#ftm ask

[languidangel]

Hey I hope this question isn't too personal (if it is just ignore it). How do you feel emotionally after the surgery? Did it alleviate some of your dysphoria?

Sorry for taking so long to answer this, I was debating holding off until longer because I'm still dealing with aspects of post op depression (which I'll get to in a sec) but I thought that would be good to talk about in this ask.

Short answer is yes, I hardly feel any dysphoria over anything now. I do feel very occasional bottom dysphoria or social dysphoria but it's usually only when people mention something and now just me sitting around, randomly getting dysphoria (like top dysphoria was).

I enjoy being able to wear shirts that I was never able to wear. I enjoy not feeling random dysphoria in class and wanting to hunch over and hide. I haven't had much time with my chest and I still don't have my restrictions off but I can already see a brighter future ahead of me. I also picked a really good surgeon and I love the look of my chest and the placement and scars are basically perfect plus my body hasn't reacted weird (yet) so I'm having a pretty good time.

That being said I have been struggling with post op depression every now and again. It's not because I don't like my chest although I do miss having built in stress balls because that was a stim of mine but it's not like I can't find something else. It's more like because breast tissue makes estrogen plus I have restrictions and have to bind, I just want to be healed already and I'm having a hormone crash. Also I just hate winter a lot so all of these things are kind of making it hard to recover in peace. Other than that yeah I'm doing great.

[hetaliawhatifs]

Can I get a scenario with Allen and his ftm (pre transition)talk about having a family before they decide to fully transition?

So real talk: Admin Jay is trans (ftm), so this ask really hit home with me. So I am more than happy to answer this ask. Thank you anon, this really made my night.

“So, you said you wanted to talk?”“Yeah…wanna sit?”Allen blinked and slowly sat down as he raised an eyebrow. Whenever a conversation started like that, he normally got in trouble..but this time felt different…“Alright, what’s up? Something is bothering you…”“I wanted to ask you…about a family…”Allen immediately bit his lip. He knew that they preferred being a man, but would having a kid bother them? It was a lot to go through…but he knew they may not have a chance later…for once he didn’t even think of himself in this equation, all he wanted was for them to be okay with it. “Do you trust me with kids, sugar? Do you want this? I don’t want you going through hell if you aren’t sure.”Allen would hold his hand tightly and look him in the eye. He wouldn’t want them putting their body through hell more than the dysphoria already did. He would follow them wherever they went, and if they wanted a family, he would clean up his act all the way and be there for them. It was all on them to lead the way. 

[incognitomiamigo]

Hey guys I have an endocrinology appointment on June 27th, I have already gotten the education aspect done and already have a blood draw. Should I be able to start hormones that day???? Or what? The only reason I can think of for not starting is because of not having my blood drawn but since that will be done should I be able to start?

[oliverashton95]

Inbox is open

So yeah I’m in an emotional and mental state that’s substantially good enough to receive and reply to fanmail/asks/anons. Go nuts!

[imsorrycameron]

I'm ftm, but I'm pre-t and pre-op and I'm sitting in my room sobbing about hearing my birth name shouted across the house because dinner is ready and i'm looking at pictures of other people who are further along and I feel terrible and trapped so thank you for posting the "dealing with ftm misgendering" video from february, it was nice to hear.

aw, man i'm so sorry to hear you going through this rough patch! are you out to your family/housemates (not sure if you live with family or not)? things are going to get better though, i swear - even if it seems like it's not now! if you watch my videos or ftrealm's (my collab) videos, you should check out our "it gets better" week. matter of fact youtube search "ftm it gets better" to pull up bunches of videos of transguys talking about their lowest points and how now things are just too good. it takes time and patience but your day will come! if you ever wanna chat, anonymously or not, my ask is always open <3 and you are very welcome for the video! i hope you are feeling better!

[imsorrycameron]

Wow, you handled that very maturely. You've come a long way bro, I've followed you for a long time and I'm really happy you and Dakota are doing so well now. Kudos for being who you are and not spreading hate back to those sending it to you!

Thanks a ton mate! I (and Dak) appreciate the support! It's a great feeling to be surrounded by such positive vibes :]

[imsorrycameron]

why are you getting hate? I really like your shirt and respect what you are doing! Keep on c;

some people are just not very happy people so they can't feel happiness for anyone else. and thank you! much appreciated! :]