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Divine Feminine and Hair Loss

kind of a new subject for me, that is really the root of my spiritual search at the moment

a woman, feeling like a man, in a man’s world

who could blame any woman in today’s society for feeling out of whack?

we are living in a masculine dominated world where nothing is go with the flow and we push ourselves to work, home and back

we sugar coat and cover shit up like it never happened - like we’re told to

“You’re too emotional, you change your mind so much, too sexual, you are too this or too that”

Too much is what men usually like to throw in my face lol and i’m like

“You’re not enough!!”

all feminine qualities, we are emotional and we live in our body which is the reason we can change our minds is because at the moment if we’re feeling it great but if we aren’t, no I’m not going. not flighty, we are honest lol

it’s almost superficial, we are told how to act how to be, how to look

let’s stop this, take a stand - feminist in the making lol

“i know how to live w/o overcorrecting” 😂

and then there are those who don’t deal with shit like me lol

and i envy you 

so here’s the scoop:

after a harsh relationship and break up

cheating, abuse, followed by self abuse and an over dominated masculine energy surrounding me

i started losing my hair

this is a touchy subject not only for me, but for other women also

and in light of Eclipse Season, releasing, and bringing light to a vulnerable topic (divine feminine)

i decided now is better time than ever to really open up this can of beautiful amazing worms, 

and let them crawl and envelope our time together right now lol

what is divine feminine energy?

well divine feminine has a lot of qualities and when balanced internally

with our divine masculine qualities,

we are to say, a well oiled love receiving and love giving machine

divine feminine qualities in men and women:

the art of just “being”

taking your time

fluidity in life, to go with the flow

feeling - pleasure/pain

receptivity to your surroundings and yourself

pleasure most importantly

communicating needs freely

knowing what you want and need (how to nurture yourself)

some ways our feminine energy can show up negatively is:

shutting down as a reaction

hard time receiving compliments (pleasure)

unable to receive or have feelings of guilt

beliefs of sex being dirty

feelings of “i dont matter” and unworthiness

stuck emotions and holding on to the past (being burned by someone)

unable to produce healthy boundaries for yourself

feeling undeserving

so i relate with most if not all of these at different points in my life

when my hair started thinning i was 22, i was out of my shit life lesson of a relationship lol and I HATED MEN!!

i was like fuck that if i’m ever giving my heart away to the male species ever again, so i over compensated inside myself, protecting my feminine

i had my life planned out (masculine) i would stay a man eating slave to my past and i would adopt children, i started my own company and started working in a male dominated industry (oilfield) to wreak havoc and have them bow down to me lol i pushed and tried and i hated it, ultimately learning another lesson

(this is all overexaggerated lol i have realized my impulses through the years and most importantly in the last months)

but it makes for a good story lol

so through my healing, i was always beating up on my masculine side, always feeling out of body and never connecting to my feelings, constantly repressing and stressing!

very masculine dominated

realizing how i was losing my hair (the top of my head) 

as if you will ever see me with a fucking cul-de-sac in this lifetime lol

i related it to being, “okay i have too much masculine energy in my body”

it was the opposite, 

i had TOTALLY shut off or hidden and repressed my feminine energy

at work i was not gunna be looked at as a woman so i shut off my divine ness of being and was one of the guys, creating new beliefs and values that fit the status quo

i was like who am i, why am i not feeling anything, why is my sex so lame, where’s my creativity?

now i am not saying that this is the root cause for my hair loss but if i can help any woman who is also going through this, you better believe i’ll get on here and talk about it lol

because this shit sucks!

i feel very passionate about this subject because I love women and everything they stand for,

i have my beautiful pack of gorgeous goddesses always ready to chat with and yip about our days and i feel a huge connection with women because i want to learn how to bring out that quality in myself

We are BEAUTIFUL CREATURES

i grew up with a mother very closed off with her femininity and was never taught the ropes of it all. i very much grew up like a little boy, i never had the sex talk, or was told about periods from my mum i was guarded and ashamed of my femininity, and i am a woman! 

so it’s like learning how to ride a fucking unicycle when you’re used to riding a bike (best i got right now lol)

i have these conflicting energies that have these repressed emotions for each side that i am digging up and going through

but this is satisfying, i feel like i am working towards a goal i have and i will have tangible evidence for (at the end hopefully, my hair back!) 

