words for the sake of context. If we were all being true to Being then all our blogs would be blank because all words are untrue

But for understanding we use seeming concepts to get a point across. When you go within you will be free. When the seeming you goes seeming within , you will seemingly be free.

In truth, none of what is being said exists.

Time doesn’t exist but a seeming future appears to.

You have always been free, only a thought that you aren’t opposes that.

I hope you understand that different contexts warrant different answers.

If you asked me what to do and I say don’t take the mind seriously, then you ask me what the answer to your homework is and I say think about it with your mind.

Have I contradicted myself or does it not depend on context

Moreover nothing has inherent meaning anyhow, you can use the mind or not as long as you know it to be untrue.

[unknowable-known]

Y'all need to read this one. SO GOOD.

None of this is to negate any experience, but to see that ALL experiences are like a dream and not actual. What's actual is simplicity. Seeming experiences are fine, a beautiful heritage - if you will. But they are empty, unreal and constantly in flux. What's "real" is yourself: formless, timeless, absolute

Seemingly "reality shift, choose, do whatever." There is no such thing as negating any seeming thing anyways. But the point of these tumblogs is to metaphorically express the simplicity of this, eternal now, self, infinite radiance(again whatever you wanna call yourself) that you ultimately are. We aren't talking about the seemings of seemings. You see? Anyways, the seemings of seemings are a dealer's "choice" 😉

Enjoy your(our) eternity, no worries whatsoever

[divatakesontruth]

I read this yesterday after coincidentally watching a YouTube video of a guy saying he became almost nihilistic after getting into non duality, he shut everything out because at the end of the day “nothing is happening “ sometimes I’ve done that but through close observation you’ll see how this subtly reinforces the existence of the “separate self”

But the truth, the “goal” is not to become a monk at a temple, or be a void of essence, none of that , it is just to now SEE that after all life that we thought was so crucial, and important is actually ✨empty✨

I like to workout, and learn languages, and practice asl, and read books on human psychology despite knowing nothing of those sorts are actually substantial, even though there is no actual person doing all that or actual tasks taking place or real motivation behind those, though there seems to be those there actually isn’t

So you may do whatever it is you want, travel dimensions, say affirmations, buy crystals, read your Bible whatever at all but you know inherently that the appearance of all those or even the seeming effects are all interpretations of this ever present Being; that everything is insubstantial except Self

[divatakesontruth]

Hey Diva! How does awareness relate to peace or happiness or it’s something we’ve overlooked. Please don’t say it’s nothing cause you also said it thats its peace.

Peace and happiness is the absence of problems that are imaginary stories of the mind

[divatakesontruth]

Nope. Swami said denying that experience is not real is foolish. Idk why yall be saying nothing is real yadayadayada

Tell me you don’t understand ND without saying you don’t understand ND

Let’s not get too complicated now, if by your logic , experience is real then what exactly is non duality even about? What exactly are we doing here?

The whole essence of this “practice” comes down to the exact same thing, reality is not as real as we assume it is, it is not even real point blank

Denying experience is akin to nihilism which is not what we are pointing to, experience is real in the sense that is APPEARS to be happening, you can’t go around telling everyone “oh you aren’t real” “oh this isn’t real” , you can’t decide to stop eating , having your bath because nothing is inherently real

In a dream , do you deny the experience of the dream? Ofc there is an experience but in the truth is that dream real? Is it a real independent occurrence? Or in virtual reality , can you say that the virtual game experience doesn’t exist? No, because it does; you are literally experiencing it but does that now mean that such experience is a real one?

It is a subtlety one must notice carefully, experience is real in the sense that we can’t deny it’s presence but in its very core; there is no such thing as an experience

I have listened to swami sarvapriyananda many times (I am going to assume that’s who you mean because just swami literally translates to teacher in Hindu) and no where does he say to regard this reality as substantial, it completely contradicts the very teachings of non dualism

In other words, when something is seeming ; you can’t deny that it is SEEMING and here but from the fact that it is seeming then it is not real.

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Swami : "We can not deny experience is there, that would be foolish, what we deny is the reality of it "

Anon : *takes one part of the sentence that fits their narrative and ignores the rest to feel validated in their opinion that is : us saying bs*

Listen carefully before panicking.

