I think my biggest pet peeve of all is the normallization of the anti-void. The anti-void is a sensory deprivation chamber aka white room t*rture. Yet all it is to people is: Error's home. In the canon story, yes he does want to go back, but not because he oh so loves his dear "home" the anti-void, but because he is so used to the nothingness inside of it. A normal world is too much for him, because of how long he has been stuck inside of the anti-void. And that is also only the case right after he leaves the anti-void mind you. We see him be perfectly fine without returning to it after the fight with Blue. He stays in outertale! It is quiet, yes, but it DOES have stimulus. The stars move, there is colour. It is not just some blank unmoving space. No one and I mean no one would actually enjoy living in the anti-void, even after already going "through" it. Yes he has now turned into an "Error", but t*rture doesn't just END there. He is not immune to it now just because he has already gone "mad". If he were to choose to sit in the anti-void forever, eventually I think he'd just become unresponsive. No he wouldn't become Joker and absolutely annhilate the whole Multiverse. He'd just probably dissociate or like get to catatonia-like state.
!!!!!!Now I am saying all of this based on my own research, I am not a licensed psychologist, just interested in it in my free-time. (Please do your own research, I am rambling for the sake of rambling.)!!!!!! White room t*rture is a gradual process and leads to many things such as: - loss of sense of time (I won't get into detail, but read Michel Siffre and his isolation experiment) - loss of logical reasoning - distortion of thought - eyesight deterioration (his eyesight is shit) - Halllucinations (anon is that you?) - Panic/Anxiety attacks - Attachment issues (sigh) - loss of identity Your brain interprets sensory input to help navigate the world. You need it to process your surroundings, to think, for your emotions and memories, to even function and survive. And it stays active no matter if there is actually stimulus or not. If there is none, it basically comes up with stimulus on its own in form of hallucinations or random thoughts. White room torture is basically nothing physical but everything about your psyche. Everything becomes disorienting and disorganized for the person. Their mind degrades, they lose their memory . . . . . In an article it says: Evidence indicates that sensory deprivation induces widespread neurobiological adaptations involving neurotransmitter systems (particularly dopaminergic pathways), dysregulation of the HPA axis, neuroimmune activation, circadian rhythm disruption, and structural and functional brain changes, notably affecting the hippocampus. to keep it rlyyyy short and simplified (LIKE rly simplified), basically stress is off the charts, emotional regulation who? memories distorted af. proper processing bbuh bye (basically everything I already mentioned before) ........ and all that we see in Error. (yes he has no "brain", so ig it applies to his soul) He has emotional outbursts, he is stressed and tense and is immediately high on alert (think his encounter with spectral!sans). He is terrible at managing his emotions and thoughts. That is why he, in the moment, doesn't even understand himself often times. The biggest thing that is obviously also affected is, besides detachment to reality, IDENTITY. He loses his sense of identity and therefore also his ability to properly reflect on his own actions. Which is why we know that he can feel guilty for what he has done to Blue, but we also know that this guilt won't last. He needs a stable self to properly connect his action towards Blue to himself, and precisely that he lacks. He ofc feels guilty! The emotion will accompany him till the day he dies (or well till he gets the actual fucking help he needs). And worst of it all. At the beginning of the entire process of this mindfuck, you are very well aware. You are watching yourself lose it over time. It is not a one and done thing. Basically my point is, the anti-void is not a nice little cozy home. If Error had anywhere else to go, somewhere he deems secure and safe, he would never fucking return to the anti-void.
