ACTUALLY do you have any eunkwang thoughts 👀 nobody talks about my boy and they NEED TO
Haha DO I??? Baby you came to the right person. And when I tell you I’ve been giggling all day thinking about answering this ask 🤭
This mf would be a TEASE. And he’d look so innocent while he does it. He’d be so fucking cute, the prettiest smile on his face, and the whole time he’s saying the most toe curling shit.
But on the other hand… he’s crumbling the second you show any type of assertiveness. Like literally. You know how he gets shy when someone compliments him, and usually laughs super loud (as always) or does some stupid gesture? He’d do the opposite. He’d freeze up completely, and his usual goofy demeanor would disappear. He’s said before that he can’t handle women, but for the sake of any male or non-binary readers, we can imagine that applies to anyone he’s romantically involved with lol.
Sungjae also once said that Eunkwang is a tender leader, and doesn’t like to scold the members. He’s a sweetheart, and he’d be the same with you. He’d treat you like a fragile sculpture, and he’d always fuck you lovingly. Even if he’s literally destroying your cervix, he’s kissing you and holding you and telling you how beautiful you are.
I feel like his favorite position would be you on top riding him, or missionary. Any position he can fully see your beautiful body, and your beautiful face. He loves touching you during sex. Running his hands all over your body, groping and squeezing. When you ride him, he goes insane. Watching you use his cock to get off makes him fall apart under you. And missionary is just so personal, I feel like he’d really love the intimacy that comes with it. Absolutely loves holding your body close to his.
Tbh… breeding kink!!! But in a more tender, romantic way. Like it’s just a way for him to claim you completely, body and soul. And biiiig bonus points if you cum with him!!!!!! He’d hold off on cumming and focus on getting you there first. It just feels better that way. And he’d be so attentive to your needs. Sex isn’t just penetration to him. If you want the soul sucked out of you, he is happy to oblige. If you want his fingers and a hot make out session, he is there. He can even handle not cumming himself, and giving all the pleasure to you. So if you’re too tired, don’t worry. He feels complete seeing you feel good.
He’s the type to eat you out after cumming inside, by the way. Just to make you cum again. And again. And… again, because he loves the way you sound. Would talk so sweet to you through every single one. Ask for one more, beg for one more. Loves kissing your swollen clit after abusing it <3
Oh, and he has a thing for biting. His sharp teeth are perfect for marking up your neck, or thighs, or even your ass. He loves when you bite him, too.
Omg but if you want rough Eunkwang, just drive him crazy a bit :) If you call him small, you better be prepared for him to show you what isn’t.
Summary: Eunkwang comes home after a stressful day at work and [Y/N] helps him unwind.
Warning/s: Smut. Minors, please don't interact.
Wattpad Link: on the rocks (Seo Eunkwang x Reader) | 18+
Inspiration: "on the rocks" by OSTER Project
MDNI Banner by: @cafekitsune
Eunkwang parked his car in front of his house. It was a hectic day. There was paperwork to fill out, meetings to attend, and there were also the public appearances he had to do to keep up his image.
He got out of the car and the crisp cool air of the night hit him. He breathed a sigh of relief that the day was over but he was already dreading the next day where he would go through all of it again.
Eunkwang looked towards the house, the warm color of the lights gave him a comforting feeling. He was home. At last.
He walked towards the door and was a little disappointed when he didn't see her welcome him home as he stepped inside the house.
"Huh, I wonder where she is." Eunkwang muttered as he closed the door from behind him and observed his surroundings, trying to figure out where his wife was.
From the corner of his eye, he saw a blue sticky note on the wall just beside the stairs.
Taking it off the wall he read the scrawled writing that he recognizes as his wife's handwriting.
"I'm waiting for you upstairs," It said and Eunkwang smiled since it's a common practice for them to leave notes for each other.
He placed the note in his pocket and went upstairs, knocking on the door of their bedroom before he entered.
