Entry 113, 6-21-21
Ever since Iāve went into my D persona, Iāve realized that Iāve become more distrustful and quite frankly evil. D himself actually wants to hurt someone. Heās not a different entity or anything heās just me, but like my worst desires or something. But heās perfect, in theoryā¦
Heās smarter and a people person. He knows how to make people happy. He doesnāt get mad. Heās perfectā¦ but heās evil. He wants to manipulate someone and hurt them. Heās perfect but he wants to have someone as his plaything. He made me more paranoid, I shouldāve nipped him in the bud instead of encouraging him and fleshing him out. He has a name and I think heās his own fake identity at this point. My prognosis for him, howeverā¦ isnāt that good. Unless this is a weird split, Iām pretty sure heāll be gone by the next persona switch. Maybe it would be good if he were gone. But I canāt do anything about it because thatās what the persona is this timeā¦ some weird Jekyll and Hyde parody? At this point itās definitely not mental illness, probably just some weird bit Iāve been taking too far forā¦ 3-6 months.