[divatakesontruth]

I still can’t comprehend how I should apply with the wave analogy to my everyday experiences. Would you mind giving me some examples

What is the wave analogy? I can’t even remember it

Is it the one that says a wave is still part of the ocean despite appearing different, just like everything is That despite seeming different

It’s a good one to understand what we’re talking about

But applying it? Applying it to what? This isn’t a science or study , there’s no need to apply anything when you know experience isn’t real and is only A NARRATIVE OF THE MIND

Guys I’m beginning to sound like a broken record, there is nothing to do, nothing is happening anyways the mind just thinks it is and it doesn’t matter what the mind thinks, it is another thought

And that is another thought and that is another thought, do you see now that everything you can even conceive has no single truth, including the conception of a YOU who’s trying to apply some analogy to untrue but seeming everyday experiences.

Come off it guys, leave the mind alone no matter how complicated and complex it seems

[divatakesontruth]

Hi i have a interesting question, so for this question i'm going to use the example of crying. You and other ND accounts would sit and say "oh there's no crying at all happening, it just SEEMS like there is, but in actuality there's nothing happening at all" how is that possible?? Like, if there's nothing happening at all, then how can there SEEM to be crying?? Saying that there's nothing happening at all it just SEEMS like there's something happening is creating separation correct?? Maybe i'm wrong????? 🤔 but that doesn't sit right with me. Like there's no way that something can SEEM like it's happening if in actuality nothing is happening at all. I hope you understand what i mean and i hope this isn't a dumb question or anything. Also hope you're doing well !

So in a post , I went in depth explaining how nothing occurs without Awareness. It is simply impossible for anything to be if there isn’t an awareness of it, so through that we acknowledge that the only constant is Awareness because feelings, thoughts, beliefs , whatever are fleeting;they come and go.

For something to be real and true it must be dependent on its own self for reality. That is, it shouldn’t only be considered real due to the existence of another . Merriam Webster‘s definition of real says “having objective independent existence”

Which we understand our apparent reality does not because it relies on awareness for actuality hence what we experience , what we think, what we see etc can only be true WHEN there’s an awareness of it, because something isn’t set in stone, because something is fleeting it is not real, hence it is only seeming to happen.

The only thing that remains real and true, that is always here never going and coming is Awareness. Everything else is a result of the nature of this innate being so they do not have any ounce of truth in them. Likewise yourself, the feeling of being a person is another fleeting “experience” (although it is just an idea that arises and disappears) and this is evident in moments like deep sleep, intense work, daydreaming or even zoning out; these are all moments when the “me” doesn’t exist.

But back to what I was saying, if something isn’t real but appears to be then what do we call it? Seeming, we say it is seeming but it is not actual.

If you are interested in the core of what we talk about, it would be helpful for you to get a grounded knowledge on it, then you can ask me if you don’t understand certain things

[divatakesontruth]

Even when I’m aware of being aware I still take myself to be a person ? It’s not like by being aware of being aware I “unknow” the idea of being a person

The person is an idea

“I still take myself to be a person” is a random thought that appeared -it is not the thought of a person, it’s not conceived by a person , it’s just there

[unknowable-known]

So when I notice that I’m aware of being aware but I still have thoughts like ‘I feel like I need to do more’ it’s just more thoughts that I’m aware of and I don’t need to do anything about them ?

There is no one doing anything about thoughts anyways. Just thoughts flowing along, notice this

[divatakesontruth]

“There is no one doing anything about thoughts” very powerful and concise

[divatakesontruth]

Hi Diva! I still don’t get it. I am aware, okay? What does being awareness got to do with being limitless, not bound to anything, beyond time and space. Like, I know I am aware, but what now? 😕

There was never anything that was supposed to come after , it is impossible to define awareness

The person is not aware, the person is an object within awareness as is everything else

Including concepts , limitations and conditions

How can that which precedes definitions be bound?what is determining limits ? What is constant in everything ?

[divatakesontruth]

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So, if the body, what the body experience, the thoughts, desire etc are nothing but y'know, thoughts so it has no value, existence, etc it should be easy to switch to 'blonde hair' to 'pink hair', no? it should be like a easy play, but you can't go 'i have pink hair' because who has pink hair? It is nonsense but ??

For example a kitty, everyone say no kitty, there's no kitty, thoughts say no kitty but they got no weight but how do you pop up a kitty from thin air? it would be funny like you go oh yea kitty, i got a kitty, puff heres a meeow

Something koda told me a few days ago is some asks use Non duality lingo to talk about manifestation and it seems that’s what you’re doing

Appearances aren’t real, change isn’t real , desires aren’t real , there’s no “kitty” or pink hair , these are all thought forms and mind activity you should have no business with

[divatakesontruth]

So if i am like, dunno,the body gets hurt but i avoid listening to the mind saying it's there, it hurts etc, will it "heal" as if it never happened?

