having an absolute fit over how Will as a narrator gives us so little about what's truly going on inside his head, but he really bluntly tells us outright us that what Sarcean wanted more than anything was Anharion and he knows it because he feels it
James was a gift he couldn't turn aside, and maybe when he'd ordered James killed all those lifetimes ago, he'd known that about himself.
James felt like Sarcean's most personal message, sent across time, a knowing enticement, as if to say, You see? We are the same.
It was more tempting than the Collar, Anharion's lips against his.
Will felt lost forever to the knowledge that James was all he had wanted in his past life.
it's the part of Sarcean he feels the most undeniably connected to, that feels the most real and alive and it's the part that we're watching him struggle the most with turning away from. and I'm supposed to just live with this