I’ve been gone away… sorry about that… actual real life heart trouble that I already have and absolutely hate dealing with, with actual medically. Does anyone else have this issue and is a cardiophile? Hate having an actual heart condition and hate having actual heart problems and medical staff going near your heart or even saying the word heart? Maybe it’s just me. Then again, I am ADHD/ODD… not the fake type. Yes I have an issue with people fake diagnosing themselves. Idk if it’s because I actually have it and struggle with it and am tired of the fake mother fuckers out here.
Damn I am tired. Sorry. I’m also probably talking to myself. Most people enjoy having their hearts prodded and probed at a hospital I guess. Perhaps I am just the old school type. I have been a closeted “cardiophile” before this stupid term when it was just called a “heart beat” lover. I hate the term. Makes me feel like a god dam predator. I’m a criminal analyst for god sake and I feel like … I don’t even want to say. The word turns me off almost but nooooooo. People just have to “identify”as something. If someone tells me there is a fucking flag I will neck myself quicker than this new cancer diagnosis will probably take me. So stupid.
I am so glad there’s a community. Amazing. Just some of the shit I see I just shake my head and think. Are you just here for the aesthetics? Perhaps I am just that old heart beat fetish type that has deep set erotic passion for the sight, the sound and touch of a certain type. I am not sure. Not type. Well …idk. I am just venting. I love a great flatlining role play. Too bad there’s nothing out there that caters to my needs that even scrapes the surface level. But I digress.
Anyway. I will get back to writing soon I guess. I got stuff to take care of I guess.
I hope everyone is well and is enjoying their own heart beat fantasy world. It’s so important that you do..
Much love always
Ooorru
Kardia x