I went through a lot of therapy to get where I am, to exist in a point where my "disorders" aren't disabling.
My therapist taught me so much, gave me so much help and so many tools. And now that I'm grown, a solid 20 year old. What used to destroy and hold me down doesn't anymore.
The system is a team, we no longer struggle day to day. It's golden.
The NPD crashing has stopped, we don't experience crashes unless we hit the absolutely lowest points.
The narcissistic parts of us haven't been a problem in years now. We still experience highs, and the core aspects of it, but nothing hindering or awful anymore. It's grand.
We're better, and still have what we were diagnosed with, its just changed and blossomed with us.
We no longer say we are disabled. The only thing that disables us now is our autism, but we've been in therapy and such for how to cope with it's many struggles as well, and we are getting there with it also. We may decide to stop calling our autism disabling as well, though that is a maybe.
We identify as endogenic now just because of our experiences. We are no longer disabled, we do not call ourself disabled. Plus, most of our system is not split from trauma, and our np'd' was not stemmed from trauma.
We are a endogenic system, and an endogenic narcissist.
I hope the community will except us, and the narcmeds+sysmeds stop with their attacks.