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I thought I was crazy until I played this route again, I knew his look had changed!

I like it but it scares me

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Bestie…. R U fine? Haven’t heard from you

yup!!! i've been doing awesome tbh, although in fairness i live a really comfortable life and generally i'm always doing fine. stuff's been pretty good lately, though!

i'm actually on an inspiration high, comparatively speaking, absolutely overflowing with ideas that i'm genuinely excited about... but not for jjk lol.

it's weird because i do still genuinely enjoy gojo. 90% of my free time is reading and several times i've looked at the male lead of a novel and gone "omg,,, gojo WOULD". but that's really about it for the moment, unfortunately.

i do tend to move fandoms every few years - the drive just burns out really hard - but these days i've been genuinely getting into the idea of writing original stuff.

i've been wanting to create my own visual novel for many years, and i did recently (like... sometime last year LMAO) come up with an idea for it. lately i read a novel i really REALLY loved and it made me start drafting out my own concept and honestly? it's been an awesome time.

in short... gosh bestie i love you all, and i still love gojo and all the things i enjoyed about this fandom. but my energy is just not there anymore.

i'm trying not to get into that "omg i wanted to do X, Y, Z, and answer ALL those asks" thing because if i do, i'll legitimately NEVER answer any asks or post on here again, and who really wants that?

but as to what i can post... man, i dunno. we'll have to see. BYHTD always was my lovechild and i loved the idea i had for it, so i definitely want to get that done. for the rest, i'm not so sure... but that is the life of a fanfic author shfglhsgd

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I was thinking about…

Ex-boyfriend Caleb.

You know the deal. Even before you make the relationship official, you know he is a toxic man and, for some absurd reason, obsessed with you.

And to be honest, at the beginning it was nice to have someone who actually cared about you, who listened to the things you said, someone who remembered your favorite flowers, your favorite shows, music, food, clothes. He even volunteered to take care of your hair; he said it was just taking one more thing off your plate, that you didn’t have to stress yourself about everything because he was there to help you.

But then… things started going downhill.

The first thing was your hair and bathing.

Later, your clothes. He would dress you and take you shopping, and it wasn’t like he controlled the way you dressed, it just made you feel like a doll, a toy for him to use.

You didn’t mind that he was dominating during sex; you enjoyed it, really. You were meant to be. The aftercare was just perfect, and you always napped together. He was so sweet after using you like a pocket pussy. You started to notice a pattern: feeding you, gift-giving, sex, sleep. Over and over, until you realized that it had been six months since you went out with your friends. They kept inviting you regardless of you not going.

To be honest, you didn’t care. You had just graduated college and excused yourself by saying you were job hunting, but the reality was that Caleb was providing for you: the rent, groceries, bills, and he even gave you an allowance for trinkets and other things. But then one message from Tara changed your whole perspective.

“It’s just like you were a pet for him, how cute.”

“Wydm?”

“I’m jealous! lol tbh I hate working TT”

A pet…? No… you were his girlfriend…

But—

He did bathe you every day.

And dress you.

And buy you cute clothes.

And feed you whatever he thought was best for your diet.

And take you to the gym, until he built you a gym in your apartment since you were starting to look way too good for any other eyes that weren’t his.

But still! You had your apartment… your apartment? He paid for it, and you two lived together…

Oh.

Oh no.

You really were a pet.

The fight was ugly.

Well, for you. He just stood there and took your screams and the things you threw at him.

— I’m going to move out!

— Really? —he chuckled— Tell me, pips, with what money?

— I’m going to live with Tara or my grandma, it doesn’t matter. You’re not going to treat me this way anymore.

— How? By spoiling your every whim? —he took a step closer to you.

You raised your watery gaze, and he cradled your face.

— Come on… don’t cry, sweet girl. You know it’s the truth… —he said with that overly condescending voice that reminded you exactly why this fight began.

— No. I need independence from you. I need to be an actual adult, not just your girlfriend.

That was easier said than done.

You were jobless, living on Tara’s couch, but this time you did go job hunting. Sharing instant noodles was nice—sure, it wasn’t your usual gourmet diet provided by Caleb.

Sometimes you missed him. That was when he wasn’t being a complete jerk: stalking you during job interviews, catcalling you in the grocery store aisle, sabotaging your coffee dates, bombarding you with messages about you quitting this tantrum.

That wasn’t even the worst part. He had entered his peacock era—sending you nudes, having food delivered to Tara’s place, expensive gifts that you’d end up giving to Tara as rent payment. And. It. Was. Working. You did miss him, but this behavior of his had to come to an end.

