chapter 47 - 1963
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CECE PRESLEY
The premiere of Elvis' new movie, It Happened at the World's Fair, was going to take place tomorrow, however he scheduled a private screening just for the two of us. Tonight. I didn't come back home after I stormed out that night. Mama called, begging me to come back and even Tilly chimed in, saying that the house was empty without me there. Elvis didn't bother calling. Or asking about me.
I was mad, frustrated and so incredibly tired.
How dare he hide something like that from me? His wife.
I was deeply disappointed, yet I couldn't hide my concern. What if he broke down on me? Was I able to pick up the pieces and glue them back together?
"Miss Bennett?"
I looked up and smiled a little. "Is the car here?"
The man gave me a curt nod, his narrow eyes inspecting me in a scrutinizing manner. I was wearing a fancy blonde wig and big sunglasses — an impeccable disguise, in my opinion. Before he could say anything, I thanked him and grabbed my purse, making my way out.
"Miss Cheryl Bennett," Lamar opened the door for me, a subtle smirk on his lips.
I didn't react at his teasing tone and sat down without even sparing him a glance. "Thank you."
"Where'd you get Cheryl Bennett from?" Gene was at the wheel, looking at me through the rearview mirror. I grabbed the seatbelt and tugged it across my body.
"My manager used that name on me. To remain incognito or something," I said and snatched the sunglasses from my nose. Lamar got in the front seat and shut the door behind him.
"It suits ya. This character, I mean. The blonde, mysterious woman that doesn't wanna be seen. Does that work in any way?"
I sighed, moving my eyes outside the window. "Well, I stayed in that hotel for two days and didn't get mobbed. Not even once. You tell me." The city was buzzing with neon lights, as alive as ever. A ghost of a smile found my lips.
"Well, I'm happy you're back, because EP has been a real pain in the ass these past two days," Gene laughed dryly.
"Nearly fired half of us," Lamar muttered under his breath. I halted, turning his way.
"What? Why?"
Lamar clicked his tongue. "There is no tellin' what he's gonna do when he's angry. You just gotta brace yourself."
I shook my head. "It's his own damn fault. I done told him that he can talk to me about anything. I don't even know what to say anymore, because it all seems in vain."
"He's a man, Cece—"
"He's my husband," I pressed. "I don't care about him being embarrassed about what his buddies are gonna say— If something happens to him, it all falls on me, not on any of you." The car remained silent, but I felt my beating heart pumping in my ears.
A heavy breath broke the silence. "He doesn't want ya to worry."
I bit my lower lip, feeling my eyes water in distress, but I didn't utter a single word until the end of the ride. My strength felt diminished, I didn't have it in me to fight with people about the man that was my husband. They would always defend him as his friends, nobody was going to peek at the logical side of it.
The car stopped and Lamar walked out, ready to open the door for me. I breathed in and out through my nose, mentally preparing myself for a difficult night — I knew we were going to fight. I just knew. It was like the humidity in the air before it starts raining— I just sensed it.
"Thank you, Lamar."
He nodded shortly. "EP drove himself here. If you need anything else don't hesitate to call."
"Thank you." My lips twitched into what I hoped resembled a smile. He walked me to the front door and informed me about the gentleman that was going to take over and steer me towards the screening room.
I smiled, shook his hand and signed an autograph. "Do you want me to sign this as Cheryl or as Cece?"
The man chuckled. "Both, ma'am. That's gonna make a good story to tell my children." I signed, feeling at ease, even just for a fleeting moment. I wasn't Cece Flora, the singer or Cece Presley, Elvis' wife. I was just a woman in a wig and that was good enough.
"Mr Presley has requested for two types of popcorn— salted caramel and butter. Pepsis, chocolates and hamburgers," the man squinted at the list in his hands. "Anything you'd like to add, ma'am?"
"I think he's got it all," I laughed a little. "Maybe some water to balance it all out. Thank you."
The last time I had been at the Memphian was in 1954 as we watched A Star Is Born. Almost ten years ago. The same popcorn machine was there, the lights, the velvety walls. Everything was the same, except for the thunderous silence— Elvis had rented out the whole thing for the night. I shuffled on my feet, the reminders of that night still able to crawl under my skin. Just like that night in the 50s, I was pissed at Elvis.
A sigh fell from my lips as I pushed the velvety door open. The big screen illuminated the whole room with short, quick scenes, I assumed those were previews of the upcoming movies. I saw him sprawled in his velvet seat, in the exact position he liked it, centered. His head turned.
"Hey," a careful smile stretched across Elvis' face. "You made it— And you're blonde." He stood up, making his way towards me.
