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[luxrionne-blog]

Don’t let your friends wait too long!

[sunfloweria]

Truth or Dare

These last several months, I’ve become increasingly anxious around my college group at church (or anybody really) and just haven’t been able to bridge this gap that I feel is getting between me and making stronger connections with these people. Other than about 3 people, I’m barely on a first name basis with everyone else... and these last couple weeks I’ve been wondering if that’s been my fault. This anxiety is definitely real. I enter into social situations expecting people to not wanna talk to me and already bracing for impact.  But suppose that that wasn’t the case for me. That I’d be able to not only make deeper connections with my church community but actually being apart of someone’s life as if I mattered... I wonder if I matter just as much for being who I am now. Socially, I’m not happy with who I am... or at least I don’t think that my lifestyle is as healthy as it could be. I spend a lot of time by myself during the day - independently spending my time however or wherever I want.. alone. Most days I don’t think much of it - like a natural state that I cannot change anyway. But in these last few months (every couple weeks), I collapse into tears when I’m in therapy. I begin spouting words I suppose were tucked away inside me like “I’m an invisible little nobody”, “I’m not important or significant in anyone’s life so I might as well disappear, who cares if I’m gone anyway?”, “I wouldn’t fit in”, and all that - just a wave of fear that leaves me quivering. These sort of things are what God is for. But I wonder what is best, to work with what I got, or be a little more of a radical. Would I still be true to myself? Would it make a long-lasting different? Would I finally fit in or be someone important enough to notice wasn’t in the room if I called in sick? This isn’t a matter of throwing my individuality out the window just to fit in. This is a matter of better bonding with a community that is not only important to me but one that I want by my side for the long haul. 

[quisitorlavellan]

I’m having an awful day.

three hours of sleep. 

math test. 

One of my best friends said we can’t be friends anymore over him (mis)interpeting a belated birthday gift that I made for him as something romantic,(its a gift of friendship but wtf this hurts. alot.  Then he left me by saying I hope you have a nice live and then have a nice day. 

I’m a wreck already, guess three years of friendship meant NOTHING TO YOU. 

It gets worse. the next class I get another friend who I helped out recently a message that he’s not interested in being friends with me anymore and bye for good.

Usually, I consider myself a nice person, today, I totally kept myself in check to not have a freaking panic attack by going to the bathroom, hiding in a stall for ten minutes after the first friend did this and hit my head against the wall and tried to breathe. With the second friend thing came through, well....

I lost it in math.

Long story short, I cried a lot in my consulors office for 40 minutes instead of taking my test and I’m upset but more so angry and shocked and lonely. Plus Valentines day is awful always for me. I never expected that friend #1 would do this. I figure giving him space and acting like things are ALL OKAY BECAUSE THEY TOTALLY ARE is the right move here. Message me or answer with advice please. I’m okay now, I’m going to catch up on some sleep. 

[sunfloweria]

My First Ultimatum

How would you do it? Suppose that this is someone you love and they keep breaking boundaries, breaking promises, and taking back things and yet they somehow make the hugest positive impacts in your life at the same time. I’m in this situation and... after about 6 months of this I’ve decided to look after myself. To tell him that he either gets his shit together and be a friend or to not be one at all. I haven’t told anyone that before. I’m kind that way.  I have no idea how this will pan out but I’m positive that he’ll be hurt and probably take it personally. I’ve rarely taken chances like this to stand up for myself because I care about other people’s well being above my own.  I wonder what will come from all this. 

Will he care enough to change? Will he blame me for all this? How much does he really care about our friendship? Will he man up - or bitch out? I pray that I was right about him. 

[chantlec]

Though I know what caused all this thoughts and confusion in my head. I just still wonder what caused this mess, this emptiness as soon as I stepped into the car. We were such good friends, even so best friends . Maybe it’s becauseI am trying to forget what happened which actually wasnt a problem at all, but it’s the part that you are one the weaknesses I was never able to control. At times I was you sister who guided and cheered you up, you were a brother who never wanted me to be sad and would even handle the problem for me.

Sag nie wieder egal zu mir, I am caring for you  

The annoying friend I had but still pleased to see your name pop up on my name, though I was waiting for someone else. But after some time, I kept wandering away from you, which I sure do regret but yet when we saw each other face to face, you were there, at the congress wiping my tears and sweat away, visiting me at work even though it was just 30 seconds I really was glad to see you. True I sure did like you for some time, maybe I still do. But was it necessary to forget how much time you invested to actually make sure I am okay. And I did not. I deeply apologize for the friend I was.

hätte ich mich auch nicht so wohl gefühlt..

er hat ein herz wie meins sis..

er is wirklich wie ich..

Tja fast wäre ja was gewesen zwischen uns..

I am sorry for hurting you, without even realizing I did. I did know, but  I did not want to make the effort to tell you that I am not able to give those feelings back. I sure do know that if I wouldnt have had Mr. I would be as drawn to you like all the other chicas, not even denying it.

Now that I’ve read through our conversation, I realize, that I was the one who messed it up by not being the friend, I actually am. If I could just rewind. 

Oh Well 

Times passed, And here I am wondering what this friendship should be to me. I really really felt so flattered the way you introduced me to your friends as your #1 and told them that I always had you back, which I hope I did. But I really try not to think about what everybody is saying about you, now it all makes sense what you told me that night. And I would never judge you in any way, because I always stood behind you and never cared about how much they other didn’t like you. But if it is true, that you treat everyone else like you treat me, I actually don’t know what to say to that. I love you, but I hate don’t like being misled thinking I actually am an important part of your life as you said years ago.  But is some aspects, you never changed and I absolutely adore that. You may still be the same kid, but grown more in certain areas of life, which actually (surprisingly) makes me look up to you. Aber wirklich jetzt.. wo steh ich in Wirklichkeit bei dir ? 

Ach komm jetzt..Du weisst your(’re) the first be eff

But hey I still love you no matter how much changed and you will always be the bf 

[gonefromreality]

hashtagFriendshipIssues

Hindi naman sa hindi ka na pinapansin ng mga kaibigan mo o wala sila sa oras na kailangan mo sila eh hindi na sila totoong kaibigan sa’yo. Baka naman nagkataon lang na sa dami ng mga kaibigan mo, sabay sabay silang naging busy sa mga priorities nila. Mashado ka lang attach kaya akala mo pareho lang ‘yung tingin mo sa kanila sa tingin nila sayo. Hayaan mo na. Tandaan mo, ang mas nagmamahal ay ang mas umiintindi. Kung totoo kang kaibigan, dapat tanggap mo pa rin sila sa kabila ng lahat ng pagkukulang nila sa’yo. Huwag mo na lang mashadong isipin kung bakit ikaw lang yung mas nagmamahal. Malay mo, mahal ka din naman nila kaso hindi lang sila showy. Isa pa, kung totoo kang nagmamahal, hindi ka dapat humihingi ng anumang kapalit. Dapat handa ka ring masaktan. Hindi naman masama ang umiyak mag-isa minsan e. May mga panahon kasi talaga na sarili mo lang ang kakampi mo kahit kailangang-kailangan mo na sila. Kaso anong magagawa mo kung wala ka sa priorities nila, kung hindi ka gaanong kaimportante sa buhay nila. Masakit no? Ganun talaga, truth hurts but the truth will set you free. Kaya mo ‘yan self. KAYANG-KAYA MO YAN!!