So I had another appointment today (neurologist) and she briefly went over results of some genetic blood testing I’d had done. As I predicted my case of NF2 was a mutation (it’s a 50/50 chance of it being hereditary or a mutation), and that it is now a dominant gene, meaning that if I have children then they will most definitely have it.
I’ve actually been mulling over the idea of having children a fair amount over the last few months, well before all this shit hit the fan, and was heavily leaning towards Not Wanting Kids. I mean, I wasn’t gonna burn any bridges on the matter, but still. And then I caught the newest episode of New Girl and Nick’s conflict for the episode revolved around potential children in your late twenties/early thirties and that provided some food for thought. But now that I know that me having kids would almost definitely screw them over (more than tney’d already be screwed over by being my child; I’d make an awful parent for so many reasons), that it’s a Probably Not Good Idea and that I Shouldn’t Do That is a bit of a blow, I won’t lie. I’m sure there’s little things that can be done if I do decide on children, but truth be told it just leaves an off taste in my mouth.
