#finally whole

[vaughn-halla]

My life started

The day I met you.

I'd never been touched

Until your hand.

I didn't recoil;

I didn't tremble.

It was like we were one.

Finally whole.

[drdeeknight]

Gone in 60 Seconds

Gone in 60 Seconds

I turned 33 this month. I began experiencing life’s brokenness at 3 years old, and ever since then, I’d always felt exactly that. Broken. About four weeks ago, I reread the story of the woman with the issue of blood in Matthew 9:20-22. I remember reading that “instantly” she was healed, and I paused my reading to say, “Lord, Jesus! I want that! I want to be instantly healed! I want this pain to…

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[thegoodoldreliablerotbtd]

Chapter 6 – Woodland

Tittle: Finally Whole

Crossover: Brave & How To Train Your Dragon.

Summary: You can believe anything you want towards life itself. You can believe things happen for a reason or you can believe in luck or fate or destiny. Odd things happen all of the time–positive and negative–from the most meaningless happening to the most important event your soul will be involved in. Whichever the reason was, they met, and only they can discover why.

Inspired On: Undone – Ed Sheeran

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The wind was blowing harder than before and the two human figures at the top of the tree just reacted to hold on to the branch they were sitting on.

The laughing didn't stop there; it made it louder. Merida’s hair was all over the place and Hiccup’s expression was alike to the one of a frightened cat. They laughed looking at each other and Hiccup continued his tale. He could see Merida in all her spendor. Her hair was bright and alive –like a burning fire– against the last rays of the sun.

The color of the leafs seemed to come alive around her, there were tones of pale olive or deep dark avocado green. In his opinion it looked mighty fine around the girl.

Merida started to analise the boy slowly. His eyes seemed different in the darkness, now that the sunset was on his lower back and his hair surprisingly conserved the wood-like color. His small hands were making expressions that conceded with the tales he was narrating.

The whole world seemed timeless. Weightless. The early shinning of the moon and the blinking of the stars made their appearance. Hiccup and Merida were easy with each other. The conversation was spontaneous. They talked about how was life on Berk with dragons and how life could be in Dunbroch with dragons, how Berk would be without dragons right now and how Dunbroch has a lot of bears around, how Berk would be with bears, how bears and dragons are different, how they are alike, how Toothless is the best pet on earth and how their lives turned out after all of this years.

Merida decided to keep her biggest adventure –or preferably known to her as the mistake– and Hiccup said nothing about his now cancelled engagement –why would he want to talk about it anyways? Right then and there only one thing mattered; they were finally together. After all this time they were still friends. Nothing had changed.

He didn’t look at her with sympathetic eyes and she didn’t look at him with jealousy.

It was perfect.

As time flew by the forest became darker and more thick, just as a wolf howled in the distance Merida realized a day away from Dunbroch had already passed and probably her parents were already organizing research parties to come looking for her into the forest. Sadly this had to end. She was about to tell the boy it was getting late but just about then she realized they had been staring at each other in silence. There was no certainty on how much time had passed since the conversation dried out but the act of just staring at each other gave Merida a strange feeling of fulfillment that could not be compared with anything else wandering her mind right now.

Slowly breathing in she whispered, “I think it is getting  a bit late, I should go home now.”

Hiccup stopped smiling but did not allow a sad gesture to cover his face. “I am guessing that is a very good idea.”

She smiled and took one last look around. The forest looked to calm as the wind moved its parts from side to side meanwhile the silent town seemed to melt with the nature around it. And then suddenly both of them slowly started to climb down the tree, slowly hiding away from the moonlight.

Toothless was accomodated against the tree trunk and Angus was resting on top of some dandelions.

“Time to go Angus.” Said Merida as her feet touched the ground.

Hiccup felt a scratch of panic as he realized Dunbroch was relatively far away. But before he could say anything she sighted and looked at him.

Merida knew in what type of trouble she would get involved with if someone in Dunbroch discovered that she had maintained relations with a viking. The last time the vikings visited Scottish territory a very complicated conflict was developed. It was something her parents did not like to talk about with other clans or between themselves, in fact, she never asked because after a while she was told to never mention it again. Now it was the past, but her father was a strong man, with a very good memory and for so he developed a long process to let things go.

And after all, like the rest, she was abel to forget and the memories she has of those times of conflict are limited and blurry.

Even after all the recapture of historical problems she flawlessly decided to invite him home. “You can stay in the castle if you want to. I can get both of you in a closed barn and have you done a hot fire with some food.”

