also 👀 + fmk all thirteen members of charm, all seven members of unity, or all five members of vive
Send me a “👀 + a question” and my muse has to answer honestly!
👀 + fmk all thirteen members of charm, all seven members of unity, or all five members of vive
“The members of Vive are what? Children? No way I’m marrying or fucking any of them, so an automatic kill there. Thirteen members seems like a lot to be married to and if the fucking is distributed through a period of time it’s doable, I suppose. And then marry the Unity members, I guess. At least they have money, but I don’t think half of them are into women so maybe it’s a good marriage of convenience.”
👀 + worst song on vive's debut album (and why is it definitely cat & dog)? 👀 + if you woke up tomorrow as any member of any other group, who would you want it to be? 👀 + do you believe in fate?
👀 + WORST SONG ON VIVE’S DEBUT ALBUM (AND WHY IS IT DEFINITELY CAT & DOG)?
● “Apart of me wants to say ‘pass’ so I don’t step on anyone’s toes, but at the same time, I can’t help but agree. It’s easily the cringiest as far as lyrics are concerned. I feel like we’ll be able to get away with it conceptually, but it’s definitely not my favorite, that’s for sure. There’s just something kind of annoying about it... I don’t know how to explain it well.”
👀 + IF YOU WOKE UP TOMORROW AS ANY MEMBER OF ANY OTHER GROUP, WHO WOULD YOU WANT IT TO BE?
● “Ooh, this is a good question! I’m not sure which route I’d wanna take... Would I want to be someone I think is super attractive to, like, just know what it’s like to wake up looking like a modern-day god everyday, or would I want to know what it’s like to be a hugely successful idol? Hmm... if I were to blend the two, I guess I’d go with Park Duri of Knight. Not only is he really handsome, but I’d argue that he has the type of career that I’d want to have, so it’d be like hopefully looking into my own future and seeing what it’ll be like at that point in time.”
👀 + DO YOU BELIEVE IN FATE?
● “Yeah, definitely! Guess I’ve always been kinda taught that fate’s a real thing ever since I was a kid, and I don’t really have any reason to believe that it’s not real, so...”
duri had made his way to bc entertainment that afternoon, as he was called upon by staff to take part in a video that they wanted him to record. he wasn’t entirely sure what the video was going to be about that they wanted him to record, but he didn’t question it because it wasn’t like it was going to be anything bad. so, he had entered the building that he was told to, and made his way up the flights up stairs to get to the room. when he found out what exactly the room that was requested of him, he had pushed the door open, peaked in, and giggled softly before entering the kitchen.
he made his way over to ash, a big smile upon his lips. “ah, hi ash!” he said, another soft giggle leaving his lips. he looked around, not seeing anyone else but the other. “is it just us two for the video?” he asked curiously, before placing his stuff down somewhere else - he was most likely to attend practice later after doing this. “what are we doing for it?”
one half of the process down and another started, but kami was determined to get it finished. the production side of things had finished up and now they needed to hammer out the lyrics. something she was that wouldn’t be a problem, the entire album was shaping up and working with ash had always been easy for her. “alright, lyric concept..” kami uttered and flipped to a clean page in her notebook.
“i’ve been thinking over the topics i’m covering in my songs...for this one, i was thinking something along the lines of taking a relationship easy.” day by day and step by step. “almost like ‘some’ no official labels, no getting jealous, just enjoying each other’s company from time to time, nothing serious.” so far, she hadn’t really had anything like that on the album.
👀 + if you woke up tomorrow blacklisted from the music industry and unable to work in music again, what would you do? 👀 + do you believe heartbreak is inevitable and unable to be prevented or is it the fault of the people involved? 👀 + what color represents love to you? what color represents happiness? why?
👀 + if you woke up tomorrow blacklisted from the music industry and unable to work in music again, what would you do?
“music isn’t the only form of expression, albeit i do agree lately — it’s my favorite medium. i find myself gravitating towards a guitar or the piano keys more than i find myself having a run in the park with my brushes. but if i were blacklisted, then perhaps i’d learn to find salvation in painting or maybe, i’d drop off the face of the world. change my name, wear a mask. pretend like my name is clementine and go to a pocket of the world where nobody knows me.
because then, i think.. maybe i’d find some sense of peace. learning to live anonymously again.”
👀 + do you believe heartbreak is inevitable and unable to be prevented or is it the fault of the people involved?
“i think it’s written in the books — to achieve heartbreak, you have to fall in love, don’t you? give yourself fully to learn how it feels when your heart shatters and fragments into pieces you can’t patch back together again. that sort of love — you lose a piece of your soul when you fall in love. you don’t ever get it back. but that doesn’t answer the question. heartbreak is inevitable because we live alone, we die alone. you can find your soulmate, but there’s no guarantee you’ll have a storybook ending. love always starts out with a crack, it just deepens as time goes on. i don’t think there’s any way you can glue it together when it’s destined to fall. after all, aren’t all humans addicted to the taste of heartbreak?”
