Me: them falling in love in two weeks is ridiculous! Wound tending and bonding over familiar interests still means romance takes longer that that! what about realism!
Also me: forgets that I, after seeing my IRL now-girlfriends face once after her basically being a stranger prior and thinking she was a literal angel, is now in a committed relationship of over a year with her
Anyways the Bella Sara centaur-human sapphic romance fic is having some hiccups mostly due to the author being stupid and pedantic
I think I need to maybe step back for a while. I'm sorry I'm going to leave a couple people hanging (sorry sorry 🙏🏻) but I need to figure some stuff out and help myself like. yesterday. I am not well or okay. I don't know know what to do. I don't know where to start. I'm going to remove Tumblr and Reddit and shit from my phone for rn, I have never done that before but it feels like the right thing to do right now. I just. I don't know. need to do something. I don't know how long I need to step back but I don't plan on this being forever or anything. Sorry. I just need to think. I wish I COULD think. God I'm confused. I wish I was better. I wish a hell of a lot of things. I'll see everybody later, sorry for this being so abrupt. Don't worry about me at all. Everything will work out, or at least that's what I'm going to tell myself.
Eeee! I got my print in from @fishfingersandscarves INPRNT shop! Now I can look at my beloveds when I pick out my outfits for the day (due to Reagan-era housing, my walls are concrete and I live by hanging art on my metal closet doors)
But!! The print is gorgeous 😍 and I grin like an idiot when I see these idiots!
Forever thankful for the Bella Sara fandom (let's hear an echo for dead media!) for producing phenomenal artists so that I can be inspired and write fun stories about the horses they draw.
Rant (positive) under the cut:
Seriously, I'm having so much fun writing my latest BeSa story I am literally vibrating in my seat and need someone to match my freak for real. Centaur x human stories ROCK especially since BeSa lore is so fragmented I can literally just sit in my sandbox and throw anything at the wall and it. will. stick.
Anyways I'm like seven thousand words into my sapphic, fall-themed, hurt-comfort centaur/human schtick and it feels great to open up and have all the parts of the story just flow into each other. I don't worry much about like the setting or the realism (ask me about horse anti-anxiety medication, i know all about that now) and just get to write stupid dumb idiots doing their thing. I get to make them kiss (or, I will get to make them kiss, gotta write that first) and like, be cute together (the centaur is seven feet tall and I'm giving her fangs cause that's cool and she's so hot I don't even have to PRETEND like hnng i love horses and I love tall women. put them together? I'm dead. Shot and killed on sight) and go on a little date and tend wounds and fhkjsdanfknalsknfng
Anyways. If you like Bella Sara and see this, and like. don't mind that I absolutely WILL be writing these two fucking in explicit detail, PLEASE talk to me. I am insane. GOing insane in my little corner.
Sorry to anyone who followed me for anything besides niche early 2000s defunct horse girl media. This is tumblr so frankly im sure we're all used to the people we follow suddenly being like, really into that twink from House or podcasts that we're never going to listen to.
I finished my bookbinding of @moorishflower's Ecdysis today and thus the pictures can be spread far and wide!
Look at her! At 39 pages, she is very small, but nonetheless packs an emotional punch!
This was my first "hardcover" (the hardness of the cover, though extant, is negligible) bound book ever! I'm on the fence about how she turned out, but in the end I'm very happy with the formatting and the illustration I did! Particularly, the paper I used for the pages is wood pulp, which means when I open it I get that sweet old book smell, which is exactly what I envisioned when making it!
Here is the full illustration:
I had a lot of fun working on this, and I'd like to hopefully bind a few more of my favorites in the future (provided they are short).
