hi hello how are you? welcome to a late night xoxo with nav.
not me introducing this like it’s a talk-show gaddamn i swear, i should’ve been a theatre kid. it feels biblically inaccurate that i wasn’t.
ANYWHO, hi! quick eoj update before i yabber on more about it and other topics (im in a yap mood today oop-).
REGARDLESS, we finished the drunk speakeasy chapter LETS GOOOOOO so now it’s time for evan to absolutely DEBAUCHER the everloving graces out of this investigation, project where bro had NO BUSINESS projecting, and subsequently ruin everything in a single slip of the tongue! 😃
anyhow… i’m loving the way the story is flowing ngl. we’ll see how i feel about it in a couple of months (lmao, the cos rewrite haunts me in the back of my mind while i sleep. she’s my sleep paralysis demon).
i had the WEIRDEST dream last night where i was teaching parkour to my old elementary school class, but also the new kids that went there, but it was in an orchestra room and my old music teacher was trying to smuggle us out because the sun was blistering my shoulder and turning me radioactive.
anyways i had to check my shoulder this morning for scars. we are cleared. 🫡 🙂↕️
back to eoj tho oopsies. do yall think im distracted? do i give off squirrel energy? i hope not. my sister is scared of squirrels. she has been since she was 13.
wait acc before we go to eoj, i have this theory that the shape of a squirrels skull influences its personality. is this very phrenology coded of me? 1000% i don’t care. the ancient greeks and the middle ages would’ve loved me. ADORED. temple of naveena coming through.
okay maybe that’s overkill.
ANYWHO omg back to eoj frfr….
anyhow, i acc love donovan and evan’s friendship omg i think they’re my favourite bromance right now. also, i can’t tell if evan and vaza-ek are platonic right now or not, which is concerning, because bro has a whole girlfriend. 👹👹👹
I DONT KNOW WHY IM INCAPABLE OF WRITING THEM AS PLATONIC, BUT I DIDNT SEE IT AS AN ISSUE UNTIL KHUSHI AND JUNO BOTH POINTED IT OUR.
a bit of backstory, shall we? let’s meander down memory land, and visit the origins of evan in a nav lore extravaganza of why the vaza x evan ship was even born.
see, back when i first conspired this story, i was (for starters) 12 and innocent. hardly cracked out of the womb yet. so i baRELY wrote romance, even where there should have been romance. i cannot EMPHASIZE TO YOU how bad i was at writing romance omg. my friend yelled at me once because “i didn’t understand love!” and none of my characters, not even the ones who were supposed to be in relationships, felt like anything more than friends.
this girl changed everything.
I DONT KNOW WHAT HAPPENED. but vaza ek starts off as somewhat of evan’s rival. then eventually becomes his best friend. and she was supposed to STAY THAT WAY, because i was a huge fan of aiyana x evan and i planned on making them the canon otp.
but khushi, bless her soul, she’s a wiser soul than i am. she speaks for the readers, i’ve come to discover. she was the og morreial fan, the only reason why i didn’t kill him off. and khushi saw vaza ek and evans relationship and went… “girl. be so deadass right now.”
khushi saw them and went, “this is the first time you’ve ever written a pairing with so much chemistry, they seem PHYSICALLY drawn to one another, and i’m reading lines off a page.”
she genuinely said if i kept those two as friends who end up in different relationships for the remainder of the book, they’d be emotionally cheating on their partners with one another.
and so i went, oh! 😃 oh dear!
and i tried to make them EXTREMELY platonic.
she went, back to the drawing board. i still think they’re about to kiss any second now.
and we KEPT DOING THAT FOR YEARS.
khushi is now the biggest vaza ek x evan shipper, and every time i tell her im unsure if they’re gonna be the canon otp or not, she gives me the stankiest side eye in the world. when we were younger, it was the cold shoulder and arguments.
i don’t know why, but i can’t seem to write these two in a platonic relationship. i keep trying to, and i THOUGHT i got it, until i showed juno the scene, and she outwardly asked why evan was so down bad for her.
i think this is a sign from the universe to just let it happen. BUT LIKE???? my question is, why can’t i write the platonic???? like sure, ill explore their relationship a bit… but why CANT I write the platonic??? why am i incapable of it??? why is my skill lacking in this department?
anyways, closing notes because this is getting long—evans playlist is such a scramble of hits but some of them are so un-evan LMAO. past me was just adding everything to that playlist
