#feb. 2024

[zoeflake]

After the snowfall, a brief and pale show of sun

[zoeflake]

For as much as I love snow—and as indescribably beauitful snow-cloaked trees are—these wet, heavy snowfalls can be so damaging. The original part of our house was built in the mid-1800s, and a semi-circle of Norway Maples was planted nearby, likely soon after. Their average lifespan is 150 years...and sadly, two have recently died. The snow brought down some large limbs on others—we're hoping they'll survive the loss. Our black walnut trees may be even older, their lifespan can surpass 250 yrs. Altho' persimmon trees have a much shorter lifespan—an average of just 60 yrs.—the 5th largest known one (DCNR confirmed) in Pennsylvania is on our little farm. Every substantial snowfall brings a mix of excitement, and worry for these awesome old trees.

[teddy-bear-naps-and-random-snaps]

[f4shionbug]

Sunset last night 🌅

[gothvugh]

reflecting on who I was in high school. I was a horrible person back then. 2019 was the worst year of my life so far and it was all deserved.

[gothvugh]

I feel like everyone is running on water and I’m just drowning in it. I know what I need to do to help myself. it’s conjuring up the self-discipline to actually do it.

[gothvugh]

…

[gothvugh]

I’m at a loss as to what I could do to possibly feel better. just emotionally overwhelmed with too many obligations and too many ideas. I don’t know where to start cleaning up.