Hiccup was surprised by her proposition. He knew that the relationship of Scotts and vikings wasn’t in the best conditions. He remembered that one day he woke up and half of his people were already on the boats, his father nowhere to be found. Gobber told him that they were all meant to leave by midday. Hiccup could not understand why, he thought they were all meant to stay a much longer time, but even as he developed the proper questions his father never gave any answers. That was usual of him but as soon as they got into Berk no one asked more questions. The incident was never mentioned again by anyone, not even him.

Having recaptured the nature of the environment he was inside now he had a clear answer in his mind. “I think it is better if Toothless stayed inside the forest, he is rather difficult to hide around.”

She laughed and looked down. “That seemes very logic.” A long pause happened and then she said: “I have a place for you in the forest, a small house. It is very simply and empty but it will maintain you two away from the rain at least.” She started walking west waiting for the rest to follow.

As she walked away the three remaining slowly kept themselves behind her, as if she was the messiah towards some holy ground.

After about 15 minutes of walking she stopped and looked behind her. The outline of a house was clear around the forest. She did not bother to knok and opened the door with one small push.

“Here you have it.”

Hiccup was a bit confused because the house was literally in the middle of nowhere. “What is this?”

“It was the house of a–“ before continuing Merida opened her eyes and thought about  a synonym of the word witch. None cme to her mind so she decided to to mention the magical properties that may have lived inside the house. “–a very old women who one day said she would go to the Wicker Man Festival in Stronoway but never came back.” The name seemed odd to Hiccup but the place was just fine for him. He did not require to sleep on the outside anymore.

He looked at Toothless and the animal gave him a disaproving face, and then looked towards Merida. Hiccup knew what that meant, the girl had to go through a probably dangerous forest towards a huge fight with her parents. Maybe all she needed was a little bit of reassurance and an escort in order to give her back a little piece of peace. “Don’t you want us to at least take you closer to Dunbroch? I would not be a problem for us–“

“We’re good.” She interrupted rapidly and forcefully. Of course she wanted to spend time with them but it was to much of a risk. “I mean, we were born and raised in this forest. I know everything about it, now isn’t that right lad?” She looked at Angus who looked unconvinced over her statement. “You look tired, it is better if you stay here and sleep for the night. Meet you again tomorrow on the circle of rocks?”

Toothless tried to make a type of grin to Merida and then at Angus. The facial expressions of dragons were very hard to read. Hiccup just smiled and nodded.

Without anything else to say she smiled and turned around towards Angus. She got on top of the horse and waved her hand to the viking.

He smiled and waved back only to find himself staring at the shadow of the girl sinking into the forest.

All he could think about was her eyes and smile, how her energy reflected happiness to other but uncertainty for herself. He started to think about over how he could help her, perhaps he could stay living inside that house, change his name and become a visitor on Dunbroch. Maybe Merida wanted to visit the whole world and he was able to accomplish such dream very comfortably with Toothless.

Hiccup and Toothless accommodated themselves on the ground and all the thoughts surrounding Merida seemed to work as a lullaby that took Hiccup into a deep sleep.

Meanwhile all she could think about was how much Hiccup had changed after all of those years, but as Dunbroch approached her mind seemed conflicted over Hiccup and her people. He was going to be safe where he was right now, she was sure of it. But neither Toothless’s needs to fly or Hiccup’s urge to explore could assure her anything. All ther was left to do was avoid her parents and try to fall asleep with the calm mind of certainty that she would find them inside that house tomorrow.

[ashsrantsandraves]

Happily in love again

So last night I got the best surprise ever! One of my best friends (and also ex) came back from basic training last night and surprised the hell out of me because I thought he wasn't coming in till tomorrow night. Mind you I do hate surprises, but I've been in love with him for years now and he's been helping me a lot since the shit I mentioned in my last post went down. And to make things even better not only is he moving in with me and my two other friends I live with (one of whom is my ex girlfriend and the other is like a brother) but mere hours after arriving he asked me to go out with him again and promised that he would never disappear without a word again. Which I can actually believe since we will be living together now. 😊 I'm so happy. Today is the first day in almost two weeks that I haven't had a total emotional breakdown about anything. Hell, I don't even miss the guy I left behind in Anchorage anymore and it feels amazing. Like I'm finally whole again.

[headphonesdaily]

Chapter 5 – The Meeting

Tittle: Finally Whole

Crossover: Brave & How To Train Your Dragon.

Summary: You can believe anything you want towards life itself. You can believe things happen for a reason or you can believe in luck or fate or destiny. Odd things happen all of the time–positive and negative–from the most meaningless happening to the most important event your soul will be involved in. Whichever the reason was, they met, and only they can discover why. 

Inspired On: Eve – The Paper Kites

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"Hiccup!" She shouted enthusiastically and jumped, putting her hands up.