The dimly lit room took him by surprise at first, there were small candles on the bedside tables and on the small coffee table at the foot of the bed. Placed there were a bucket of ice, a bottle of whiskey, and a lone glass.
As his eyes wandered over to the bed, he saw his wife sitting on it. She was wearing a red dress that reached a few inches just above her knees and it had thin red straps that rested on her shoulders. Her right hand held a thick book that lowered down when she saw him come into view and it was here that he saw the cleavage of her dress went deeper than what he was used to seeing her wear.
Eunkwang stood there speechless for a moment. He didn't know what was happening. Was there a special occasion? Did he forget? He could feel the panic rise in his chest at the thought of a forgotten anniversary.
"Eunkwang-ie?" [Y/N], his wife, placed the book on her side of the counter just a few inches away from her glass of whiskey on the rocks while simultaneously closing the desklamp. She walked over to him and touched his cheek. "Are you alright?"
"Yes, I'm fine." He smiled and took her hand to place kisses on it. "Did I forget something though? What's the occasion?"
"There's no occasion," [Y/N] giggled at the feel of his lips on her skin. "I just felt like it would be nice to unwind for a while."
"Oh, is that so?" Eunkwang stopped kissing her hand and he took off his coat before he hung it on a peg. "The room looks beautiful, my dear."
"Thank you, dear." She smiled and she invited him to sit on the bed. "You must be tired. Here, let me help you relax."
[Y/N] took the briefcase from his hand and placed it on his desk, she then placed some ice on the empty glass and poured some whiskey into it before she gave it to her husband.
"Thank you," Eunkwang smiled and he took a small sip.
"Would you like a massage?" She asked as she hopped on the bed to sit behind him.
He nodded his head and her gentle hands started to massage his shoulders. Meanwhile, Eunkwang undid the knot of his tie and proceeded to open a few buttons of his shirt. He relaxed under her touch as she hit each spot perfectly to which he would utter a moan of satisfaction. She would softly giggle in response as she kept on working.
"How was work?" [Y/N] asked as she finished up.
"Tiring but worth it." He smiled. "To be honest, I've been dreading the next few days since it's become pretty stressful."
"Oh, yikes." She uttered. "I'm sure you can do it, Eunkwang-ie! I believe in you! But is there anything I can do to help?"
"You've already done plenty."
"Oh, please, Eunkwang." [Y/N] giggled. "This is kinda like the bare minimum."
"Not to me it isn't," He placed the glass on the coffee table. "Whenever I leave the office and remember that I'm coming home to you, you fill me with so much happiness and I feel like I can take on whatever challenges life will throw at me. That's more than I could ever ask for."
Eunkwang turned around to face her and he gave her a soft smile.
"Only you could ever do that to me." He kneeled in front of her and the back of her hand caressed his cheek as they stared into each other's eyes.
"Well then," [Y/N] whispered with a smile as she slowly leaned closer to him. "Welcome home, Eunkwang."
She could feel his hands on her waist as they sealed the gap. They could still taste the sweetness of the whiskey in their mouths as their soft kisses began to go faster and deeper than the last.
Her hands tangled themselves on his hair, slightly tugging every now and again as he pulled her closer to him so that he could savor every bit of her.
Eunkwang laid down on the bed, pulling [Y/N] along with him as they both parted to breathe. He looked up at her, mouth slightly agape as she took deep breaths. She was straddled on top of him and as his hands stroked her thighs, Eunkwang noticed that there were slits on the sides of her dress that reached up to her waist. He could spy the thin strap of what seems to be her underwear as he moved the fine red fabric of the skirt aside.
[Y/N]'s soft sighs prompted him to look up at her again and he saw her tilt her head back with her eyes closed, mouth slightly open as she gasped heavily under his touch.
Eunkwang could feel his face heat up at the sight, he pulled on the thin red string and lowered it down enough for his hand to fit so that he could pleasure her.
[Y/N] could feel the warmth of his hand from underneath her and the slow gesture of his fingers made her let out a low groan.
