#elsabeth rambles

[johnthehobbit]

These things are so small yet they hurt so much, every word is like a knife in my chest

[johnthehobbit]

Well my rooms as tidy as it's going to get... And I leave for Leicester in 8 hours, time to grab another 5 so that I've at least had 12 hours sleep in the last three days.

[johnthehobbit]

I should not still be awake

But at least I've gone through 200 videos, names them and put them into folders on my Mac... Only 2010, 2014 and 2015 left and then all the pictures 😭

[johnthehobbit]

Feeling calm

I'm really looking forward to tomorrow, I'm going to go to paperchase/smiths first and return the excess stationary I bought, then pop into superdrug, look for a present for a friend and finally collect the book I ordered from waterstones and go sit in the museum gardens reading in the sun.

[johnthehobbit]

The eternal question of having to wake up early in the morning to do something: do I go back to bed or am I too awake?

[johnthehobbit]

I just had a full on panic attack and had to kick Luke awake because I couldn't turn over and I thought there was something crawling down my chest which was proper freaking me out as I'm just lying in bed watching batman but it turns out it was just a tear. I'd been crying since Rachel died and hadn't even realised it 😂

[johnthehobbit]

Every time I watch this movie I hope that Rachel Dawes won't die and Harvey Dent won't go loco.

[johnthehobbit]

I really think I need to talk to someone but I'm not sure if they want to talk to me.