#elli rants

[drankevilcoffees]

my dream that i hope happens, but probably wont happen (if we get a Blood of Olympus movie/show)

This song in the background when Nico and Will have that interaction at the end of BoO

[booksandpaperss]

kind of obsessed with the fact you've slowly gotten more blatant with heartstopper hate lmfao😭 it's like. fine to me it's cute but NOTHING SERIOUS IS EVER GOING ON so I gotta be in a really specific mood for it I still haven't watched s2. definitely couldn't be a fixation. and everyone fucking loves it it's the best thing since sliced bread and I'm like. why tho. and then any critique of it is sorta dumbed down to "oh you just don't like how sweet it is but teenagers deserve sweet romance" like ok but why's it gotta be boring though. and too healthy like beyond normal levels of healthy. like this is missing even the usual human levels of miscommunication. and it gets resolved too easy. sorry this was supposed to cut off 4 sentences ago I'm realizing now in your inbox that I apparently have beef with heartstopper

LKSSJJSJS LISTEN listen. I don’t even hate it. truly. I even genuinely enjoyed myself during the nick and Charlie parts bc that’s the part that thought is actually put into. I just hate how much everyone loves it so blindly

honestly my biggest beef with it is that it’s marketed and treated as the most genuine and diverse groundbreaking queer storyline there is when that’s literally so far from true and it really really shows ppls true colors when they think this bc the sapphics and POC are literal props it’s actually absurd for a show that’s supposed to be a safe space for queer ppl

and god do I hate that part of the reason it’s so popular is bc it portrays these queer teenagers as never having a single, physical thought in their entire life. there was this whole plot centered around one single hickey that Charlie had??? and something abt the physical attraction portion of it all, which they did try to show btw, felt disingenuous to me. and I know that’s why it’s so palatable to a mainstream audience and it pisses me off and again it just doesn’t feel genuine. which is ironically one of the main arguments against heartstopper criticism: “it’s not cringe it’s just earnest” when yeah maybe it’s Trying to be earnest but when u look at it from more than a surface level lens it’s not rlly succeeding

and I know the aroace storyline in season 2 with Isaac resonated with a lot of people and I think that’s wonderful, and I actually do think that was something that was done well, but how can you have a storyline around asexuality when you don’t show the contrast in how it is being an allosexual queer person. there was a whole lot of romantic attraction going on but even more tip toeing around the sexual attraction aspect. and I don’t expect it to be like sex education for example in terms of the focus on sex obv , but the lack of acknowledgment of that aspect of the queer experience paired with how much the uwu wholesomeness of it all is played up rlly rubs me the wrong way. once again: it feels dishonest

I was actually talking about this with one of my mutuals the other day and they pointed out that it is very plain that alice olseman did not consult a single queer man in the writers room. and if someone can prove this wrong be my guest but I rlly don’t think the whole physical attraction component would have been done so badly had an actual queer man been on the team. feels kind of like back in summer 2022 when byler shippers would literally shun and harass anyone who even implied that Will’s feelings for Mike probably included physical attraction meanwhile Noah Schnapp himself was making jokes about it bc he’s an actual gay teenager.

not gonna even get into right now how Tara and darcy felt even more like props this season than in the last one and I didn’t even like watching their scenes bc the writing itself felt performative. that’s a whole other post.

and man, wouldn’t it have been so nice if there had actually been people of color in that writers room. On a purely surface level heartstopper has a very diverse cast but once again, peel away even one layer and you realize it’s a bunch of tokenism, which brings me full circle back to my original point: you can’t say it’s peak representation and diversity when it’s whitewashed as hell and doesn’t gaf abt sapphics despite literally being written by one. guess she chose her whiteness over her queerness even when writing a queer story which wowwww sooooo original.

okayyyy anyways did NOT mean to write a whole essay but u discovering ur own beef reminded me of mine lmaooo

all of this was to say that basically I’m not gonna pretend I didn’t enjoy myself during parts of the show, and I don’t wanna shame ppl for liking it that is not at all what I’m trying to do here, it has its own place in queer media and if a show like this came out in like 2010 it would be groundbreaking despite its issues (but again it’s literally 2023 do fucking better) , but I take issue with people treating it like something it’s not and with the amount of love it gets I feel like I have to be really loud about my criticism of it, especially bc usually the criticism of the show that gets any attention isn’t even slandering it for the right reasons and like. if ur gonna hate on something queer and popular do it right

oh and heartstopper writers? maybe try speaking with an actual teenager once in your life before writing their dialogue they do not fucking communicate that well

okay I’m done now finally 🫡

[jumpingpuddles]

I really wish my brother would put in more of an effort around the apartment. He doesn’t have a job (yet, though it looks like he will soon), but both my dad and I do and we’re exhausted when we finally get home and don’t have the energy for all of these other things.

We don’t expect him to clean the whole house or anything. Just... pick up after himself (he’s 23, not 6, for fuck’s sake), take out the trash and if the dish washer is full, run a program (or if it’s already clean, empty it). That’s not too much to ask, is it?