Her fingers hovered over his shirt and she undid each of the buttons, she leaned down to give him a quick kiss before she began kissing the area of his neck and shoulder. Eunkwang let out a moan as he could feel her lips sucking and biting on his skin, the feel of her breath on his bare skin sent chills down his spine as she trailed kisses down to his chest then to his abdomen and finally stopping just above his waist where his belt kept his pants in place.
They both locked eyes for a moment, watching as they took deep breaths and taking in each other's dishevelled appearance but also wanting to see themselves at their limit.
[Y/N]'s fingers unbuckled his belt and unzipped his pants before she pulled them down.
Eunkwang chuckled at her displeased expression and the whine that slipped out of her mouth when he took out his fingers from underneath her so that she could fully slide off his pants and boxers. Before [Y/N] returned to her position, he slid down her thin red underwear and threw it aside.
He placed his hands firmly on her waist as she slowly grinded down on him. Eunkwang let out a groan as he felt the tightness inside of her while [Y/N] let out a loud moan as she felt the momentary pain turn into bliss.
The slow rocking of their bodies got faster and faster until they felt the strong urge to release.
"Eunkwang," she moaned as she reached her limit, one of his hands stroked the side of her waist in response as if saying it's alright.
[Y/N] let out a loud cry as she rode out her high and it didn't take long for Eunkwang to follow soon after.
They stared at each other as they struggled to catch their breaths, drinking in the sight of their heaving appearance. Their lips stretched into a proud smile at the sight of their handiwork.
Eunkwang propped himself up to give her soft kisses on her face, to which she would giggle at in response.
"Careful," He whispered as he helped [Y/N] get up from her position. She winced as she slowly lifted herself up with his assistance, his hands placed securely at her waist.
"Thank you," [Y/N] breathed out as she sat on his lap, only for Eunkwang to smother her with kisses.
"Would you allow me to return the favor, my dear?" He asked as he pulled away to look into her eyes.
"Might I remind you that you have work tomorrow," She tapped his nose and laughed.
"The night is still young." Eunkwang just smiled in return.
"Please," He took her hand and gave a series of kisses that slowly went up to her arm and then to her shoulder.
"Alright," [Y/N] laughed. "If you insist, Director Seo."
Eunkwang's face lit up and he chuckled at the mention of his title, he pulled her closer to him and kissed her with such fervor.
Her hands cupped his cheeks before they rested on his shoulders. His fingers fumbled with the ends of her dress and he gave a soft tug as a signal to take it off.
They pulled away and he took off the red dress from her body. Their foreheads touched and he rubbed his thumb on her cheek as she smiled.
Eunkwang gently laid her on the bed, he shrugged off the dress shirt that still clung to his skin and he started to kiss her. Starting from her lips, slowly moving down to her neck where he would bite and suck some places that he knew would give her pleasure.
[Y/N] moaned loudly at the sensation, the way his teeth would sink into her skin made her flinch but the satisfaction it brought surpassed the pain.
His fingers trailed up to her chest as the warmth of his hand massaged one of her breasts. Eunkwang's breathing tickled her skin as he moved downwards to suck on one of her nipples. He heard her give a cry as he softly nibbled her chest.
His fingers started to push itself from underneath her, starting off slow and gaining speed after a while. Eunkwang smiles to himself as he feels her legs squeeze together with his hand stuck in between. He felt [Y/N]'s fingers tugging at his hair as she writhed under what he was putting her through.
The whimper that rolled out of her tongue as he took his fingers out made him look up at her. Eunkwang watched as her chest rose and fell while she stared at him through half lidded eyes. He stared back at her longingly as he placed a hand on her cheek. Eunkwang lowered his head a bit to place a kiss on her forehead, he felt his hand in hers and the soft touch of her lips made him smile.
He gently spread open her legs before he pushed himself inside her, making him groan.
[Y/N]'s legs wrapped themselves around his torso before Eunkwang slowly started to move. The friction gave each other a feeling of bliss and it quickly built up as he pounded inside her.