👀 + what color represents love to you? what color represents happiness? why?
“oxblood red. it’s not bright red, only saturated with the passion that runs through your veins. there’s a dark undertone that lies in the base of the color — mysterious, uneasy when you take a peek at it. it makes a statement, packs a punch. doesn’t bring you any sense of serenity or calmness since at the end of the day, love’s meant to keep you on edge. keep you on your toes as you dive into a dark abyss of something foreign.”
notes: once again, a big mega post because i didn’t want to flood dash with answers. thanks to everyone that sent in!!
1. what is your favorite single you’ve released?
“solo wise? i’ve only released one solo portal song, which was a self-written song called that’s okay. well, bc forced that one on me when they took pages from my diary — still, my only one solo release, and that’s the favorite since i’m left with no other option. in regards to group? everyone knows, amigo or not — my favorite will always be view. something special about that time, i tell you.”
2. what are your favorite b-sides/non-title tracks you’ve released?
“since i haven’t released any songs by myself other than the one mentioned before, i’d have to go through decipher’s discography. lovesick, odd eye, prism, honesty, stranger, better off — there’s a lot to sift through in the past few years. unfortunately, there’s a point where my interest had started weaning off idol-dom, and you can observe that when i stopped paying attention and interest into what decipher did conceptually after 2016. at least the enjoyment was fun while it lasted.”
3. what is your least favorite song (title track or b-side) you’ve released?
”that’s an easy one. you take any b-side we’ve released in the past few years, and that probably makes the list. the comeback with the b-side shot was awful. that’s probably the worst, in my head. never was a fan of that comeback, now that i think of it — i call it the dark blip of decipher’s early career. perhaps it’s just ambivalence at this point that i have no real strong feelings towards bsides nowadays.”
4. if you could do a duet with anyone in the industry, who would you choose?
what do you think of your/your group’s concept?
“i’d want to do a duet with duri — we’ll have a tale of the oldies. the two 1990 liners inside bc’s walls doing a ballad song. though, duri would have to take the high notes on that one seeing as how he’s a power vocalist. there’s rarely times where i’m able to keep in touch or have people around my age, and for that — i’m always grateful when i come across that. we’d manage something interesting given the same age, and the ballad concept.”
5. what do you think of your/your group’s concept?
“decipher doesn’t really stick to a concept, and i suppose our concept has always been to branch into new avenues. there’s good things and bad things about it, obviously. we’re given new things to try, new stylings, and what not. however, we’re also subjected to that risk in case it doesn’t turn out how bc envisioned. to put it short — it’s either a hit or miss.”
6. what is one thing (a concept, a genre, an outfit, etc.) you would least like your company make you do?
“decipher’s novelty in the industry is that we’ve been here so long that we’ve managed a lot of different concepts. from the house pop to retro vibes, even spring ballads in soft tunes — we’ve done it all. the least? i’d say another electronic heavy music where we’re dancing like madmen. i wouldn’t mind a powerful choreography to show i can still ‘hang’, but to the sounds of techno-ish music? i don’t think so. at least, not with my age.”
7. what one thing (concepts, genres, styling, frequency of comebacks, etc.) would you like to change about your current career as an idol?
“i don’t want to comeback so frequently — it seems we’re coming back more frequently than other rookies. it would be nicer to stay back and relax while we let the hoobaes have their time to shine. genres and concepts aren’t really on the top of my list to complain about, though i would enjoy an old throw-back to decipher’s glory days where we’re given something newer. perhaps, that’d be enough to rejuvenate my attitude towards the industry.”
8. if you could be in any idol group, which one would you choose?
“with my age, i don’t think i’d fit any group. perhaps, i could assimilate myself to knight, but the bad boy niche doesn’t really match mine. say, i was a few years younger — then, you’d have me inside charm. i think i’d do a pretty good left and right if you ask me.”
9. if you could say one thing to your ceo, what would it be?
“i respect the business model you form. however, i’m still trying to understand it when applied to me. thirteen years, and i have yet to sit down and have a conversation with you. it’d be nice to have one someday.”
10. if you were auditioning for your company today, what would you perform for your audition, or what would you change from your original audition?
“my audition was so long ago. fourteen, fifteen years now, and that’s nearly half of my life. i wish i could remember parts — but there’s only the snippet of a ballad i sang, probably kim bum soo. all alongside some awkward dancing that bc shaped me up for. i’d probably pick a sung sikyung song instead.”
11. if you could do any special stage, what would it be and who would it be with?
”call it a weird match, but i’d have a set with duri, andy, joohwan, my maknae and jiah. well, those would be the people i’d know well enough to collaborate with, though the outcome might not be as promising as i initially thought. case closed, never make me do a special stage.”
