#expressingmyself

[direlbueji]

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[inessr]

Incêndio.

As pessoas são armadilhas. Talvez nem se apercebam.Também eu o devo ser, com certeza, em relação a alguém. Talvez nem seja por mal. Talvez não tenhamos consciência disso. Mas destruimo-nos uns aos outros. Como? Somos os únicos seres com o dom (?) da Razão, da inteligência, e somos verdadeiros animais a relacionar-nos uns com os outros. Atropelamo-nos por entre egoísmos e altruísmos (um disfarçado do outro, e lá vamos alternando). Por muitas pontes e castelos que construamos, acabamos sempre por queimá-los. Pegamos nós no fósforo ou atiramo-lo alegre e inconscientemente a outra pessoa para ver um belo espetáculo de luz, cor, calor - em breves momentos esse espetáculo torna-se num incêndio puro, ofuscante, negro e ardente. A essas queimaduras chamo mágoa. E às cicatrizes chamo lições. Mas talvez eu precise de mais feridas para aprender de verdade. Talvez nunca aprenda.

[youarefirehun]

You.

It’s a cliche but you’re the last person on my mind before I go to sleep. The first person on my mind when I wake up.

The reason I can’t eat, can’t concentrate on work or TV shows. The person who occupies my mind the most. Borderline unhealthily, actually.

I really, REALLY like you. But I know that I am probably more into you than you are me. And that I probably think about you more than you think about me.

I want to get to know you better. Spend more time with you. Kiss you, hug you and hold your hand again. Wake up next to you and in your arms. I want you to want me as bad as I want you. I want you to love me someday.

The passion I feel when I’m with you and the fun we have together is addictive. It is what fuels these feelings I have for you.

But you are distant now. Then sometimes you’re not. And I don’t know what it all means. I don’t know if you still want her or if it really is over for you now.

But one thing I do know is that I cannot compete if someone else still holds your heart. I will not. I can’t hurt myself like this anymore.

[the-sane-asylum]

Reset

I’m almost 40 and I..... bout lost my sanity. Forget the words and you lose lose your humanity I don’t really care if they care, they try to scam on me. The fault is mine yes it is because I let them. I aim to please and want to help and so I sweat them. I recruit my self for their game but I don’t vet them.

Those days are done I hold the chips but I dont bet em.  I take the bags full of me away now they can’t get em. I’m back to righting  my wrongs with ink and vellum. The stench of dead emotions half buried are piling high but I can’t smell em.  

It stinks,.. but not for me anymore, their thinks... are not for me anymore. Don’t blink cause I’m not me anymore. At least not as you knew me before. I broke the  links to the chains and they hittin the floor. So heavy it sinks submarines deep,  a heavy knock at the door. Who could it be? 

Welcome?! Its me but from the past. What shall I tell him? That future memories of yesterday’s present presented in the past tense amplified by nonsense and remixed with a deep sense,  leaks ...so double bag and don’t release ..your grip,walk slow, not a pimps pace don’t make haste gird ya hips and don’t get lost in the sweet space that is your own mind. Time don’t make time, people do. Don’t be me....Be you.

[sunnykj]

Been working on this one for awhile. Despite that I dislike roses, this quote has meaning to me right now. For awhile I feel like people only want to accept half of who I am, only the good stuff. They don't want to accept the bad that comes with it. Which is sad, makes me feel like I'm not worth it. But then I think about this quote and I think all the good is worth the bad. Isn't that why people like roses? They are so beautiful people are willing to get pricked by thorns just to have them. #flowerwreath #lettering #calligraphy #handlettering #roses #thorns #quotes #andregide #art #expressingmyself #expressing #feelings

[goldenjungles]

"Maybe you dumbasses wouldn't feel emasculated by feminism if your manhood wasn't rooted in something other than oppressing women."

