End of Year Meme: all the 5 and 10’s if you please ;)
5. Post your favorite selfie.
Answered this already, see the tag.
10. What song sums up this year for you?
15. Which new ship/fandom has taken over a lot of your time, attention, and tears?
I’ve become less into ships and fandoms these days than I used to, though I guess Pulp fandom? Although they barely still have an online presence.
20. Did you develop a new obsession?
Yes, Jarvis Cocker and Pulp. I’ve been listening to Pulp since October 2016, I believe? But in April/May 2018 I got obsessed. YouTube recommended their music videos to me, I became enraptured with how sexy Jarvis’s stage presence is, and then spent an entire month listening to nothing but them because I was so stressed, and consuming every video and interview with the band or Jarvis I could find on YouTube.
25. Do you regret not doing anything?
Yes, not applying for some jobs or PhD opportunities because I my anxiety got the best of me and paralysed me from emailing lecturers and supervisiors, asking them to be referees. I let too many opportunities pass me by this year from that fear of sending emails.
30. Did you fall in love?
35. Who was important to you this year but wasn’t important last year?
My new friends from Madrid. I didn’t know them last year. Now I love them dearly.
40. Did anything happen that you were sure would change you as a person but it really didn’t?
I mean, I moved to Madrid this year. It was my first time properly living away from home, actually having to search for an apartment, pay rent, and live with people I don’t know in a new city. And it was wonderful. But despite it being a new experience and quite a big change, I don’t feel it changed me as a person all that much. All I know now is I absolutely cannot continue to live at home. I must get out, I must find somewhere to rent. Preferable with no more than three flatmates. Beyond that it just becomes an uncomfortable living situation and you don’t really become friends with your flatmates because it’s too hard to hang out.
45. Did your opinion of anyone change for worse?
No, not really. Not that I can think of. I mean, many many actors, but whatever. But of people I know in person, nobody horrified me and ruined my opinion of them. In fact, some improved. Several people showed themselves to be less of a knob than I had first suspected.
50. What do you wish for yourself?
I wish to succeed. I wish to find some measure of contentedness and happiness in my life, to find a job that I enjoy and stimulates me intellectually, that doesn’t leave me stressed all the time. I wish to begin a PhD sometime soon, and to enjoy that experience. I know it will be a lot, and there will be highs and lows, and that PhDs are hard, but I wish it is not so hard and so overwhelming that I crash and burn, a very real fear for me. I also wish to develop some actual fucking coping mechanisms so that I can enjoy my life and not get overwhelmed by whatever work/study I’m doing at the time. I know I need therapy, but it’s so fucking expensive.
