My heart hurts, my head constantly aches, and I just feel gray and like a complete loser. I hate myself and my body and I just want to stay home and sleep but when I do I have these moments when my body freezes up and I panic and I feel absolutely horrible but I don't want to burden my friends or family because they expect me to be happy all the time. My mind is so disorganized and I have my driving test soon and I'm so stressed out and nervous, help!!! (tag: feelingray)
Hey there, lovely.
I’m so sorry you’ve been going through this recently, it sounds like an awful lot to deal with.
Sweetie, please believe me, you are not a loser. Not at all. This is not your fault and you do not deserve it at all. You are an amazing and beautiful person and I am so sorry that you’re having these feelings. It really isn’t fair.
I know you don’t want to feel like a burden, but I don’t think your friends or family will see you that way. They might seem as if they expect you to be happy all the time, but this will just be because they want what’s best for you. I really think it would be a good idea to open up to someone you can trust in your family. You don’t have to go through this alone.
It could maybe help you to look through our page on Calming Anxiety and Panic. This page has some really good tips that help you when you’re about to talk to someone, as well as on your driving test. One thing that helps me more than anything is breathing techniques, I would suggest practicing them somewhere you are comfortable, and practicing over and over until they become sort of like second nature to you, and you can apply them more easily then in an anxious situation.
Everyone will just want what’s best for you dear, and you deserve that. I’d really suggest speaking to someone in your family and seeing if they can take you to see a doctor. If this really isn’t an option for you, then could you maybe try speaking to a web counsellor? You may find this easier as it doesn’t involve face to face contact.
I wish you all the best, and good luck on your driving test! If you don’t pass, just remember, all the best drivers pass 4th time. Or was that just me? Probably.
Stay safe. <3
Love Louise xox