[faith-and-extracheese]

Just some stuff and reflections from yesterday (09-06-2023)

Lately, I have been looking forward to all the different experiences in my life. I have been consciously taking efforts to put forward my insights with clarity, and I am showing up for myself. For instance, yesterday, I went shopping for accessories! It's my friend's birthday tomorrow, and I have a look in mind. To complete it, I needed a statement neckpiece, in this case, an oxidized one. So, that was one specific thing I went for. Others, I looked around and want to include necklaces, rings, scrunchies, and bracelets into my everyday looks, and I am so impressed with my selection. The overall bill has touched about Rs 3000.

I do have to add this though, that I was so specific about what I wanted, the quality of each product, and whether I repeating something I have, or there was a variety in the product, I looked around, and this was exhilarating do this for me. I mean, I was focused, yet I explored within the limit. I did experience a productive high after this :) Also, this process taught me that I need to take care of my jewelry because whatever you take care of in your life, lasts. People & materials, and especially oneself! This exercise also built trust in me, to decide what I want, select choices as per my measures and simply start including them in my life :)

Another thing I have been lately into is my feet health. I realized that I hadn't been taking care of it all, and I could feel the negative impact. Now I have decided to take it up as my priority because since it is at the bottom of the body, its care seems to a back seat. Now that I am going beyond to take care of it, I feel like it is responding to the care, it feels like it is ALIVE and THRIVING. I especially love it when I am massaging my toes. I have come to understand that there are many nerve endings and have points that separately connect to different parts of the body, for the overall inside-out well-being of the body.I have also noticed when I massage my ears and my hand fingers, the extremities. It feels like the stagnant energy is being released and my body is feeling very relaxed. :)

Additionally, I have dedicated my time and energy to healing my warts. I just need to be consistent with it and take my time. Rushing everything only loses out the care behind it. I like taking care of myself and showing me that I care for myself :)

Also, got a call about a job, which would require me to relocate. As this would be a new experience for me, I am definitely considering the opportunity, even considering the project requirements. And I have decided that if the job supports my well-being & financial expectations I would like to go ahead with it :) This week might be pivotal. Let's see, I am hoping for the best! :D And not putting too many expectations on one opportunity. At the same time, I am challenging my own ideals. Nervous and excited, but just excited mostly! :)

Sanjana, you are amazing! I love how you are always pushing to limits and figuring out what's good for you, while you are learning, unlearning, and re-learning everything about the world around you, and especially about yourself! :)

One concept that I am learning to grasp lately is the idea of One-ness. That we are all connected and that one thing impacting me will impact others too. Basically, we are all interconnected as a whole.

'Oneness is a recognition that we are not actually separate from the rest of the universe. It is a perspective that arises naturally when a person stops buying in to the illusion that the self is some kind of permanent thing but is instead a constantly changing, interdependent pattern of interactions, in a particular universal context. We are, essentially, clumps of matter that have given rise to awareness, the universe looking at itself. We get so caught up in our little ego battles, desires, emotions, and the conflicts born of them, that we can easily lose sight of the bigger picture. Oneness is a valuable perspective because it brings a sense of calm and clarity, both of which can be very helpful in the process of learning to make better and better choices.' As quoted by an author on Quora. However, I just wanna add that everyone's idea of this can vary and I am willing to compose a post entirely on this topic! :)

I have been eating mindfully. Usually, I would go ahead with a serving to finish it off. Nowadays I can stop when the tummy signals that it's done, and keep the rest for later consumption. I also add the food contents mindfully, so I can add them later if needed. :)

Also, the impact of Pilates is already showing in my body through my posture, my movements, my willingness to be more active, to move around, and things like that

Overall, I have been feeling SO GOOD inside and out. I am feeling more confident in trusting myself. And I choose to nurture this connection to myself lovingly! :)

[ruby-ty-did]

My little rant

Truth be told I wonder at times why I ended up having some of the family members I do because granted I will never know what it truly feels like to have an actual mother or father who truly want you or actually care about you.