12. what career opportunities would you like to pursue that you’ve yet to, or what achievements would you like to obtain that you’ve yet to?
“maybe a bit of variety? i’m completely happy where i am with acting, though it’d be better if decipher’s comebacks were rarer. however, i’m taking what i can get and variety might be a chance to show the side that doesn’t get shown when i’m playing a role on tv. i’ve heard from some people that i can be funny at times.”
13. if you could become a model or ambassador for any brand, what would you choose?
“as much as i like high fashion, i haven’t done any modeling in regards to brand deals with high fashion. a luxury brand would be nice — i hear prada has changed with the entrance of raf simons. i’ve been into the streetwear look lately after itaewon class, so that would be a current go-to. otherwise, i think i’m happy promoting good feel and credit cards.”
14. if you could be on any variety show, which one (or which type of one) would you want to be on?
“i live alone would be my first pick. only because i’ve decorated my house nicely recently, and haven’t had a chance to show it off to many people as i’m not home as often these days. however, that’d require an off day and i don’t have many of those lately. i think people would be shocked to see what i do when i’m around my house, lounging and rarely moving around.”
15. if you were offered the chance to become a ceo of an entertainment company, new or existing, would you take it? why or why not?
“as much as i’m leader of decipher, i don’t think i could handle leading a company. i wouldn’t want to become a ceo. it distracts from my own schedule, and i’d be too focused on my company rather than the hobbies and interests that appeal to me. sure, i’d make more money — but what’s more money on top of the money i already have? it’s counterproductive and i’d rather do what i like doing.”
16. what changes would you implement if you were the ceo of your company?
“each company runs on a specific pattern of events, and there’s a reason for that. a reason why routine shapes each group, so i wouldn’t necessarily change much. my trainee year was difficult, but it also fostered friendships within the group that i consider irreplaceable. the only change i can think of? maybe getting to know my artists rather than staying far off.”
17. what do you do to relieve the stress of idol life?
“i work out. i run a lot, and go to the gym as cliche as it sounds. but each role requires me to be in top shape, and after all that i’ve found a love for working out each morning. other than that, i like to shop and cook, even walk my dog. normal things any other person does on their day off. by the end of the day? finishing it off with a cold beer becomes my saving peace.”
18. what tips would you give to a trainee about to debut?
”push through it because it’s only a matter of time till debut happens. the trainee years are taken for granted, and you need to learn to treasure those moments. once debut happens, there’s no looking back and you’re constantly on the move — so, you’re better off enjoying now. also, don’t be afraid to approach sunbaes. we’re all in the same boat, been there and done that, so let us help where we can.”
19. what was the hardest part of being a trainee?
“singing while running around the room? i remember running too many laps, out of breath belting a high note. looking back, it was probably the time i thought i was going to end my trainee career right there and run to my parents. other than that? learning to live with others? i’ve lived a blessed life, and i’ve never had to share a room with anyone. that felt like a culture shock.”
20. did you enjoy the lifestyle of a trainee or of a debuted idol more?
“call me weird, but i’d say the trainee life. there was something special about those days, and now i’m so many years in my career and i miss the days crammed in the dorms. i don’t think there’s anything like it. the structure of it, the tears of joy and sadness all into one — every emotion all there. it’s rare moments like those i’ll never get back.”
21. what one song or album by another group or soloist would you have liked to release yourself?
“i’ve heard a lot of songs, but i heard a song recently by a charm member. one of the solo projects of dai, and his song let’s love was something that made me want to release music as well. maybe, it’s just inspiration just at that moment, but the song was something i enjoyed listening to. knight’s tempo was also something that i wish decipher was given, just because there’s a certain spark when it comes to the song.”
22. describe your dream sub-unit (members and concept).
“my dream sub-unit? does that relate to in-group or out of group? for the sake of this question, i’ll keep it in-group to simplify things. i’d like to keep our main vocal, myself and our lead rapper only because the maknae already has his thing in champion — though conceptually, i’m not sure what we’d be able to do. something non-dance related, i’d hope. perhaps, a power house vocal because i know our lead rapper can belt a few notes better than most main vocals of other groups.”
23. out of the following six options, would you rather be allowed to play a major hand in the lyrics, production, choreography, styling, music videos, or concepts you release?
“no lyrics, production or choreography. i’ve never been talented in that market, and maybe that’s why i don’t take part in any of these things. instead, i’d keep to the styling, and music videos — though, i don’t have an artistic eye. perhaps, i’d keep to styling as it lies most with my interests. my members might get bored of wearing the same dress shirts and slacks for each comeback.”
24. which of the two other companies (out of bc, dimensions, and gold star) you are not currently signed under would you rather be an artist in?