"Ah, Eunkwang," She tightly clutched the sheets beside her as she felt herself reach her peak, repeatedly whispering his name at each strike.
"[Y/N]," He groaned as he heard her loudly moan his name. Eunkwang felt himself reach his high, his hands gripping her waist as he felt himself climax.
Breathing heavily, their eyes met and they stared at each other in silence for a while. He reached over to cup her face and he placed a soft kiss on her forehead before he went to kiss her lips. She hummed in response with a smile.
Eunkwang gently laid down her legs and [Y/N] whimpered when she felt the warmth inside her disappear. He chuckled at her as he covered each other with the blanket.
"Thank you for tonight, my dear." Eunkwang whispered as he wrapped his arms around her.
"Thank you for tonight too, dear." [Y/N] smiled and gave him a soft kiss. "I love you."
"I love you too." He replied as he kissed the top of her head.
Eunkwang rested his chin on her head as she leaned on his chest. Exhausted, they both drifted to sleep.
I’m Kleo and I’m here to present some k-pop related tarot readings to you.
Disclaimer:
I would like to state that all these readings have a purely entertainment nature and their purpose is to bring some fun into my and hopefully yours lives. I have never ever met any of the idols / actors / celebrities in my readings, I don’t know them personally. Tarot reading isn’t an exact science and I can never guarantee any of it. Most of it is my intuition mixed with fantasy. Don’t take these readings seriously and don’t base any important decisions on tarot readings only, use your common sense.
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Reading Info:
Rating: 18+
Reading Type: Single - Couple
Requested: Yes - No
Deck: E. A. Poe
Spread: Kinky
Questions:
Position
Libido
Turn On
Kink
Dirtiest Secret*
Full Name: Seo Eun Kwang
Stage Name: Eunkwang
Group: BtoB
Seo Eun Kwang
(Eunkwang - BtoB)
Deck: E. A. Poe
Spread: Kinky*
Position - 2 of Pentacles
Eunkwang is pretty adaptable in a relationship. When his lover has a strong and powerful personality, he will submit to them. If his lover is more on the submissive side, he will take care of them. He’s not super into power play, though. He simply takes the role that needs to be taken by him and adapts to it.
Libido - XIX The Sun
Eunkwang is such a cheerful and romantic lover. He’s really a sunshine and his passion comes to him easily and directly. He hides nothing from his partner, he’s very open minded and will do anything to please his lover. Eunkwang is likely to take the bedroom time lightly and with humour, he’s not really into dark and serious stuff.
Turn On - 7 of Swords
He’s likely to feel attracted to someone who’s not exactly his fan. He wants to earn their love and trust. Eunkwang might even fall in love with his rival or enemy. Some sort of adversity makes things spicier for him. He’s a competitive ball of sunshine and will happily challenge his partner and take on challenges from them in return.
Kink - 7 of Wands
Eunkwang is likely to enjoy some play fights in the bedroom. He’s likely to relentlessly tease his lover to provoke them. He’s a little provocateur and will pull pranks or fight over foolish stuff out of fun. His lover should be ready to play along for a little while. Eunkwang will get fed up with drama queens taking everything seriously and being unable to laugh at themselves very quickly.
Dirtiest Secret* - VII The Chariot
As said before, Eunkwang likes challenges. It’s possible his darkest secret is to save a damsel in despair and kill the dragon threatening her. He’s the knight in the shining armour and he’s ready to launch into battle in order to impress his empress.
Summary: It was probably nothing. At least, that’s what you told yourself.
Author’s Note: Hi. I know I said I’m currently on break but a friend asked a small favor from me to write this one. Er... Thankfully, I think I managed to pull through. I hope you will like the short story.
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Laughter mixed with repetitive whines filled the air. There was always something funny about seeing your close friend experiencing a small bit of misfortune. It wasn’t that you weren’t worried about him nor were you laughing at his demise. It was simply just funny.
“Stop laughing. It hurts,” he pouted before letting out a soft, “Ouch,” as he tried to get whatever it was that was in his eye.