He was about to leave to go to the gym when I came home and I was complaining that I didn’t want to go out in the cold again to take care of the trash bags right inside the door (we’ve been clearing things out, that’s why there’s so much of it) and suggested that since he was leaving, maybe he could help me? He says he doesn’t want to bring the key. I tell him that I’d come with so he doesn’t have to. But he has to beat the crowd, he says. This would take a maximum of 2 minutes. The gym won’t be crowded if you’re there two minutes later, I tell him... But he has to “stick to his schedule”...

He’s had ALL DAY! I’d be more understanding if he had stuff to do prior to this, but he doesn’t.

Anyway, I do it alone. He’s gone to the gym when I get back and I walk into the kitchen... and it’s a complete mess. Cereal boxes and bread crumbs on the counter. Pans on the stove. Dish in the sink.

I can’t do this!

And like... I really want to find a place of my own, but I’m kind of scared that if I do, dad will have to do EVERYTHING until my brother eventually leaves the nest and that’s not fair.

[batmantaking-hobbits2gallifrey]

This is a weird quibble I have with the Sequel trilogy but how come Rey only gets the one outfit? I love her first outfit it's iconic. But to me it's clearly an ensemble cobbled together with whatever castoffs/rags/old bandages she could trade for. She would have made something adapted to her environment and needs from the meager materials available. So why the fuck would she put together the exact same outfit once she has finally gotten out of that hellscape and has some more options? Every other female character gets multiple distinct outfits in each movie. They even make a point in Phantom Menace that people (Anakin) from hot desert planets get cold easily on spaceships let alone other planets with more temperate climates. Why doesn't she just wear a long sleeved shirt instead of the bandage wraps on her arms? That was a necessity not a fashion choice. Where is my Rey in layers of sweaters and jackets? Maybe she's always wanted to wear a pretty dress? A scarf? Some fingerless gloves? Pants that look like a dress? Black leather? Random quasi-military layers like Jyn Erso? HOW COME SHE WORE SLIGHT VARIATIONS OF THE EXACT SAME OUTFIT FOR THREE DAMN MOVIES?!?

[batmantaking-hobbits2gallifrey]

For whatever St. Nick-forsaken reason my work Christmas party is a breakfast buffet and white elephant at 7 fucking AM in the morning at the Holiday Inn

I am Not In The Mood For This

And apparently my boss found out that the newest employee (who is very introverted and shy) isn't coming and got like really mad at him? And that just sours me a bit on the whole affair. You make us decorate for Christmas the week before Thanksgiving, you're planning to not allow people to request time off on black friday OR between Christmas and New years, and NOW you're enforcing holiday fun?

Fuck.

This.

Shit.

If you read this. Message me and tell me to stop what I'm doing and work on job applications.

I Need to Leave.

[batmantaking-hobbits2gallifrey]

My mom is having a dinner party for her friends as a sort of Christmas present for them. She's making a big Italian meal with lots of courses and stuff for 11 people. This is HER THING she's been planning for weeks and outside of being asked for input and help cleaning the house (I live here so, obviously I'll help) I HAVE NOT BEEN INVOLVED. Last week my Dad, my little brother and I were looking at movies to go see so we can be out of the house. But today, the day before the party I'm talking about going to the movie (Arrival, which I've wanted to see for weeks) she goes- Mom: ohh..... I could really use your help. Me: err you mean with set up? Mom: no with keeping things going during dinner. Me: ... Mom: otherwise I'm going to be running around the whole time. So NOW she wants me to play waitress to her party and if I say no it'll look like I'm putting this big burden on her but she planned this from the beginning?? If she didn't want to do all the serving and running around that SHE KNOWS IS INVOLVED why didn't she ask me before I had plans (mental and physical) to be far far away? Heck she could have asked me and a friend or two to help out, throw in 20 bucks I'll be there. No. I don't want to just drop everything and help serve a noisy chaotic dinner party. I'm not mentally prepared, I don't want to, and there's no way for me to say no without being the bad daughter. Fml

[batmantaking-hobbits2gallifrey]

I'm sick

I've had this head cold for the last three days now - I went home from work early on Monday, called off Tuesday, and today I wasn't scheduled. But they called asking if I could come in - so I got up, showered and I still feel like crap (congested and dizzy) so I said I couldn't come in. NOW my Mom is giving me crap about it saying I can't "keep taking days off just because I have a cold." Like ??? I'm not a huge wimp about these things I hardly ever call off and I've gone in with the sniffles before and I can't even count the times I've gone in sick with anxiety. If I'm sick enough to overcome my fear of phone calls trust me I'm actually sick. Either she thinks I'm a wimp or she thinks I'm lying and both are unsettling. Then she went on to tell me to do what I was planning to do today as if I'd forgotten about the party that I'M hosting on Saturday (it's the one time a year I host a party I DIDN'T forget that I need to make a grocery/planning list) This day is going to be Fun.

[jeremy-drooly]

Okay, I’m not going to respond to it directly because it’s fucking rude and completely uncalled for, but at the anon who sent me that message about one of my friends, you can honestly get fucked. I love them and they are great and no one needs your negative attitude here and I honestly don’t want it on my blog so you can just fuck right off, okay? If you have a problem with my friends you have a problem with me, so if you could kindly unfollow me or reveal your url so I can block you that would be fantastic, thanks!