Message from Wang Jinghan after Journey With You's over.
I used online translations so not sure if accurate but I wanted to know what he says.
I used AI online translations so translations are not mine and not sure how accurate.
For anyone who wants to read too, if any.
I feel like he really likes this role or this role impacted him a lot since he's one of the one who wrote the most though it's mostly him summarizing the whole drama and more as Pei Yanzhi.
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Pei Yanzhi
My name is Pei Yanzhi, also called Feng Sun. I am the prince of the Tarhan tribe on the grasslands. I grew up on the grasslands, where all children learn martial arts from a young age; we are a people born on horseback. My father is the Khan, and my martial skills were outstanding among the children. One day when I was out, I came across a wolf struggling in a pool of blood. I went forward to check and rescued it. It turned out to be the White-Eyed Wolf King, but it still left in the end, leaving me a wolf fang. In my dreams it told me that this wolf fang could bless me and the person I love to be together for all lifetimes. I just took it as a dream. Very soon, word spread through the tribe that I had slain the White-Eyed Wolf King, saying I was the eagle of the grasslands, truly worthy of being the Khan's son. I couldn't be bothered to explain anything because there was no point. Later, my father passed away and my elder brother became the Khan. However, my uncle commanded strong military forces and was discontented with my brother's ascension. He used my little sister as a threat to force me to go to the Great Xing Dynasty as a hostage. Though I was still young, I knew I would certainly be bullied there. They belong to a different people; everything would be unfamiliar. I didn't want to go, but I had no choice. My father the Khan had told me that a real man must protect his family. Yes, so I went. My brother came to see me off, his eyes full of reluctance, repeating the words "your brother is useless" over and over. I couldn't feel his sorrow; I only knew this was what I ought to do.
Arriving at the Great Xing imperial palace, it was just as I had expected. Everything here was different from the grasslands. The people in this palace were all hypocritical. I raised my spines. A boy called Yin Zhou, always with two lackeys, constantly bullied me. Once, after they had bullied me, a little prince ran out and grabbed hold of me. He looked about my age. I knocked his hand away and walked off. Another time, he grabbed me and ran, and I met Consort Chen. She gave me milk skin, something you only find on the grasslands. I couldn't hold back. I came to know his name was Yin Qi.
Another time, Yin Zhou came and demanded I kneel and kowtow to him. I knew he was the eldest prince of Great Xing, but how could a grassland eagle kneel to him? Even if they killed me, I would bite a chunk of flesh off them. I raised every spine on my body to protect myself. But at that very moment, a beam of light shone into my life. So there were good people in this palace after all.
Consort Chen treated me as her own child. Yin Qi and I grew up together. This person who came and grabbed my hand when I was most helpless—the moments between us, I can no longer tell if it's brotherhood or the love my mother told me about... No, it must be brotherhood, but I know he will be the person I cherish most in this lifetime.
When I was with Yin Qi, I often felt he was a bit silly, too naive. I often took care of him like an older brother. As storms gathered in the imperial city, I knew I had to protect him.
The third and fourth princes were both driven out of the capital; I knew he would be the next. I knew he only wanted to be a man of leisure and live a peaceful, stable life. I hoped he could have that, and of course it would be best if he took me with him. I began to make arrangements. The eldest prince was a very dangerous man; I still made contact with him, and I had my own plan.
Consort Chen fell gravely ill; it seemed she had little time left. I don't know if A-Qi fell sick from worry, but he fainted. I kept watch by his bedside. When he woke this time, there wasn't the surprise of seeing me in his eyes that I had hoped for, only full-blown hatred. I just took it that he couldn't accept the news of Consort Chen's impending death. I continued busying myself inside and outside Yonghe Palace, laying out my plan.
Consort Chen passed away after all, and A-Qi seemed to change too. In order to send the consort to Jiangnan, he played Yin Zhou... and also... deceived me. That was the first time he deceived me. He might have become suspicious of what I was doing in secret. I didn't know.
He seemed to have grown up overnight. I didn't know whether to be happy or worried. He had found out some things about me, but I still didn't want to tell him. I didn't want him to know such messy matters. I still wanted him to be that carefree Yin Qi. Yet he actually began to suspect I was betraying him, which made me feel very wronged, but I didn't want him to suffer even the slightest grievance. I continued with my plan. The relationship between A-Qi and me became very strained. Every time I saw his eyes, no longer the same as before, my heart would twinge with pain. Yet I still took care of him just as I used to.
He felt that since the shady dealings between Yin Zhou and me couldn't be explained clearly, he might as well lock me up. I could only be his. He forcefully kissed me. So he actually liked me. I was overjoyed.
A-Qi was attacked by assassins. I thought it was Yin Zhou's doing. I went to confront him. I knew things couldn't go on like this. But why did A-Qi always think I would lose? I probed him a little, but he didn't answer me.
We embraced and kissed beneath the sky lanterns. I thought I must face this relationship squarely. Once this was all over, I would be with him forever.
Yin Zhou fed me poison, and I had to go to him regularly to get the antidote. I knew my life was already over. The last thing I had to do was help A-Qi clear the obstacles. I spoke coldly to him for the first time, thinking it might be better if he hated me. My mind was in chaos.
But I couldn't stay away from him. I still involuntarily wanted to get close to him. I bought the Longjing pastry he had long wanted to eat and went to find him.
No wonder he thought I would lose. So he was someone who had been reborn. My heart ached a little, and I felt somewhat guilty. I still hadn't planned enough; I had harmed him. But this time, even if it costs my life, I will protect his peace for this entire lifetime.
We defeated Yin Zhou. I watched as he drank my antidote. Despair already filled my heart, but I couldn't let A-Qi worry. I pretended nothing had happened and requested the emperor to let me return to the grasslands, to find a place far from A-Qi and die alone.
In the time I spent with A-Qi, my attachment to this world grew fiercer and fiercer, yet I had no way out. It seemed I could no longer grasp this beam of light. My body grew weaker and weaker. I knew I couldn't delay any longer; I had to leave.
A-Qi still found out. He came to see me. Facing his love, I felt a bit of pain. I didn't want to make him sad. I couldn't bear to leave him. But it seemed I had no choice. I told him to go back and let Aunt Lin take me to search for an antidote. (A-Qi, this parting now, I don't know if we will have the chance to meet again. May you have a lifetime of peace.)
