The Struggle is Real!
Where to start.
I am 32. I am a Mom of two beautiful, strong willed girls. I am a wife to a selfless, supportive Man who I love fiercely.
I am an addict.
I have been living behind bars while being controlled by food for quite some time now. On November 20, 2018, I decided I needed to make a change. I look at my energetic daughters and long to keep up with them. I started wondering what the best approach would be to start this journey. I wasn’t sure where to begin- with nutrition or with exercise. Finally, I decided to look in to the Weight Watchers program. It didn’t take long to gain the confidence I needed to take the plunge. I marched in to the nearest workshop WW offered and signed up. I went in with a mindset that I was investing in my body- my future. I knew in my heart that this was going to be a long journey and I was determined to make this lifestyle change. The program offers a way to connect with others going through similar obstacles. A way to stay encouraged.
After all, the starting point was in my heart.
I get off track all the time.
I tell my husband that I assume this is similar to rehab. The first couple weeks were empowering. I felt like a million bucks. After a month, the struggles really set in. Since I started this journey, I have “relapsed” almost everyday- whether it was eating something crappy and eating a massive amount of points, talking down to myself or taking a break from physical activity. But I always wake up the next day feeling a little bit stronger regardless- simply because I want a better life that bad.
We need to support each other. Everyone is battling something. This may not seem like a big deal to you but it is for me. I am still trying to break through completely but I am giving myself time. Food is not something you can just get rid of and decide to not be around it however I do have a choice on what I buy for the house.
Since November 20, 2018, I have lost 22 lbs. I had reached an all time unhealthy high of 188.8 lbs and I felt miserable. Everyday is hard. I wake up each morning and remind myself that it is a new day.
To those of you who feel controlled by something- each day is an opportunity to try to make a change. I know it’s scary and difficult. But you are human and you need to give yourself grace. You got this!