this is a post about me, and my shit but i hope it resonates with someone and really helps a gorgeous woman who is shut off from her beautiful self, to open up and receive love even when you feel like you are unworthy of it

regardless of if you have hair to your ass or pixie like me, i got you boo

all ways, always!

regardless, i had an epiphany today and i really have been more receptive to how i am living my life still and where i am masculine dominated

learning to balance and check myself before i wreck myself lol

i have been very much trying to control outcomes, not going with the flow of life

“I give up control of the outcome with trust in myself and the Universe”

and remember this shit just happens and creeps up just as fast as we can eliminate it and choose a new path

“i go with the natural flow of life”

nothing is stale when the only constant in life is change

looking at my habits i was really seeing, okay yes i am scared of the world, i don’t want to be humiliated, so i would stay away

“i am divinely safe and protected”

the divine feminine wants to be seen!

“i am a beautiful balance of feminine and masculine energy” “I give myself permission to be seen”

she is the star of the show, our divine feminine in female sense for me personally is all about the ooey gooey soft and chewy the vulnerability and openness to life

“with an open heart and mind i am ready to receive the divine love of the Universe”

maybe this helps, maybe not, but i’m being open lol and it feels weird, but that’s a good thing - in the name of growth and change! 

I’M GOING WITH THE FLOW BEBEHS!

“i give myself permission to be vulnerable”

a meditation will follow this and i am so grateful to let this out, i really hope i can bring light to a dark situation for some beautiful soul

“I release my past easily and effortlessly and welcome in a bright and beautiful future”

feeeeeel the reeeeleeeaseee

lol 

love you, unconditionally

HH

[theholistichedonist]

Soul Fragmentation and Inner Child Work

“we are the most important project we will ever work on”

(affirmations at end)

a question that i continuously ask myself recently, always, 

Who am I?

constant conformity has me begging for the unusual, unique, and unregulated views i possess.

too much of one thing is never a good thing

where am i? 

how can i find myself? 

questions i have and answers i had found myself looking for externally

through peers, parents, and past

i wasn’t finding the answers, it ultimately lead myself into hermit mode, recluse status

i found myself in bed most of the day, not patient enough to close my eyes and actually dig for my answers yet, but a knowing of something

spinning my wheels with all the projects i was fucking forcing to the bitter end, i burnt out

this Gemini was hiding in a basement with the blinds closed binging on Gaia and praying for a miracle.

All these fucking emotions,

what the fuck, i’m feeling!

the great purge had begun

it felt so weird to turn my brain off ‘go mode’ and feel into my body

the repressed emotions, horrible parenting (w/ no fault to my parents), and what are coping skills?

i started RE-PARENTING myself

the little baby HH that was crying and scared in the corner from neglect, lack and abuse. 

i would visit her and hold her. i would care for her and kiss her wounds. it was the most powerful thing i had ever experienced before.

i had shut my past out and tried to lie and hide my past for years. i had blocked my little girl me completely out of my life and it was me who ultimately needed me

i cried for a week straight like a little baby, couldn't leave the house because i was either anxious AF or in fear I’d be at the cashier and she would trigger me in some way and i’d start crying lol

i looked at myself and was like wtf who is this?

OH RIGHT it’s me lol

begging for attention, my baby inside was like feed me!! She hid in the corner, cowering away from me because i had neglected her for so long, ignoring her pleas and emotions

so i gave myself my full, undivided attention

i would feel these emotions, sitting with them and healing the parts of me that had been closed off and fragmented from my human self for protection of being lost forever

all these visions and pictures of how horrible i had grown up (truly because I felt misunderstood and had my own path to forge), bullying, rejection of myself and from others, constant people pleasing with a resentment behind it, all the anger i had pent up inside of me so much fucking rage just ready to explode,  i would see how lonely i was and how horrible i had truly felt all my life up to this point just flash before my eyes

i lacked love, from and for myself

i forgot to consider my own needs

i neglected the emotions that pair with experiences to give us the answers we crave

in hindsight, with no fault of my own - to blame will not help us heal

we all choose our ‘Sacred Contracts’ before birth in the 3D

how would i ever get to know myself with so much judgement and resentment behind my motives?

