Can I ask for "Please tell me I'm wrong"
With Donnie
Of course! From this list :)
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Donnie had been over the numbers. His models and predictions. And there was only one answer, staring him in the face, no matter how many times he crunched the data. It was bad, bad news. For lack of anything else to do, he ran the numbers again.
And again.
And again.
Finally, he gathered his data up, called out to Leo - only because he was in the dojo in view of the door - that he was going out, and he left. The facts swirled about his brain. Don vaguely recognized that he'd shut down the emotional part of his brain a while ago to distance himself from the situation, but he didn't do anything to change it. He needed to be detached right now.
It didn't take long to arrive at Leatherhead's. He realized with a start that he'd been unceremoniously and continuously banging on the door when the croc answered it in a frenzy, clearly looking him over for injuries. "What is it, my friend?" the gentle soul asked him, full of concern.
"Can I come in?" Don heard himself say. Leatherhead ushered him in, and Don took over one of his workstations without asking, spreading out everything he had. "Please tell me I'm wrong," Don pleaded with his friend, voice cracking as his resolve wavered.
Leatherhead's brows knit together. "About wha-?" he started to ask, trailing off as he leaned over the information Don had brought, sharp mind realizing instantly what it was. "Give me some time to look this over. Make yourself a cup of chamomile," the croc commanded, waving his hand generally in the direction of his kitchen.
Donnie quietly complied, piling honey into the tea he had no real plans of partaking in. He sat at Leatherhead's kitchen table to give the croc some space to look everything over without Don hovering over him, possibly biasing the results. The tea went cold. Leatherhead was still quietly working, processing the same data Don had. The longer the silence stretched, Don knew he was coming to the same conclusion that Don had.
He lost track of time, staring at the pattern's in Leatherhead's precious china - a gift from Splinter a couple of Christmases ago. It was only now-innate ninja senses that kept the croc from startling him when he entered the kitchen. Leatherhead stared at the full cup of tea, gently grabbed it, and swapped it out for a new brew. Don watched the steam rise from the cup. Grabbed it just to feel something. Unable to look his friend in the eye, he asked: "so?"
"We will figure this out, my friend," Leatherhead said.
Don closed his eyes. A physical wall against the tsunami of emotion threatening to overtake him.
"Say it. Please. I need to hear it."
"We understand what is happening this time-"
"No. Please. I need you to confirm it. Tell me that even though it's been years, I'm suddenly devolving into that mindless monster again. Don't let me live with any denial."
Leatherhead took a slow breath in. Don counted while he held it. Fifteen. Leatherhead slowly released the breath. The storm inside Donnie brewed. Grew. Threatened to overwhelm him. Leatherhead's big hands grabbed Don's, removing them from the scorching teacup. "The mutagen in your makeup is destabilizing. It matches the kind of readings we got from when Bishop's mutagen infected you and temporarily mutated you into a more feral creature." Don tensed, clenched his jaw, tried to make fists. Leatherhead gently squeezed his hands, grounding him. "But," he continued firmly, "we understand what is happening this time. It isn't taking us by surprise. We know what is going to happen, and we know the makeup of the previous vaccine. Do not give into despair, my friend. We can handle this," he insisted.
Don opened his eyes, feeling wild. Out of control. Finally met Leatherhead's, strong and steady. "The readings are worse this time. Even if we do manage a working vaccine, it'll likely also be temporary, and the effectivity could continue to decrease over time until there's no point in fighting it." Don knew this. Knew his hunches were as correct as his calculations and predictions had been. He'd been analyzing the data for far longer than Leatherhead had. Despair thundered within him. Time was ticking down. He didn't have enough of it to do the work on a vaccine or cure that he needed to. He would once again be helpless. Leave his family helpless to do anything about it.
"We are not starting from scratch," Leatherhead insisted. "And I will never give up on you, Donatello. Your brothers and father will never give up on you." It was the only thing he could promise.
Donatello couldn't stay detached. The storm reached its peak, and the dam broke.











