#freedomwriting

[ariniaris]

Hidup untuk bermanfaat bagi manusia lain bukan hanya bagaimana kamu memotivasi orang lain untuk menjadi lebih baik, tapi bagaimana kamu memotivasi dirimu sendiri untuk tetap berada di jalan yang baik dan menjadi lebih baik lagi.

[ariniaris]

Bukan ingin menyalahkan pendapat, bukan pula ingin merasa benar. Apa yang akan saya tulis malam ini semata-mata hanya agar tak banyak manusia diluar sana yang kembali menganggap bahwa menulis semata-mata hanya untuk menyembuhkan patah hati saja.

Dulu, pernah sekali ditegur serupa ini. Kamu nulis biar apa? Biar gak ingat sama mantan kan? Biar cepat pulih kan dari patah hatinya? Atau ketika menulis hal-hal yang romantis seketika diserang dengan pernyataan ciee, yang susah move on dari mantan. Cieee, calon patah hati lagi.

Mari, berfikir tak selalu apa yang kebanyakan orang lain pikirkan. Mari, tak sembarangan menerima apa yang orang lain simpulkan. Membuka pikiran dengan melihat yang lain adalah kesempatan terbaik untuk bisa menerima pendapat, kritik, dan saran dari orang lain.

Menurut saya, jika ditanya, menulis bukan selalu sebagai terapi diri dalam kategori patah hati. Ayolah, untuk sembuh dari patah hati bukannya kau hanya perlu menemukan orang yang tepat setelah dipertemukan dengan orang yang salah kan(?) Iya kan(?).

Jujur saja, menulis memang self healing bagi sebagian orang tapi bukan semata untuk menyembuhkan patah hati. Ada banyak orang yang menulis untuk menyembuhkan diri mereka dari riuhnya isi kepala mereka, dari buruknya sikap dan tingkah mereka, dan dari keanehan yang otak mereka hantarkan. Bahkan ada yang menulis untuk menjadi pengingat bagi orang lain atau bahkan untuk mengingatkan diri mereka sendiri.

Inilah kenapa kebanyakan orang sering sekali berprasangka, kala kita menuliskan hal-hal romantis mereka berkomentar, "lagi kasmaran ya?" padahal hanya ingin membagi hal-hal manis saja. Lalu saat menuliskan kisah sedih yang bahkan kata ganti dia disini tak merujuk pada kata "kekasih", akan ada yang berkomentar "patah hati lagi?".

Karena alasan ini, banyak yang berasumsi bahwa penulis itu atau yang suka menulis pasti orang-orang yang sering patah hati. Padahal tidak, sebagian memperuntukkan tulisannya untuk dirinya, sebagai pengingat dikala dia lupa bahwa dia pernah dan tak ingin kejadian sama terulang lagi. Sebagian memperuntukkan tulisannya sebagai alat terapi dari kebiasaan buruknya, agar tak setiap hari dia melakukan hal-hal yang tak baik.

Sebagian lagi, memperuntukkan tulisannya sebagai sebagai satu-satunya cara untuk sembuh dari penyakitnya. Bahkan ada yang menulis agar ia tak hilang harapan pada kehidupannya. Juga ada yang menulis untuk menyenangkan orang lain.

Jadi, ketika melakukan survey, dan mendapati kata self healing, it's doesn't always mean about broken heart. We write for ourself, for other, for healing from our own self which is not always broken heart. Self healing itu bisa berarti banyak, jadi sebaiknya tak langsung menyimpulkan.

Seperti alasan diatas, tulisan malam ini pun untuk meringankan isi kepala yang sedang penuh-penuhnya. Jadi, ambil baiknya buang buruknya saja.

Selamat malam, orang-orang yang dimuliakan Allah.

[ariniaris]

Di suatu kegabutan yang random...

Gw :"Yang penting ada fans, daripada banyak haters."

Dia :"Haters bisa jadi motivasi loh."

Gw :"Motivasi apa coba?"

Dia :"Motivasi untuk merubah diri."

Gw :"Lalu timbul pertanyaan 'kenapa kita harus berubah untuk orang lain?'. Padahal kita kan bukan power ranger."

Dia :"Karena yang menilai kita orang lain. Tapi harus lihat juga yang mana baik dan tidak untuk diubah."

Gw :"Dan kenapa kita harus mendengarkan penilaian orang lain?"

Dia :"Karena kita semua masih dalam proses. Proses menjadi manusia yang manusiawi."

