#emotonal

[dumpc]

ME.

I bit my lips so that my tears wont fall down.

[janefuckindoe]

So about 7 years ago when I was in high school my best friend Cameron and I went to the fair to see these guys, he was really excited to see them because they were a local band he had seen before. I loved them and we got to be right up front the entire concert and then he bought me the CD for like $10. Through high school Cameron and I grew apart and last year he died of an over dose. It was really hard for me because we haven’t been friends but he was once my best friend and I felt like I abandoned him and lots of other unhealthy grieving thoughts. When I found this CD it brought back what our friendship was to me and just really warmed my heart, every time I listen to this band and many others I think of him and I miss him all the time <3

[ideaofthat]

weeks ago

02:10

23rd of July 2017

Been in a complete usual stress for the past week; can’t thank enough the heavens for the good sleep I had (more to come) plus the long weekend I am currently enjoying. How many more long weekends can I have?

I’m writing for two main reasons: one is because I miss writing, of course. Writing is my breather. It’s way too essential to forget. Second, is because I want express how I felt during my Tagaytay semwork and how I’ve been for the past week.  Where to start?

Just last Friday, I dutifully represented my grade level to this huge seminar workshop headed by the Department of Education (great, huh. Plus points for license). Basically it talked about teachers being in line with the ICT integration and its further demands for the 21st century. We were seven, all in all. Six of them are from LEAP, I’m the sole representative of the Segovia.  Given this, I had an initial feeling prior the departure that maybe this trip will just left me out from the group. God blessed me for I was explicitly comfortable with them through the three day-stay; had them laughing with my jokes and even opened up to one person I never thought I could trust. I arrived back home eventually, expecting myself to be disorientated the next school day. Apparently yeah I was hell of disorientated when I faced my students because I was late.

Turning the page, this past week was a patty in a sandwich; not too fun and definitely not something I want to remember. See, I can’t even recall the details. Ah. Twice I got emotional because of the sitdown meetings happened twice with my supervisors. The past week I felt again, the self-doubt, that maybe I’m not ready for THIS “big” school yet. Negative feelings surpassed at some point. Thank god.

I’m staying at home for the first time I guess since I started working. My girlfriend’s going to sleep the night here with me tomorrow. I hope that everything will be just fine, for tomorrow and for the coming days.

Good night.  

[thegoatboy]

It's like every time I'm pmsing I get preggo symptoms

[djtrifaro-blog]

Finally finished reading the Wheel of Time series. My mind is so incredibly blown. I'm feeling such a wide variety of emotions :O

[paradoxshaki-blog]

Sehr schön gemacht.. geht irgendwie tief..

[gay-but-slaaay]

I might not

be active for the next day or so. I have my memere’s funeral and I’m practicing the eulogy...plus my ex and I are hanging out for the first time since we broke up so it’s gonna be emotional

[prince-of-ashes]

(via https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HZDhMKk4tfg)