simple,

Open you heart space to the highest frequency of All That Is

removing the filter of the EGO and relishing in the presence of your soul

where this is no judgement, no pain or suffering

it just is, all that is, Love, Compassion, Understanding, Gratitude

i had came to realizations that helped me dig, search and heal my fragmented pieces of my soul and welcoming them back with love and ACCEPTANCE

and ultimately opening myself up to the Divine Abundance and Greatness that this Universe naturally exudes and amplifies with the help of us

that’s why we’re here y’know, to help and heal, to give and receive, w/ no one more worthy or deserving than the other. Equal, but with different paths!

remember this: I am worthy of all my desires just because I am alive

Abundance is our birth right,

it is the programming that has been layered on top of our soul and mind that blocks that abundance from coming to us

whether it be a belief of unworthiness, hidden anger towards a situation or person, having to suffer to receive was a big one for me, that life was meant to be hard and difficult

all these beliefs are fucking lies that we tell ourselves or have been told, and these are just some of the beliefs some of us carry with us

not to scare you or overwhelm you this is more to help you open your mind and see where your programming effects you - we have 1000′s of faulty beliefs and 95% of them didn’t come from us they we’re imprinted from other people, situations or institutions

and they can be released without having to search endlessly for them

and that’s where Theta Healing came into my life,

i realize i haven’t explained to those who may not know what Theta Healing is and i will do just that:

Theta Healing is meditating in your Theta brain wave state that through healing will bring you closer to your Higher Self/Soul/Creator with physical, psychological and spiritual healing of programs and beliefs that are holding us hostage in our subconscious mind.

we become our true selves.

it’s the purge or societal views, back home to your soul and higher self

here i thought everyone else was the problem, and now i’m like ooooohhhh right it’shmeeee

to make a short story long:

I have been working with R for 4 months now and my life has made a complete 180 and lead my to find my purpose with helping heal the collective and grow into a higher and expanded consciousness of awareness.

from drug abuse, alcoholism, self loathing, pushing forcing and swimming upstream for most of my life, lost ad confused, looking for a cliff, and this aching need to figure shit out

to now where i am still resting, breathing, smiling, feeling, and releasing 

in complete serenity and tranquility, most days lol

but the point being is that now i know how to process these emotions, and i’m learning about WHO I AM, dissolving the EGO and seeing the full picture, myself

why am i feeling this way?

is this good or bad, and is this a belief that is worthy of releasing (if bad always yes lol) release that shit, you’re too good to be carrying a backpack of crap lol put the damn shit down

and here I am, still not sure who the fuck i am but i have a way better idea of it today than i did a few years ago and i really do thank Theta Healing for my growth, it’s been life changing and I’m so excited and blessed to be here sharing this with you, definitely something that used to be miles away from my comfort zone

releasing the belief that it is unfair, unsafe and ung-dly to be seen and to put myself out there. 

replacing with:

i give myself permission to share love, wisdom and confidence with those who need it because i am worthy and deserving of being seen and receiving recognition for my efforts

legit if you want to know more about Theta hit me up lol it’s fucking mind blowing

some affirmations for you beautiful souls:

I am open to the abundance and greatness the Universe offers

I am divine

I see and feel the support I have from Source

I am a divine goddess worthy of all that I desire

I am worthy of love and appreciation - because i have found that love of yourself is what brings in abundance on all levels (including money) 

My voice matters

My feelings matter

My opinions are important

I let go of my past insecurities and focus completely on feeling confident, secure and independent

Love, Peace, and Joy are what I know

i choose to live through the open space in my heart . I look for love and find it everywhere

My mind is cleansed and free. I leave the past and move into the new. All is well.

There is a joyous release of the past. Life is sweet and so am I

All Healing and health is flowing to me now

I am always safe and protected

I am confident in my full recovery

I am learning what my body needs to be in a perfect state of health

It’s my time to heal

I deserve great health, wealth and abundance

I trust myself

I have the courage and strength to enjoy my life, no matter what comes

I let go of perfectionism and thoroughly enjoy myself here and now

I free myself from the past and take actions that reflect my life purpose

I am supported by life

I awaken the self healing power within me

I show my strength through releasing all beliefs that no longer serve me.

thank you thank you thank you 

and so it is

love you,

HH

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I’m doing very well. Usually after a long drive, my hip would be sore and tight, but when I arrived back home yesterday, it felt great. I also had a good night’s sleep last night. Thank you so much for your help and advice. The gifts you share are truly a blessing to those of us seeking to raise their vibration and live their truth.

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