So you made a plan. You had to talk to him—a real talk—and since you didn’t want to fall into temptation, it was time to use the oldest card in your hand.

Being gross.

It was something you did in elementary school when you had already said no and kids didn’t stop bothering you: throwing chewed food at them, spitting, barking in their faces, and the list went on. You let all your body hair grow—not just for a week, this hair had a month’s worth of growth—and you didn’t shower before seeing him. That way, you would refuse to have sex with him, and if that didn’t work, he would be so grossed out that he would stop. There were no flaws in this plan.

Your plan failed. Miserably.

Not only were you back together, he wouldn’t shut up about the splendor of your natural scent. Now you were the disgusted one. He said he liked his meals seasoned when he was eating you out, and not to forget when he was sucking your nipples, he would take big sniffs of your armpits, saying how much he missed you.

Yep. You were stuck being a pet again.

At least now you were a conscious pet.

That’s better, right?

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heeeeey :3 I write another fic im going to practice to write smut! I hope you enjoy the reading, any feedback is welcome

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CW: yandereCaleb!mentions of pregnancy and delivering! Very yandereCaleb! A little angst!

Thinking about… not so good DadCaleb!

Don’t get him wrong you being pregnant was the most happy he ever felt in his life! Now you have a more deep bond

He was static to take care of you! Enjoy those sweet moments of your pregnancy… that was until the baby started to worsening your health.

Your pregnancy were chaotic, not only because the regular symptoms of the condition, but due to your heart condition, your life was in very high risk.

He hated that. He hated that something he did was putting your life in danger. You obviously consoled him when he was crying due to the guilt, that those things just happens.

So beautiful, so kind you were, you are so suitable to be a mother, you loved your baby. Even if it was difficult for you to carry it. It was the proof that your love triumph over all the difficulties.

The day of delivery arrived. It was messy, painful, scary. You almost die while giving birth… actually your heartbeat stop and they had to resuscitate you, Caleb was so helpless… he didn’t want you to get pregnant in the first place, he knew this would happen, he should persuaded more, he should have get a vasectomy in secret to the prevent all this. It was his fault.

But the way you look your baby when you were stable enough to meet her… you cry, your little girl cry, he cried, all of you for different reasons. You made this little human, you made it. You have a family of your own, a loving family this was just the beginning of your new life! You loved your baby girl, it was instant love, and she has your eyes! the smile of his daddy it was the perfect combination of you two

Caleb hated that thing it was stealing away your attention from him, that thing that make you in pain, that thing that make you die. Literally, and you were looking at it with so much love you didn’t even look at him with that much love

He took care of her, obviously but it was for you! You love this thing, he has to admit it is pretty, especially her eyes, because they were your eyes. But he decided he hated her, not that he would show it or neglect her… he wouldn’t even dare to think to hurt her, you love her! If anything happens to the thing you would be so sad… so heartbroken… he couldn’t bare the smallest thought of that scene. You put so much effort in your pregnancy going diligently to your check-ups, taking prenatals, exercising, decorating the nursery

But the thing put you in danger, while your heart stopped he decided if you weren’t here he would just gave away the thing. The thing that kill his wife. None that happened since you were alive and recovering your health… and the resentment for the thing only grows more and more, the parasite who steal your attention, taking everything from you. He heard that women after giving birth gained a little more of weight and it was fine! He loved you no matter what you look like, but you were so skinny due to the breastfeeding… he is so worried… and the thing only grows more and more, like if it were stealing your life. And you didn’t care, you jokingly said that your daughter was so thoughtful for helping you to be in your best shape!

He didn’t though it was funny, your life in risk it wasn’t funny, that you loved the thing more than him it wasn’t funny

And worst part it is that she look just like you… with his hair that breaks all the illusion of him taking care of you if you were a baby. He had decided that no more children, even if you cried, he is getting that vasectomy in secret, you don’t have to know, he knows what’s better for you anyway, he make your wish to become mother true and who’s that’s going…

N/A: just overthinking in that kind of situations hahaha, please tell me if I made any mistakes English is not my first language feedback is very welcomed! Enjoy my first fanfic! <33

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I loooooove that my skin is darker that all the LI’s bc of the skin contrast

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I really hate how easy I am for Sylus 😭😭 and he would absolutely take advantage of that

I’d be acting out like I’m mad at him for something minor and he just look at me and say

“Really sweety?”

And I’d fold like a wet paper towel

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If Sol was a omega he would steal DNA from MC to get himself pregnant and babytrap MC

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I don’t consider myself as an attractive person, that’s why I love yanderes so much, like yeah, love and valide me with all my flaws is really turning me on