I chuckled faintly, brushing my fake curls. "Yeah, I needed to blend in for a moment." Elvis looked me up and down, not bothering to disguise the burning fire in his eyes in any way. I cleared my throat, unsure of what to do. "So my seat?" I asked instead, my eyes averting from his. Elvis turned around and showed the way.
He sat down and I followed suit, shrugging the coat from my shoulders. Blue eyes followed my every movement.
"You look beautiful."
I turned to my left and quietly sighed. "Thank you."
Elvis breathed out, his hand tapping nervously on his knee. "Can we... Can we pretend that it's just us? Just for tonight?"
"What do you mean?"
He cleared his throat, his gaze shifting on my seat. "I mean, like everything is okay. Like I haven't fucked up. Again."
My eyes stayed on him, lingering on the wavering emotion in his eyes. There was something terribly broken behind them, something I was afraid even I couldn't fix. Dark bags were hardly concealed under the soft glow of the screen, a result of sleepless nights. I knew he was sorry, I knew he was ready to beg on his hands and knees— I knew that. But when was he ever going to put a halt to his impulsivity?
"Okay," I gave in, my voice a faint hush between us.
Elvis let out a shaky breath, like he wasn't expecting that. "Can I... Can I kiss you?" I nodded, without even letting him pronounce the end of the word, and he leaned in as he usually did, softly and carefully. His lips touched mine and my eyes fluttered shut. He was sweet, salty and absolutely maddening. But god, did I love that man, as flawed as he was.
"Thank you," he murmured, our lips inches apart as we shared our last breath together. "I can't wait for you to see the movie." His lips stretched into a minuscule smile, one I would've almost missed if I hadn't followed his every move. We pulled away, but his hand fluttered to mine in the middle, gripping it like it'd be the last time.
Elvis raised his hand as he flickered his wrist and the screen darkened within seconds. Then he leaned in closer to me, his lips murmuring to my ear. "Get ready to listen to one of the worst soundtracks of your life."
I let out a chuckle, glancing his way. "C'mon, E, it can't be that bad."
His brows raised to his forehead. "Oh, it can. You'll see darlin'." We both leaned back in our seats and the movie started only seconds later. Chuckles were shared, burgers, popcorn, Pepsis, remarks. "See that kid? He gave me a bruise that stayed there for weeks." It almost felt like an improved version of that night in 1954.
I hadn't felt that light in a long time.
The movie ended and I couldn't help but ask to watch it again. And we did, again and again, until I had his lines memorized and the moon was shining bright in the sky. The burgers kept coming, the drinks were limitless and our hands had a hard time staying at bay. But it was all just for tonight— just for tonight the mistakes, the deadlines, the pills, the lies were going to be forgotten. Just tonight.
I was sat across his lap, my mouth pressed hungrily against his. Messy sounds left our lips, sounding almost obscene. My hands found his hair before I could even think, the strands longer than they had been the last time I had seen him, and his were firmly gripping my hips. The movie kept playing, the songs passed by and the desire for each other couldn't be satiated. The kiss deepened in ways neither of us could've explained— it was messy, almost sloppy, but desperate.
"I need you," Elvis muttered against my lips. I let out a low gasp, tapping my forehead to his. Our breaths touched each other, falling in synch, my hands on his flushed cheeks, like I was stabilizing myself.
"N-Not here..." I breathed out, glancing past his shoulder.
"No one's here, baby, I promise. I sent everyone away— I want you, baby. I need you."
He looked me deep in the eye, the flame was still burning as bright as ever, but the defeated look I had seen before was gone. Just for tonight— Just for tonight. I leaned into his touch, my lips swallowing his obscene, lustful moans.
A permanent flush stained my cheeks. My head sank in his chest and my hand rested right there, shuffling between each hair. Elvis' hand pushed his shirt to cover my upper body, his warm breath hitting my face in comforting motion. A different movie was playing— King Creole. The last movie we had done together before we departed to Germany. The movie that marked the end and the start of an era.
"Look at that lip—" a lone finger pointed at the screen as a deep laugh tumbled from his chest. "Lovesick fool."
"Oh, he was cute. With his floppy hair and curled lip," I commented with a cheeky smile. "You were just my boyfriend back then. Crazy how life goes."
Elvis glanced at me. "I had that ring ready, believe me, baby."
Comfortable silence fell over us, too good to be broken by either of us. His warm body stayed on mine as we were still in critical and shocking conditions. I just hoped that he was right and that nobody was actually watching us.
"Are you coming home later? Back to Graceland?" he asked, his voice a rough buzz against my temple. I sighed, unsure of what to say.
"I don't know, E..." I shuffled closer, tilting my head to meet his eyes. "It doesn't feel right after what what's happened. The argument, me storming off and you not even sparing me a call. And then— then this," I gave a subtle nudge to my half-naked body. "We're circling the issue. I don't like it."