If the body is a thought, then what is there that is getting healed ? What is there that was hurt in the first place? Saying it will heal is confirming the reality of the unreal body

No body , no hurt and no healing

[anon-i-mus]

DO NOT TRY TO MEDITATE, YOU ARE THE MEDITATION

DO NOT TRY TO BE IN THE PRESENT, YOU ARE ETERNAL PRESENCE ITSELF

DO NOT TRY TO BE A SPIRITUAL PERSON, YOU ARE THE UNIVERSAL SPIRIT -ANON I MUS (SPIRITUALLY ANONYMOUS)

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[divatakesontruth]

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I really don't understand diva I asked you on which was the best pointer to ponder on and you just told me that I don't need to ponder anything that I should not take the mind for truth and it is only the person that thinks it needs to ponder basically ( imo)you hardly answered my question , you even seemed against pondering and investigating yet this two don't ask you what I did , yet you tell them to ponder and investigate thoroughly . you're one my fav paves diva I don't want any drama all I want to know is why did you do this it's not fair especially when I told you I couldn't take the minds narrative as false -👁️👄👁️

You asked what the best pointer was and I told you to me it was not taking the mind seriously and in so doing you discover that your need to ponder is another narrative of the mind

I never said I was against investigation or pondering but in truth there is no need to do that because the idea “I need to ponder “ or “I need to investigate “ are just thoughts

Also I gave you a lengthy reply explaining why saying you can’t take the mind’s narratives as false will not take you anywhere, i explained to you how everything the mind says is false and you saying you can’t not take the minds narratives as truth is another mind narrative with no ounce of truth in it. Even you saying “ I’m taking the mind’s narratives as truth” is unreal and not true , you think you are but you aren’t .

You want something to ponder on? Then ponder on this and investigate it for yourself : Everything that can be said, thought of or experienced are all products of the mind and there in hold no truth

Don’t come to me telling me you can’t take the mind’s narratives as false and just stop there, we are dissecting reality here . Once you came to that thought you just concluded that’s it? You didn’t go further and ask to whom is this thought coming to? What is saying this thought is true? You must learn to train yourself to transcend your mind

I’m confused as to what I’ve done wrong because the last ask was me saying the best pointer was you shouldn’t take the mind seriously but it seems as though that is unacceptable to you so you assume and decide I’m not supplying you with an answer , I even explained how every pointer at its core is not taking the mind for truth , did you not read everything I said?

I hold no unfairness to anyone cause I don’t even know who you are , I answered the ask now it is your job to read it and truly understand

[ko-existing]

if you directly see what’s going on—this whole play of life as a “dream story” and not Actuality—then you’ll see that telling someone or not telling them doesn’t make a difference. Why? Because “someone” isn’t actually a "separate someone" and this whole dynamic is part of the same appearance.

Think of it like a dream at night: in that dream, you interact with others. Maybe you try to tell someone in the dream, “This is just a dream!” Whether they agree, argue, or ignore you, does it make a difference when you wake up? None of it carried over into waking life because it was all part of the dream story, just as their reaction was.

The same applies here. Whether you share this or not, nothing is ultimately “achieved” by anyone because nothing is ever actually happening to anyone. It’s all just appearances playing out, spontaneously, effortlessly.

You can decide to do it or not. No difference

The spontaneous and yet calculated "decision" to share comes from the same source as everything else, the same way a decision to eat, speak, or laugh arises—just because.

Traditional Swamis or teachers like Rupert Spira, Alan Watts or random people—they share not because they’re fixing the dream you see as broken and flawed but because it’s simply what appears to be happening, for the expression of it.

So, you can share if it arises naturally, just as you’d interact with people in a dream for the experience of it. But understand that their reaction—whether they “get it” or don’t—makes no difference to 'you', "Actuality", what’s always here: that foundation of "Beingness", unshaken and untouched by appearances.

If you really notice this directly, you’ll see there’s no real conflict, no real loss, just the flow of appearances. Whether they cry or laugh, agree or not, it’s all equally part of this.

No one will understand if you don't see it directly. If you see yourself to be one little human then ofc there are a million things you feel destined to fix. See the Foundation and everythingg else is clear.

Whatever you do with that, is still an appearance.