#emotion bottling

[lillypad-collective]

Does anyone else deal with after school/work full on shutdowns most days?

TW: Semi-Vent

I can handle it until we get home (most of the time til recently).

I know its fucking related to masking all fucking day and uncontrollably bottling up my emotions on the day because of that. I am essentially completely emotionless at school.

When I get home after that I immediately get overwhelmed as soon as I enter my room. I either fall awake or I sit there essentially dead inside for around 2h before I have enough energy to do anything.

[sagegreensage]

Yesterday I received what's basically the opposite of anon hate. Anon love.

I legit,,, thank you anon. I'm still baffled by the fact that a stranger on internet knew exactly what I think I needed to hear. And I'm sure I'm not alone. I'm sure There's many who need to hear this as well.

So, I'd like to pass on some of the anon's message:

Your feelings matter and you shouldn't repress them out of fear of being annoying or a burden because your feelings aren't annoying or a burden and they don't make you annoying or a burden and if you're telling them to someone close to you and they don't want to hear them because they think you and your feelings are those things, then maybe they're not the right person. And maybe you should find a better person to share yourself with.

They're not the right person because they don't care about you. Sharing feelings is a vital form of communication and someone who cares is going to want to know how you feel and why you are the way you are.

[thebekashow]

Bottled up emotions aren't healthy. But sometimes I have to learn how to keep the smile going :)

(PLEASE DON'T DO THIS. THIS IS SEVERELY UNHEALTHY AND CAN LEAD TO BAD THOUGHTS. YOUR EMOTIONS MATTER!)