One last chuckle passed your lips as you apologized. “Stop rubbing your eye. Let me do it,” you sighed, finally walking up to him. He stood a little taller than you so you had to push yourself up a little on your tiptoes. Gently, you held his wrist and tugged it down, effectively stopping him from rubbing his eye any further. Both of his eyes were tightly shut so you asked him to open them.
“But,” he mumbled like a kid before complying.
Carefully, your free hand pulled down a little on his lower eyelid before softly blowing to get rid of the speck of dust that got into his eye.
“Better?” The word came out in a whisper and you had no idea why you spoke in such a manner. Somehow, it just felt that the air around you both would be ruined if your voice was a little louder.
He blinked for a few times before his gaze met yours. You hadn’t stepped back and you were still standing on the tips of your toes.
For the first time, you held your breath in front of him. You never noticed how captivating his eyes were until that moment. For the first time since you both had met, your heart raced at the sight of him.
Too oblivious due to your own thoughts, you never noticed how his eyes had widened as well.
“I…” He mumbled, snapping you both out of whatever it was that seemed to have trapped you two.
Immediately, you took a step back and a deep breath. Thoughts kept on running in your mind as you tried to assess what had just happened. You knew that weird feeling in your chest. You also knew why you held your breath. Despite the signs, you brushed it off.
It was probably nothing.
“All better?” You asked again, smiling and pretending that nothing transpired.
“Y-Yeah,” he nodded and smile a bit in return. By the look in his eyes, he seemed a little troubled by the scenario from earlier.
It’s probably nothing, you thought again.
“You really have to be careful,” you scolded him playfully. “I won’t always be around to blow the dust from your eye Eunkwang,”
Eunkwang softly laughed before lightly shoving you. “Yes, mom,” he teased.
You smiled, Yeah. It’s probably nothing.
That was what you had told yourself. It was nothing. That was enough to convince you to push the short moment to the back of your mind.
For a while, it stopped bothering you. Truth be told, you had completely forgotten all about that exchange until you once again found yourself holding your breath in front of him.
In your head, his face seemed so close to yours when it actually wasn’t. It was probably the surprise that made you think that way. You were peacefully enjoying the cup of ice cream that you bought when you noticed that his hand moved towards you and tucked a loose strand of hair behind your ear. With doe eyes, you looked at him and noticed the small curve on his mouth.
Your heart drummed in a similar way to the time you had buried in your mind.
Eunkwang, knowing your never-ending love for the frozen treat, shared with you a newly opened creamery near your office and offered to go with you after work. That was how you found yourself in your current situation.
You were at a loss for words. Once again, your lips were slightly parted as you watched him.
“Your hair was getting into the cup,” he explained but deep inside, you felt that there was something else behind those words and behind the smile on his lips.
“O-Oh,” you stammered. His amused laugh rang in your ears causing you to blush. You never stuttered nor stumbled on your words with him but now, you felt at a loss.
Curious eyes watched Eunkwang. Your mind was once again filled with different thoughts.
It’s probably nothing, that was what you initially thought. But now, as you stood in front of him and watched as he enjoyed the cup of ice cream, you couldn’t help but wonder.
Was it really nothing?
You snapped out of your thoughts when he had called your name. He was still donning that smile on his lips. His eyes sparkled as he looked at you.
“Your ice cream’s going to melt if you keep on spacing out,” Eunkwang teased.
“R-Right,” you chuckled. “I knew that,” you tried to redeem yourself as you tried not to blush. You knew by the glint in his eyes that he caught you staring at him. You focused on the frozen treat in your hands. As you stuffed your mouth with the cold dessert, you couldn’t help but smile.
It’s probably nothing, you tried to convince yourself but a small part of you wished that it wasn’t.
Request: bitch gimme a "convenient store snack trip with eunkwang" mb plz <3
A/N: For @jaebummedaf You guys couldn’t ignore the hunger pains that were pestering you in the early morning hours and left the small apartment, entering the foggy streets of the night. You made it a game, whoever could make the trip the most fun gets to buy whatever snacks they want. He won. Obviously.
