Aug 18th, 2022
After getting a weekend break I got back to reading papers. There's this cute Cafe near my place that I had been meaning to go to since 2019. At the beginning of July, I thought it was the perfect time to allow myself to fulfill this wish. It was the first time I actually studied outside my house since the pandemic. I don't have words to describe to you how free I felt, just going outside, without any worries on how much would it cost me, how long would it take, bcs I was doing something I wanted to, I was doing something for ME.
In the following week I kept working on the Master's pre-project. But I was still unsure whether my proposals were even feasible. That was distressing me bcs 1. I planned to have finished the project before making the first contact with the future advisor and 2. I was already a few days past the deadline I had set. Once again, my therapist helped me. She told me "Why are you waiting to send an email to the professor? You could send an email introducing yourself, saying you're interested in being his student and asking what you need to show him to be considered for that position, right?". For as simple as it is, to me it was mind-blowing! Therefore, I started working on that email.
