#first heartache

[littleteenagethings]

I'm not sorry that I met you. I'm not sorry that I loved you; I'm just sorry that you were too weak to accept a love so fierce that it could have warmed the very depths of your soul.

Excerpts from the book I’ll never write #398 13/08/2020 1:57 am

[aprettyfacevampire]

You know a boy has messed it up big time, when his mother cries into your arms and says “I honestly thought I raised a better man than that.”

[littleteenagethings]

Someone once told me that I didn't love you. That I never loved you. He said that I was in love with the idea of you. I'm beginning to think maybe he was right... maybe he knew me better than I knew myself... maybe... just maybe... that's how he stole my heart from your hands.

Excerpts from the book I’ll never write #376

17/04/2018

11:51 pm

[annabananaandstrawberry]

I’ve been inlove with him once, and maybe I will always be. I’ve given him my heart once, once and it stayed for sometime. I cried for him, countless of nights, for him and the love that he can never give back. I will always care, he will always matter… Because he’s my first love, and they say first love never dies, not really.

First and unrequited love | things I might forget 4

[kwentomokayb]

"..hindi siya girlfriend material."

Nasaktan ako ng malaman ko yan. Di ko kinaya. Sana mas sinabi mo nalang na nawala yung feelings mo kesa jan. Mas nawalan ako ng tiwala sa sarili ko nung nalaman ko yan. Thanks ha. Paano ba maging GIRLFRIEND MATERIAL? Sabihin niyo naman sakin. :)

[oneangryasiangirl]

Because every second feels so important. And because I’m so out of control, I can’t help myself. I’m not even mine anymore, I’m yours, and what if you decide that you don’t want me? How could you want me like I want you?

[ysagrcia]

Fact: LAHAT NG FIRST TIME AY MASAKiT.

like what.

[thisgirlisadeatheater]

First Love

He was my everything, my happiness, my life. That's what I thought at first. Same School, Same Religion. Mine and his family were friends. We've known each other for so long. Since 2 years old we already knew each other. He's that jerk who loves to irritate me. We grew up together until such time, I realized something. I'm starting to admire him. The feeling that I felt for him was eerie. Grade 4, Yes Grade 4 and he's in Grade 5 I told him about my feelings. Stupid isn't it? A Grade 4 student who doesn't know anything about love confessed to her childhood friend, the jerk guy who loves to tease her so much. Wanna know what was the answer of the jerk? He told me that we have the same feelings. Mutual. Oh I forgot to tell you, I confess to him through SMS and that was weekend.Monday came and we saw each other at school and because of my confession there's an awkward space between us. I'm starting to avoid him. Yes I know I'm so immature. Stupid effin' girl I am. But even though I'm avoiding him we're still communicating through text. One day, his parents decided to transfer him in another school. And gawd, I was hurt that time. I don't want him to transfer. I want him to stay. But I have no choice.

We still see each other in church. Remember we have the same religion. I joined the choir in our church and he did too. I'm an Alto and He's a Tenor. And oh, I forgot to tell you my phone was stolen. So therefore we have no communication for a long time. He graduated in elementary so he's a high school student while I'm in Grade 6 that time. Gawd, he's in Special Class even though he's a jerk. I admit it he's intelligent and smart especially in Math. How I wish I could pass the entrance examination in that Special Class. By the way the whole church knew about our mutual feelings toward each other. And gawd, they're always teasing us. So annoying. I graduated and took an examination in that Special Class thank goodness I passed the test. So therefore we'll have the same area and I'll always see him. I gained friends. Lots of friends. I'm so happy.

High School Life's great. Super GREAT. I got a new phone. Yeaay! I'm happy about that. I want to ask for his number but I'm too shy. But this niece of mine got his number. So she gave me his, and she gave him mine. I text him first, no reply. So I decided to delete his number. But then an anonymous number text me. The person tried to fool me but it ended up that It was him. So happy that time. At last we've got communication again. Then one night, he called. He asked me if he can court me. I was speechless. He still love me. I don't wanna break my promise when I'm still in elementary. But I love him. How can I say no? (My Promise: Not to be involve in a relationship. Say no to love 'til I'll graduate in College) But I end up saying YES. FOOL! I'm so stupid. Dopey! Ugggh. 

I loved him so much. He makes me happy. But we broke up because of someone, a friend of mine also. Stupid boy! But I think It was my fault. Even though he's my boyfriend. I never tell anyone except for my niece/bestfriend. We have no time for each other. It did hurt a lot especially when I knew the reason. But still he kept on texting me. I tried to move on. But one day he said he wanted to continue our relationship it took weeks for me to agree. Because I still love him I said YES for the second time. I guess the quote "Love is Sweeter the second time around" is true. We became mature. We understand what love is. We're like real couples. Same Tees. Same Ballers. Sweet. I always pray to God that we'll be together. I'm his first and his my first also. First Hug, First Kiss (excpt for the *** of course we're too young for that -____-). Little fight that's normal for lovers. Jealousy. Normal things like that.

Now back in the present. Right now, I'm facing the computer. Tumblring and Chatting my bestfriend, Normaine. This past few months me and the jerk were drifting away from each other. He became popular you know because of his looks and I guess that's the reason why he's changing right now. They say, he looks like Daniel Padilla. Fools! I loved him for who he was not like them they loved him for what he is right now. I tried to tell him that. He never got the point. Seaweed brain! He loves his popularity. He's not afraid to lose me anymore maybe because he knows he can replace me easily. I think he's happy with someone else right now. We're still together though but there's something between us. A boundary? A space? At first, I was hurt super hurt. But I tried to be okay. I'm trying hard though it does hurt still. I'm starting to move on right now. Because I don't know what will happen tomorrow. I wanna be okay when that f*cking time will come. I know can't afford to lose him. I can't afford to see him with someone else. But I don't want to get hurt anymore. I don't want to look stupid expecting for him to be back to his old self. I know moving on is not easy. But it will be. I'll try hard. He knows I don't want to get hurt but still he did hurt me. I'll be okay. I will be okay. I will. ;((((((((((((((((

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