"Merida!" He shouted with an equal mood and he opened his arms to welcome her in a hug.

She started to run towards him and made a slight jump just before being in his arms. The teenagers allowed the hug consume them, followed by a comfortable silence.

Merida allowed her body to feel her fellow’s warm body. Berk and Viking and specially Hiccup, were words that Merida has been blocking from her mind for a few years now–perhaps eight or nine years. She was a little lass, she didn’t understand what could happen if she was friends with a Viking. Merida closed her eyes tighter and scared those simple childhood thoughts, and tried harder to concentrate on the hug. It was just like she remembered, even after all this years, it seemed that nothing had changed. Same skinny Hiccup with little hands and delicate arms.

Hiccup inhaled deeply Merida's sweet scent. He suddenly had a sea of memories inside his head. The sound of her laughter flooded his ears and the melody of her voice sang for him. The arrows and the bows and the swords and the cakes and the hats and specially the apples passed in front of his eyes. He remembered the sunny mornings and rainy afternoons. He remembered how Merida would curl in his arms every time her father would not be there when a lightning fell from the sky.

She broke away, and in order to avoid awkwardness he did too.

Merida placed a hand on his shoulder–and pushed herself back to be arm length away from his body–and smiled "What are you doing here, Hiccup?"

Hiccup smirked back at her. "What are you doing here?"

A small laugh escapes her mouth. "I live here lass."

"Really?" Hiccup asks with a confused but playful frown.

"Sure, Dunbroch is a few minutes from here."

"Really?" He asks again with a more confused look on his face.

Merida allows a small sigh to escape her. "You really didn't expect that the princess would live in a camp…in the middle of nowhere, did you?" This phrase made her flashback to the small camp she occupied that summer. The enormous remains of a fire in the middle of the day infront of a relatively big load of tents full with weapons and cloths and food. Her ground level bed, those nights when sleeping between her parents was routine.

Hiccup rolled his eyes at her and smiled. She smiled back. "Hey! Don’t judge me.” He replied jokingly. After a small pause his eyes jumped from her eyes to her hair and then to the hand she was resting on his shoulder. Her hand felt heartwarming. It felt… safe–the kind of safe when she used to take his hand by the river, just to give him the comfort of thought that if he fell she would be there to pull him up…or just fall with him and they would confront the pain together. He sighed and smiled, bringing his eyes to connect with hers again. The words came out with no warning. “I'm glad I found you. I wondered a lot what had happened to you." He whispered.

These words puzzled her. After all he was the one who left. But having him back was like a miracle and she did want to ruin the meeting by starting a fight–like always. So she replied. "Me too, Hiccup."

Him staring so much at her and she staring back suddenly turned uncomfortable for Merida, so her eyes moved an inch of focus and from the back of Hiccup’s head Merida could see a dark silhouette grow towards them. She stood still looking into it. For the half of a second she thought about the impossible possibility that Mor’du had woken up from his death and was looking for revenge against her, but that faded, when she saw the shadow separating and each part made the shape of…wings. The actual body of the creature was crawling towards them. What has four paws, its enormous and has wings? She asked herself. And the answer jumped without having to even think about it. Dragons! Holy bloody! If only Fergus could see this. Guess he was right, they are real. She thought to herself smiling slightly but as the creature stepped closer her face went vacant. The thing seemed incredibly ridiculous so she had to repeat it over and over again.

Hiccup stared at her the whole time while she was distracted. He had forgotten many things this past years, and Merida was one of them. Not because he didn’t like her but maybe because it was completely the opposite. Maybe he liked her way too much and to be honest with himself all possibilities to even be friends with her after all the things that happened between Berk and Dunbroch were none. Forgetting about her and moving on were the only options he had after all. And maybe that had worked because he felt no butterflies in his stomach. Though he felt something odd on his feet and arms, like if he has no real control over them.

He suddenly realized the uncomfortable glance she had, looking at something behind him. “They are real…” She whispered and hearing it out loud made it even more absurd.

He allowed his hand to rest on Merida's shoulder, mirroring her action, as he slowly turned around. Toothless was walking slowly towards them. "Come here, buddy,” He said. “There's someone I'd like you to meet." He felt how Merida's shoulder tensed.

"You know him?" She asked silently.

Hiccup laughed and Toothless moved his head slightly to the side. If Hiccup was so comfortable around this stranger, she couldn’t be harmful, right? Her vibe was also clear…it felt warm. The dragon sat down straight in front of them.

"Toothless, Merida. Merida, Toothless." He said gesturing each other. Merida relaxed immediately. Toothless turned his head slightly to the right again, looking into her eyes.