"I'm just asking you to come home... Just for tonight."
"But what about tomorrow? Or the day after? Do we skirt around the issue? Ignore it forever? You know I won't be quiet about this, Elvis."
"Oh, I know you can't be quiet," he remarked smartly. I glared at him, fed up with the lovey-dovey part of the night. "You're right, I'm sorry. It's just— I-I don't even know where to start."
I inched away from him. "How about if you lied to me when Bill asked you if you were still taking the pills."
"Cece—" he groaned, but I interrupted him, taking his chin in between my fingers.
"Elvis. No lies, please."
"Yes, it's true. Uppers and downers. They offered them to all soldiers in the army, to stay awake. And..." he hesitated, looking away. "I liked it. I thought they were brilliant, and given the crazy Colonel-schedules, I thought they were perfect."
"Colonel-schedule?" I raised an eyebrow in question.
Another heavy breath. "He'd have me on set during the day and record the soundtracks whenever was convenient... I needed something. Otherwise... my body would've given up."
My lips parted, but I didn't know what to say. I pictured him in my head, tired and stubborn, exhausted from the day but too stubborn to give up on doing what he was supposed to. What was expected of him.
"I didn't wanna tell ya, because I didn't want ya to think less of me. Like I couldn't take care of myself. I ain't no little baby that needs somebody to watch me," another tired sigh. "And you had this amazing opportunity to tour— do the thing that you've loved the most. I couldn't let ya stay with me, it would've been selfish of me. But goddamn, was I jealous," his words turned into a low hiss. "There was nothing I wanted to do more than to be on that stage with you. Get out of the stupid movie contracts and join you... Like we did in Hawaii, that was good fun."
"Oh, E..." I raised my hand to brush his hair from his forehead. "I know you don't wanna hear this, but by the end of the tour I will have made enough to get you out of there. Officially. Forever."
His glossy eyes turned to look in mine, taking my breath away. "R-Really?"
I hummed, tracing his cheekbones with my knuckles. "Yes. I'll get you out. But you need to promise me, Elvis. For real now—" Elvis grabbed my hand and pressed it to his lips, pecking it repeatedly.
"The moment I get home I'm tossing that shit down the toilet. Swear it."
I let out a shaky breath. "I'm staying here next week too a-and I'll make sure you're okay, because—" I drew in a breath. "I don't want to wake up to a phone call telling me that my husband's dead. I don't want that. Please. I love you too much—" my words muffled into soft cries and Elvis cooed, pushing me to his chest again.
"You won't, I swear, you won't, baby. I'm right there, forever and always."
I breathed in his scent, musky with a touch of smoke, familiar. I let my eyes fall shut, listening closely to the rhythmic sound of his heart— he was okay, he was fine. It was all going to be alright. That was the mantra that played in my head, one that brought me peace with no fail, although I always ended up feeling like the fool of the story.
After my hands shakily buttoned up my blouse and both Elvis and I looked somewhat decent, we left the theatre with our hearts full. My eyes were on Elvis from time to time, taking in his easy, relaxed demeanor. His right hand found the gear stick, his left hung from the window. A smile settled on his lips, not controlled by anything other than the thrill still pumping in his veins.
A careful grin stretched across my face, feeling at ease at last.
"I have the rest of my clothes at the hotel," I said. He briefly glanced my way.
"We'll get one of the guys there first thing in the morning."
I looked at my watch and let out a laugh. "It's six a.m. We've been out for like, half a day."
Elvis smiled. "Worth it."
The day didn't end when my head hit the pillow. More moans being swallowed up by bruised up lips, hands tangled in real strands of hair and eyes rolling back from never-ending pleasure. Clothes were tossed across pieces of furniture we forgot were there— Elvis threw my bra in the air and it accidentally caught the lamp in the ceiling. Even my blonde wig was thrown somewhere. All in a careless, freeing way.
A breathy sigh fell from my lips as Elvis leaned into my neck, muttering sweet little things as he kissed his way to my jaw. He was forgiven, all was forgotten. Once he was done with his delicious, wet, torturous, lustful act, Elvis insisted on showing me the way he tossed all the pills down the toilet, even though from the state I was in, he didn't really have to.
If he had told he that he could fly, I would've believed his every word.
That week passed and another approached. Jerry mentioned Elvis' new project to me, Viva Las Vegas. I wasn't convinced.
"The director himself sent a letter. You'd be getting $20,000 to work on the soundtrack either by yourself or with Elvis and he's also hoping you'd take in his offer for a small role in the movie." Jerry pursed his lips, raising an eyebrow. "It's not a bad deal, although that leaves you two weeks to work on the soundtrack. Then you're back on tour all throughout the fall until Christmas."