Summary: With the licensure exam just around the corner, you’ve been spending most of your days drowned in reviewers.
Author’s Note: Hello! It’s been a while. This is a really short one but I hope you still like it. :)
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Despite the numerous highlighters and colored pens scattered in front of me, a cup of warm coffee somehow found its way to stand in the midst of the mess. I couldn’t help but smile as I pulled my gaze away from my reviewer to look at the person responsible for the coffee.
His warm smile eased the exhaustion that I was feeling. His thoughtful gaze made me take in a deep breath to release a bit of the tension inside me.
“It looked like you needed one,” he simply stated when he finally sat down, never losing the smile on his lips.
I nodded as I cupped my hands around the warm cup. “You didn’t have to but thank you,” I gratefully told him. He truly didn’t have to buy me a cup of coffee even if I was already dying for one. Well, he didn’t even have to be here with me in the first place.
“You know, you can go home if you want to. I’m sure you have other things to do,” I mumbled, peering into his eyes. “Other things aside from watching me review for my licensure exam,”
He just shrugged before leaning back on his seat.
“Eunkwang,” I whined. “You really don’t have to sit there to wait for me to finish. Who knows what time I’ll end today,”
“It’s fine,” he assured. “Besides, we don’t always get to spend time together so I don’t mind. I know that you’ve really being doing your best to study so that you finish this exam in just one take, which is why you’ve been denying yourself of enjoying some rest and relaxation,”
“Delayed gratification,” I nodded.
“Yeah. I know I can’t take you on dates so I thought that I’d sit with you once in a while when you study. It’s also my way of saying that I support you,”
I smiled. “Fine. You can stay but if you’re feeling bored or tired, you can tell me any time that you’ll be going home,”
“Deal,” Eunkwang nodded.
He had always been like that—supportive and very attentive—and more. Sometimes, I would wonder what good I did in my life to have been blessed with someone like Eunkwang. We met through a friend of mine who was into theatre arts. She had invited me to watch a musical where she starred in and, by chance, Eunkwang was also part of the cast. Now that I think about it, we met while I was in the middle of my clinical clerkship.
“What are you smiling about?”
“Huh?” I quickly looked at him. I didn’t realize that I was in the middle of taking a sip from the cup when I suddenly smiled. I blushed when I caught myself looking back at our relationship and how he had stuck with me, a medical student, and my kind of life. I mumbled that it was nothing and immediately started reviewing again.
In a few moments, I was once again in my own world. My eyes and mind were focused on the material in front of me. It was just me, my reviewers, and my colorful writing materials. Everything else around me was a blur. I could barely hear the music in the background and the chatter of the people around me.
Time flew quickly.
People had come and gone but I didn’t pay much attention to them. However, once in a while, I would snap out of my bubble to check on Eunkwang. He had brought along his handheld gaming device. Just like me, he was focused on what he was doing. Rather, playing. Once in a while, he would let out a grunt or whisper a yes depending on what was happening on his screen.
It made me feel a little better that he was doing something while he was with me. Knowing that his game was keeping him entertained, I continued to study.
By the time I was 90% done with what I had set for the day, I took a short break to stretch my aching limbs. A sigh escaped my lips at the tiny bit of relief. I looked around before my gaze landed on Eunkwang who was sleeping. He had his arms folded on the table and his head turned to the side as he rested on them.
A soft laugh escaped my lips. Surely, he must have been tired from sitting with me all day. Gently, I ran my hands through his soft hair. He seemed to like it because he snuggled further into his arms.
“Cute,” I whispered.
After a few more times, I stopped. I had to go back to studying. Just as I pick up a pen, Eunkwang mumbled something incoherent. And then he repeated it again a little clearer the second time. Still, it wasn’t enough for me to understand what it was. Curious, I leaned a little closer to him in hopes that he’d say it again.
I was about to give up on it when he suddenly said my name. Then he said it. Clearly and loud enough for me to understand the words. I sat back, feeling a little in the clouds.
