#feeling grey

[sunny-aster]

bad day ended with some major bad news but at least I have my cats to comfort me

[sheensstuffiguess]

I feel so much anger for you and you don't even know it. I can't stop ruminating over situations that haven't happened and that I know won't happen but part of me still believes you're capable of it. I'm tired and I'm hurt. I feel like no one in this house tries to connect with me. You ask about my family and then make fun of them, you say I can invite people over but you criticise them, you say its my house too but then complain when it isn't arranged to your liking. It's because I love and value you that I feel putting up with all of this is worth it but I just know that if I acted how you did, I'd be gone immediately. Especially after the wedding, you were so happy and laughing with everyone and having real conversations but then I was forced into a box because you kept bringing up the same bits and jokes about me. You never try involve or joke with me anymore, its always at me and I don't understand why. You invite me to social events but it's only when you don't know the people or when you don't want to go so I just become the dancing monkey to distract from what I'm guessing might be you lacking social skills? I don't know. I feel really lost with my relationships right now, especially this one. I feel like my ability to stand up for myself has been lost since living with you, I'm walking on eggshells and feeling so anxious it's making me sick.

[shotoandhamiltonchaos]

startin to feel a little... Grey. Like I'm not enough, outside life doesn't matter, only digital. Have to explain everything. I.. the stress of being perfect is already too much I don't need any more stress. Thank you.

Ace

[blu-raspberri]

i love feeling low energy like i dont want to do anything cus i know if i complain abt it on discord ill just get like... ohhh well you always feel bad! oh well you should just get therapy and shut up and stop whining because you cant just whine and not get better! its annoying! so i come here for my pick me up but i. m too low energy to like............. interact........ with the things that would pick me up? too tired to play games. too tired to want to watch anything. too tired to draw. not tired enough to go to sleep. fuck im even too tied to think abt characters that would probably help alleviate the feeling i just want to be a ball of moss or whatver

[feeling---grey]

Titles of poetry I'll never write

Do you hate me yet?

The most boring colour (grey)

Rainy nights

Raindrops in my hands

(Everything is) breaking apart

Hollywood smile

Believe the beautiful lie

I'm a liar so thank me

Killing me slowly

Broken mirror

Failure. Risk or result?

Favorite childhood story

Break me, then smile

I wish you'd hate me

Makes it so hard to hate you

Bring the sun back for you

Liar, liar. Playing with fire

I'm sorry, so don't forgive me

Please scream

Painful lies to comfort you

I told you so, but you said you loved me

[feeling---grey]

Raindrops in my hands

I lost control, of the only thing I thought, I knew. It all ran out so quickly, I almost didn't notice.

The water droplets were falling, but I mistook them for my tears. And so I didn't catch them, because I thought they were the pain, I collected through all these years.

They all ran out so quickly, now there's no going back. I'm thirsting, but it's on me, because I let my own water run free. I can't complain, because I was the one to make the mistake.

I just wish I could drown, because this hurts even worse. I tried drinking my tears, but it doesn't help my thirst. Don't bother offering me water because I'd rather die.

Just please, God, let me drown, just one more night.

[not-so-average-mermaid-blog]

I feel like you don´t love me anymore. but thats okay I was wondering why you did in the first place. slow goodbyes  are still  goodbyes.

[shelivesndaydreams]

Feeling Grey

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