I've very recently come to the conclusion that I don't want to be a man, actually. But I don't want to be a woman either, or even really non-binary. I want to be a cat. Is that considered being transspecies? Because I never really thought about it this in-depth before until I got top surgery. And while I don't regret it at all, I still feel weirdly ashamed of my body? Maybe because of the scars and lack of hair. But I don't want hair in the way a man has hair. I want it to be soft and thick and covering pretty much all of my body, like an animal. And I'm really not sure how to feel about all of this.