I huffed, leaning back on the chair. "I don't know, Jerry. The production rejected most of my songs since before Elvis was drafted. It feels childish to give in now."
Jerry tapped his hand on the desk. "That's because everyone's suddenly realizing how unmissable a Cece Flora track could be in their movie. Money is no object anymore. They're throwing it at you, blindly."
"Still," I crossed my arms on my chest. "They crushed my writing spirit and now that they've realized that I'm worth something, they want me?"
"The production has always wanted you, Cece," a small smirk started growing on Jerry's lips. "The Colonel was the one that never wanted you part of it, because you would've been too much to pay for. Actors, singers and songwriters are paid differently, remember?"
I hummed.
"He had been taking 50% of both of your incomes and since you were paid less than Elvis as an actor, he couldn't take anything from you. There is a specific percentage that can't be crossed when it comes to one's salary— and yours was too low for his liking. No offense."
"None taken," I shrugged.
"So that meant crossing your songs, getting other musicians to sell them for ridiculous prices and give them to you and Elvis. And right there, you as the singer, you were paid more, and he took financial advantage of that." Jerry leaned back, nodding.
"Wow," I sighed. "Call me ignorant, but nobody told us anything about that."
"Who was your business manager again?" His forehead furrowed as his hand disappeared in his front pocket, pulling out a pack of cigarettes.
"Vernon, Elvis' father," I shook my head, lowering my eyes to the desk. "I'm glad that at least I was able to get away from that snake."
"We'll get Elvis out of there, don't you worry about that." A flicker appeared and his cigarette was lit. "So? Is the writing team back again or do you prefer a subtle, relaxing vacation?"
I smirked. "I feel like you're rooting for something specific, Jerry."
He laughed breathily. "I believe that I mentioned on our first encounter that I was a huge fan. I'd be definitely thrilled, let's put it that way."
"Elvis said you asked for his autograph."
Jerry's eyes widened, a flush spreading across his face. "I was nervous, okay? That was the first time we were in a room together. Alone. You know how intimidating he can be?"
I chuckled softly, shaking my head. "My Elvis? No. It's a facade to make him seem broody or whatever game you men are into," I rolled my eyes. "He's a teddy bear, really." My chuckled faded into an easy smile, and I gave in. "Okay, tell the director I'm in for the soundtrack, but no role."
Jerry laughed in triumph. "Perfect. Oh, no role? Why?" He stood up, gathering his papers into his leather brown briefcase.
I stood up as well, smoothing my blouse. "I was never interested in the acting. I only did it because it made Elvis happy. And because the Colonel incentivized it by saying that it was the next natural step. Hollywood." I looked up at him. "I couldn't care less about movies that depict me as a little housewife or a damsel in distress. I believe that was what incidentally created the boring, never-ending circle of me having to be saved by my husband."
"Which you never needed," Jerry added with a firm nod.
"Yeah, but if you see it thrusted onto you often enough on a big screen, you start believing it."
Jerry's jaw clenched. "They wasted your potential, Cece. Don't make this about you failing anything. They were the ones to have failed you." He snatched his bag shut.
A breath left my lips, grateful for his heartwarming words. "You always seem to know what to say. I appreciate it." I walked around the desk and opened the door. "Thanks for coming by, Jerry. You sure you don't want to stay for dinner?"
Jerry's lips parted to say something, but he stalled, like something was preventing him from speaking. Or someone, more like.
"Hey guys!" Matilda smiled brightly, looking between me and Jerry. "Good lord, a briefcase!" her gaze moved to Jerry. "Is she torturing you about business on a Sunday night too? Cece, you're incorrigible."
I laughed, totally missing the way Jerry's face turned a pale pink.
"I did ask him to stay for dinner as a compensation." I crossed my arms on my chest, a playful smile on my lips.
Tilly's eyes lit up, moving on Jerry. "So? Mary and 'Dora are cooking something together. Don't quite know what it is yet, but it smells incredible! You staying?"
Jerry's face flushed impossibly red. "U-Uh, yeah, s-sure, why n-not?" he let out a weak laugh, his hand raising to rub the back of his neck. "Yeah, I-I can stay."
Matilda clapped her hands excitedly. "Perfect! I'll let them know we have a special guest tonight." And she waltzed down the stairs, humming a tune I hadn't heard before. An easy smile spread across my lips, then my gaze moved on Jerry.
"Jerry?" He looked at me, dazed. "You okay?"
He hummed, nodding. "Yeah, all good."
I shrugged, patting him on the shoulder. "C'mon, let's head downstairs and introduce you to some people. Dodger still thinks you're my personal butler."
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