"Well…hi lass." She said as her hand traveled slowly up. She glanced at Hiccup before pulling her arm any further towards the beast. She asked with her eyes if it was safe to do it. Hiccup nodded. She forced her hand further and stopped a few inches away from Toothless’ nose.

Toothless was completely calmed. He knelt down a little, in order to make Merida more comfortable. He had his eyes closed and was breathing steadily. It was the first time ever he had done that. Normally, the one who should have closed the eyes first here was Merida. The dragon peeked at her and closed his eyes again.

Hiccup noticed how the girl had already her eyes closed and how she tried to move her hand towards the beast, but something wouldn't allow her. So he decided to help. With his free hand he pushed slowly Merida's hand towards the dragon nose. When Toothless felt her hand, he started to growl. He didn't seem like a dragon now, he was more like a giant cat.

Merida's face lighted up as she felt it. Toothless opened his eyes and looked at her. He turned slightly his head to the left and made a movement with his face that could be classified as a smile.

The dragon growled harder. Her smile grew bigger and she opened her eyes while her sight traveled from Toothless to Hiccup. Her smile was graceful to him.

Hiccup also grows a big smile in his face. He realized his hand was perfectly placed over hers and it felt overwhelming. He just felt the warmth eradiate from Merida's hand to his palm. Although he honestly didn't want to take his hand away, he did. Slowly and steadily in order to keep Toothless comfortable.

"I–I think…he likes you." Hiccup’s whisper is nearly as loud as the wind. Meanwhile she keeps her eyes plagued on the creature.

Her confidence suddenly strikes her and she starts caressing Toothless. "Fair, I like him too." Her eyes flickered rapidly to see Hiccups expression but something makes her look again at him. This time for a long instant. "How come the last time we met you didn't have such an...Exotic pet?"

"I don’t really like to talk about him as just my pet, he is my best friend after all." His eyes move from her to the dragon with a warm expression. "We just met a few years ago."

Her eyes open in realization. "Toothless is a Night Fury isn’t he?"

"The only one I've ever seen...wait, why do you kno-"

"So it's you!” She says, more to herself than to him. “The Hiccup of the story!"

"The story? You've heard it?"

"Sure yes. I thought it was just a folktale.” Merida breathed and slowly moved her hand away from Toothless. “Apparently I was wrong."

"Apparently yes." He answers mockingly.

"I imagined you, little Hiccup beating a dragon the size of a mountain. Another reason why I thought it was untrue." She winked one of her big blue eyes at the dragon trainer. Though she did it for him not to feel bad, she actually thought impossible what Hiccup had done.

"Really? You imagined me?" He laughed. What he really wanted to say was: Really? You remembered me?

"Well, you know…fill in the blanks. The story says a young Viking named Hiccup, successor of a small tribe in the north, and his loyal dragon defeat a The Floating Death and save a whole kingdom from destruction and chaos.” Her eyes light up just as her imagination recreates small pieces of the story and a smile plants on her face meanwhile. Hiccup laughs a little bit at the brief recap of his adventure. “You are the only Viking Hiccup I know. You have the heritage of a northern tribe. And– well I guess that’s why I imagined you. You are a nice human being so imaging you with a loyal dragon isn’t very difficult.”

“Thank you…I guess. But, tell me that version again. Its new to me the name of The Flying Death, are you sure it wasn’t The Green Death?” He said.

“The Green Death? There, that’s a ridiculous name, isn’t it?”

“Oh no. Believe me, it isn’t.” He says with small pressure in his tone. The Green Death name is just right, no jokes to make about it. “So, tell me, who told you the story?”

Merida laughed lightly at this. “The real question here is who didn’t.”

“Oh, really? Am I that popular here?”

“Hey, hey, hey, not so fast. Not all the versions I heard were good dragon rider.” She playfully stuck the tip of her tongue out and smiled.

“Can’t wait to hear.” He mutters sarcastically.

“What would you think about climbing a tree right now?” She suddenly says.

“A tree?”

“You know…for the old times. It’ll be fun.” Her hand reached for his and she started to pull him towards an unknown place for him.

She had it all in mind now. The Mother Tree. The biggest and oldest tree in the forest. From there you could see practically all Dunbroch. He would love it. 

Merida with one hand was pulling intensely at the Viking and the other reached for stroking Angus and guiding him in her direction.

“Okay.” Hiccup whispered so low only he could hear it.

[esotericbynature]

My New Love

I see her. Vividly. Her green eyes are shining emerald pools of curiosity and wonder. Her smile glows brighter than any star in the whole Cosmos. She is the most beautiful girl I've ever seen, and she has every ounce of love I can think to muster. She makes me feel like twice the man I am, and act like I'm thrice the man I am. Her love for me is boundless and ever flowing. I love her.