The level of denial is the problem here:
On Sept 7, 2018. I need to go across the street. I need to order something online to be shipped elsewhere. The functional things in a relationship is WHO REPRESENTS WHO since “this concept of team” is the unifying theme. To not be able to recall unless I share an in OPEN place where no one will ever read : the fantasy in order to terrify the body to the same level of horror when it first HIT ME. Just how severe these people can behave & no one will give a shit for the most at-risk kids in a school. It’s how we understand society & in their world, they have FAILED.
The Heat & The Cold are territories I can navigate NOW. The worlds that connect in the generation before was jungle humidity as I sweated, pain was beginning to make sense to me. So thankful I stay inside where it’s too hot, too. This mental abuse is the obvious turning from FACTS, why global warming is undeniable. Done asking WHY they are incapable of ignoring facts, more interested in making it better.
I have to keep reminding self : what I modeled, but just one&done since no one deserves repeat abuse. The way it created anxiety in a person who couldn’t take SELF out of the perspective since the desire to see it differently was not present : the objective was to make excuses since the blame is obvious (that’s first part of the shame/guilt cycle)
This is MOVEMENT ONE : you just dive in. 5 spots.
Whittled down from 100+ incidents of violence. Not bad.
2 = “in-the-moment” torture is never going away
3 = when two people don’t want to discuss together...
