i love my source as a whole, but i just cannot play the particular game i'm from while sober. reliving every traumatic event that happened during that time, only told poorly and through another's perspective, sends me into panic attacks otherwise. trying to interact with fandom content is even worse. everyone is always so callous about what happened to us. i mean, i suppose that makes sense, seeing as it's only a game to them. it's so easy to laugh when you weren't there. (tag as fictive)