_Bolehkah saya jatuh cinta sama kamu? Yang ini sudah pasti gak boleh 😂_

_Kenapa gak coba jadi penulis? Kind of setiap kata yang dihasilkan kepalamu kadang bisa bikin orang lain berujar pelan 'iya ya. Bener juga.' Gitu_

_Dan gw merasa kalah hari ini. Lihat, umur gak selalu bisa jadi patokan orang itu dewasa_

[505sandrine]

Walking With Myself

Where am I from, where do I go? Whatever path I take, I want to go this way — but life pulls you that way.

I turn to the left, you turn to the right. We’re out of sight — connection denied.

Memories on my shoulders still follow — full of fear.

Wherever I go, you always seem near. Leaving you behind saved me — that’s clear.

Saved me from the fear of being alone. Alone but happy, rather than together alone.

Walking the path of freedom with myself. No reason to pick up the pace — I know it’s the perfect way.

✒️ Words & Photo by 505Sandrine. Please don’t copy, edit or repost outside this platform. ✒️ Worte & Foto von 505Sandrine. Bitte nicht bearbeiten oder außerhalb von Tumblr verwenden.

[whatjyzlthinks]

Dear 18 year old Jayz.

What's up? Life has been tough to me for the past 10 years. It's a different world out here when you become older. Everyday seems like a battle and not just with everything around you but most especially with yourself. One day you feel ecstatic, the next day you feel like shit. It's crazy out here so I highly suggest you start building your character up while enjoying every single moment that you have.

I know that it has been hell for you as well for the past years. You've been through a lot at a very young age. The upside of that though is you've learned. You've learned that nothing worth having comes easy. You've learned not to take anything for granted. You've learned not to depend your happiness and life to anyone. I know you're strong but you have to be stronger than ever.

As you journey through your lifetime, you'll experience a lot of challenges. And everytime you overcome these challenges, the next that would come is even more difficult. Remember how you used to play Mario Brothers? It definitely is just like that. Once you got inside one castle, going to the next one becomes even harder that you'll fall and die more than a couple of times. And that is okay because you can still try. You have to be very careful the next time around tho or you'll lose another life. You'll lose another chance and you'll waste another time.

The only different thing is that in reality, we cannot have unlimited life. We cannot have unlimited chances. Yes, we don't have 1ups but we do have people surrounding us to lift us up. So choose the people you you want to be part of your life carefully. Cos just like those 1ups, once you see them and try to be one with them, there's a possibility that it'll cos you your life if you don't get them right.

As you go along, you will find yourself in need to decide which way to go. It is indeed scary cos you'll never know if you're on the right path once you have chosen until you come to a dead end. This is the time where your 1ups and chances comes in and you get to try again, you get to start again. You may have chosen a bad path but at least you already know not to go back to that direction.

Please don't forget that it is okay to make mistakes but it will never be okay to make the same mistake twice or worse, more than a hundred times. Life will always challenge you. There would be times that you will think about giving up but girl, you gotta be strong. You didn't win your previous battles just to give up. You have to keep your cool and focus on your goal.

You will come across people who will be stopping you in achieving your goals. It is fine to show your fangs and kick their ass off every now and then. It is okay to hurt someone who you know is not valuable in your life especially if they are hindering you to become successful.

I guess what I'm saying is that, these things are inevitable and this things can make you a better person or not. It is up to you to choose which one would suit you. I don't want to push you to be just good because a little badness can also save your life. 😉

You are doing a good job by the way. Keep your positivity, perseverance and selflessness. One day, you'll look back and will be very proud of who you have become. That I know for sure. 😊

XoXo,

Your 28 year old self.

[whatjyzlthinks]

Consciously Unconscious

I dreamt of you last night. It was so long ago when you last visited me in my dreams. As usual, I tried hard not to end it subconsciously. It was a happy tear-jerker one. It's what I always want our story to end up. Us. I confessing all my heart to you and you reassuring me that I will never be alone anymore. I was happy but of course I had no choice but to wake up.

[whatjyzlthinks]

R.E.P.L.A.Y

Lately, I’ve been talking about you. How I feel about you in the past and how I feel now that you are already in a relationship.

It feels weird talking about it in full details at times but at the same time, it makes me feel so free.

Although I am genuinely happy for you right now, there are still questions that I would really want to ask you. I just can’t find the perfect time to say it. Or if I should still ask you everything.

[whatjyzlthinks]

Because I had to know. How will I feel? How will I react? How will my heart react? How will my heart feel? I was betrayed by my own thoughts. I thought I'm better. I am still the same. I thought my heart wouldn't jump out of my chest. My heart was beating as if I ran a thousand miles. And I got the answer that I needed. It's you. Still you. 😔😢😭