“none of the other two. i’ve said it time and time again that i’m loyal to bc — i might complain about it, sure. but in hindsight, i don’t see myself being in any other music company. now, if you had asked me in terms of acting? then, we’d have a different story between namoo, artist and vast.”
25. what is your least favorite part of being an idol?
“there’s no breaks, not for age. there’s little opportunity to cease the past, and continue on a new future. instead, i’m always tethered to the role of an idol, and despite how much i try — they still reel me back in each time for another comeback. on top of that, some songs don’t age well with time — decipher has a few of those. yet, because they’re fan favorites, i have no choice but to dance and sing along as if it’s 2009 again.”
26. what is your favorite part of being an idol?
“ironic, but there’s a lot of opportunities to try new things. i wouldn’t have thought of cf modeling or acting, if it weren’t for the opportunities presented to me. as a result, i’ve found a new enjoyment in an acting career due to the idol life. plus, along the way i meet different people to give me new insight — suppose it keeps me young again.”
27. would you rather be incredibly famous with a terrible reputation and hated by most or be fairly unknown with a good reputation and adored by those who know of you? why?
“i don’t know how to answer this one because being incredibly famous with a terrible reputation is just a cheapened output of your career you’ve built thus far. that would simply become a life unenjoyable, so by default i suppose i’d rather have the latter. fairy unknown with a good reputation because that way, you have a basis to build yourself up.”
28. what moment in your career are you proudest of so far?
“i’d either attribute it to parasite, which did win a lot of accolades not only in the country but out or i’d give it to the recent baeksang nomination for the dramas i was in. i don’t think i’d ever predict the success of stories i had a pleasure of working on. in retrospect, it was nice that so many people were able to relate and get along with the characters i was given the honor of portraying.”
29. what have you learned about yourself and/or society since becoming a celebrity?
“i’m no longer an extrovert. in fact, i’m more of an introvert. i used to think i was an extrovert, and one time i was when i was busy running around getting assimilated to those new faces. however, over the years, my circle’s only run short and i’ve been given little things here and there that make me want to preserve my small circle of people i’ve gotten to know along the way. i don’t like going out and partying, and much rather have a night in with dubu in peace.”
30. what would you like to change about how society views or treats idols?
“it’d be nice to be given more freedom — but isn’t that what everyone wants? i’m talking about stepping into something without facing backlash, or how we’re seen as approachable because we’re public figures. it’d be nice to sit down and have a meal without the thought of dispatch finding who i’m with, or scrutinizing any of my friendships. there should be some level of normalcy given, and i think that’s the least anyone could ask for.”
despite what people may believe from her image alone, hyeju wasn’t the type to go out and party. she could count the number of times she’s gone clubbing on one hand, and she’s always found it a waste of time. however, this was taipei which felt like it might be a little different. perhaps she’ll find it a bit more exciting. and so tagging along with ash while he snuck away from the camera crew to go clubbing was definitely not on her list of things to do during this week, but why not spend the free time given to her being a little rebellious?
disappointingly, nothing’s too different about this club than the ones she’s been to at gangnam. “you do this often?” she asks, raising her brow towards ash who’s taken the seat besides him. while they did come together, she’s mostly been staying behind and drinking rather than dancing like him. “i don’t really see the appeal of it,” she admits before she downs the shot that’s in her hand.
location: bc entertainment gala
date: april 24, 2021
with: @fmdtaeyong
When Inyeong recalls her years as a trainee, she thinks about all the desires and wishes she had for when her debut came. For when, not if, because the certainty of her debut had only truly died around the beginning of 2020, and then had revived shortly after. She’s always dreamt of this ‒ the luxury, the dressing up, the make up, the galas. Inyeong would flip through pictures of idols attending events and dreamt of being there as well. But now that she’s here… It’s not that she doesn’t want to be, per se. The dressing up part, the getting ready, the fancy dress with the fancy shoes, the stares she inevitably gets whenever she walks into the room because she is pretty and blonde, which attracts attention ‒ all of that is still just as interesting to her as it had been when it had only been a dream. Yet those fantasies hadn’t accounted for on one hand how long these events can actually drag on for and on the other, that it is definitely not as fun to attend one of these when you’re exhausted.
Tossed around from schedule to schedule, from rehearsal to rehearsal, from recording to recording ‒ by the time Inyeong walks into the room where the gala is being held, she’s unsteady on the heels she’s wearing. Inyeong makes it through about an hour and a half of being there until she feels like she can no longer play nice with every single person who approaches her. So she takes advantage of a lul in the conversation to go find a hiding place, even if she’s only there for a few minutes. She does snatch a flute of champagne on the way and, by the time she’s sat on the stairs of a more secluded place, Inyeong is already halfway through the drink. The heels lie discarded by her side and when she hears footsteps behind her, she’s quick to tug them under her dress. When she turns around to look, Inyeong relaxes. “Ah, hi. Have you come here to hide as well?”