My heart was racing as I sat there. I could feel it pounding against my chest and I could hear my heart pumping in my ears. I was supposed to study again but my head was filled with the words he just said; words that I’ve never heard him say to me before.
I stared at his sleeping figure and the words he spoke kept playing in my head. My face felt hot all over. It’s as if the temperature in the place rose.
“Snap out of it,” I mumbled, shaking my head. I even slapped my palms against my cheeks to help wake me up.
Once I felt that I was back on Earth, I picked up my pen as I glanced at his sleeping, angelic face. I couldn’t help but smile before going back to my reviewers, his words ringing in my ears once more.
Author’s Note: Just a little something for bad days. I wasn’t feeling to great last night so I made this because it was what I needed. Hehe. I hope this will make you feel better too. :)
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“Hey, have you heard?”
The number of times that people have messaged me with that line or any variant of it has officially exceeded the number of fingers and toes that I have. I was practically copying the same response for the last 6 or so people who have asked.
A heavy sigh escaped my lips as I looked at the article loaded on my browser. I wasn’t surprised when it was released. After all, I had a feeling that it was bound to happen with how they were cutting down their employees.
The company I work in… Rather, (would soon-to-be) worked in filed for bankruptcy and decided to totally shut down operations by next month. Sadly, I was in the list of the employees that were being laid off this coming week. I knew it was coming but I felt betrayed. I worked there for years. I’ve exceeded their expectations and delivered more than I should yet I was getting laid off earlier than most of the employees. It was difficult to accept. I haven’t even told anyone about it because if I did, I would be solidifying the truth of it.
I never spoke a word about it not even to my live-in partner.
I couldn’t give him that burden because we aren’t even married yet, much less engaged. I I didn’t want him to worry about my situation and me. I’ve been trying to search for a new job but it was difficult to find one.
A soft groan escaped my lips as I hung my head in defeat. I had no idea what to do. I wanted to cry out of frustration but my eyes would immediately get swollen. My partner would be arriving home at any minute and I don’t want him to see me in such a state. But my heart felt heavy.
I felt lost.
To be honest, I wanted to tell him. I wanted him to just hold me and tell me that it was fine. I felt that that would energize me. It may be what would give me the drive to continue pushing forward because right now, I just wanted to stop and drop to the ground.
Another deep sigh escaped my lips as I thought of how I could get myself out of this misery. I needed direction and I wouldn’t be able to find it if I kept on pitying myself.
Still, at that moment, all I wanted was someone to tell me that it would be fine. I needed someone to hold me and assure me that I would be able to find something.
As if the divine beings heard me, I felt a pair of arms tightly wrap around my shoulders from behind. I was about to push whoever it was away until his familiar scent wafted into my nostrils. I immediately relaxed in his hold as I felt him rest his chin on top of my head. With his arms and his distinct scent surrounding me, I felt at ease.
“Come on,” he mumbled as he pulled me up from where I sat. He had to let me go as he led me to the bedroom. The whole while, my eyes were just on him. He didn’t say anything even when he had pulled me with him to lay down on the bed.
Once more, his arms were tightly wrapped around my figure as he pulled my body to him. I breathed in and closed my eyes. I could feel his hand slowly rubbing up and down my back. Once in a while, he would kiss the top of my head.
“It’ll be okay,” he whispered. “Whatever it is in your mind, it’ll be fine. I’m with you. You can count on me,”
I smiled a bit as I nodded against his chest. “I know,” I mumbled. “It’s just…”
“Shh,” he hushed. “I know. I know. It’s okay. I kind of figured when I saw you sighing repeatedly in front of your laptop,”
Just like always, he knew when I wasn’t feeling great. I felt lucky to have someone like him who could easily read me and my emotions.
“Thank you,” I uttered, pushing myself closer to him and the warmth he gave. In turn, he held me even closer. I don’t know how long we stayed in that position but I was thankful because he kept me in his arms until he knew that I felt a whole lot better.
